Forgive me?
I made this poem a while back when i wanted a friend of mine to forgive me for something. well he did forgive me, im just not sure if it was because of this poem or not. i dont think it was though. but ya i wrote it for him just the same.
“I never want to talk to her again”
Those were your words.
The pain they gave me was more than I had ever thought I could feel.
I always thought a broken heart was an exaggeration,
Until those words from you.
My friend, I’ve made mistakes before,
So many of them.
I like to think I’ve put them behind me,
But the hurt they’ve caused continue to burn within my heart.
These days I still make mistakes,
I still feel pain because of them,
Yet I learn from them.
But the wrongs I do that hurt you or give you pain are the ones that tear my soul apart.
The mere thought of ever hurting you
Gives me such misery,
Such pain,
Such deep sorrow…
To give you pain, to know you could never forgive me…
I could never live like that.
I’m holding on by a thread.
A word from you could cut me from the world completely
or keep me anchored to it forever.
Knowing that I may lose you as a friend
Would give me more pain that I ever thought possible.
Losing you would mean losing myself,
Losing the very same soul you gave back to me.
You’ve come to mean that much to me.
You once said that you would be there for me…
Always and forever
But where are you now when I’m needing you the most?
You said I was your true friend,
Someone you trusted,
Someone you would die for…
So why can’t you forgive me now?
Why can’t you see that of all the people I know,
It’s you that I would never hurt
Hurting you would mean hurting my truest friend.
The one person that was there for me when no one else cared,
The one person I felt I could trust when I lost faith in all the world
Have I lost that person forever?
My friend, I would give my life for you…
Give up my life just to know you are well,
To know you are happy,
To know you will never see the cruelties of the world,
To give you back the sweet innocence of a child,
And to know you will never feel the sorrow,
the deep black sorrow I felt when I realized I hurt you.
If I could take it all back,
If I could go back to the time you still looked at me as a friend,
as someone you could trust…I would.
But I can’t do that.
All I can do is tell you that you mean so much to me.
You did so much for me…given me so much
You’ve touched my life in ways I can’t even express.
If there was ever a time that you thought of me as a friend,
Someone you actually cared about,
Please accept me back into your life.
Let me heal the hurt I caused.
Allow me to show you that I never want to do wrong to you,
That I care about you, have cared about you, and will always care for you.
Nothing will ever change that.
You said you would never hurt me.
Give me one more chance,
One more chance to let you see that I would never hurt you.
It’s all I ask of you.
A second chance to make things right between us,
Just a second chance…
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