~~~ Going Home Again ~~~

Elizabeth, 28 yrs old, lawyer, only tries rape cases, has 100% conviction rate. Married to Lucky since right out of high school, he owns a computer consulting firm started it with money he borrowed from his dad, and as since paied him back. They have 2 boys, 8 and 6, Michael and Justin.

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"Mom- Dad, your family is here." Lucky says from the doorway walking into his parents house, not more than a month since he saw them last. Since his dad had loaned him the money to start his own business in New York, Lucky had been back in Port Charles many times. Most of them without Elizabeth but with thier two boys. Elizabeth was a good wife and mother, she was just a little preoccupied with work. As soon as she passed her bar exam, into the courtroom she went, sending one accussed rapist after another to prison for as long as the law would let her. She has become a little obsessed and Lucky had to argue with her a bit to get her to come back to Port Charles with him this time. This time was thier 10 yr high school reunion.

"Lucky!" Laura exclaimed running into the livingroom from the kitchen. She kissed her son then took her grandchildren into a hug. "Michael I think you've grown a foot. Justin, your hair is just like your father used to wear his." She kissed them both then stood up and greeted Elizabeth, shocked to see her in her business suit. "Liz- I'm affraid I might wrinkle you. Come here." Laura hugs Liz and finally Luke comes in to greet the clan.

Michael and Justin run to him immediately and jump into his open arms. "Papa" they scream. Luke had two more boys that idolized him. Lucky laughed, remembering how wonderful a feeling that is. Knowing how much love his boys can give. Luke greeted his family and gave Elizabeth a hassle for dressing like one of those legal bums.

"Luke be nice to me or I'll throw your scrawny ass in jail." Knowing what he did to Laura but not meaning that. Michael and Justin step in front of him, "no you won't mom."

"Elizabeth sweetie why dont' you go change into jeans and we'll go visit some friends, maybe hit Eli's." Lucky smirks.
"OH you do know how to tempt a woman. Be right back."

Lucky asks his parents to keep an eye on the boys and he and Elizabeth go roaming around town. Lucky holds her hand and guides her through the streets like he has don't so many times.
"Elizabeth look, our bench." Lucky pulls her over to the bench and sits her down on his lap. He starts to kiss her as his left hand slides between her knees, not moving at all just keeping it warm, or so he tells her later.

"Spencer is that really you?" Emily smiles from the end of the pier.
"Em!" Lucky smiles, Elizabeth gets up and the old friends hug. Emily hugs Elizabeth too, and then she hugs Juan - Em's husband, and Lucky and Juan shake hands. Juan and Emily had gotten together right after Lucky and Elizabeth, however they had a few obstacles, so after a few minor seperations, Juan finally asked her to marry him when they were 20. They now had 2 children. Larissa, 6 and Steven, 4. The four of them exchange plesanties for a few minutes, mainly about thier children as a little girl thats 7 comes running up to Lucky and jumps on his lap.
"Marya where is that ugly father of yours?"
"Uncle Lucky, Daddy is kissing mommy." Marya giggles.
"Sly get your tongue out of your wifes mouth and get over here" Lucky hollars and Juan laughs.
"What is it my fault that Cassie stole my gum?" Sly comes over holding his wife's hand tightly and greets everyone.
"Marya, are you being sassy?" Cassie smiles.
"Yep...just like my daddy taught me to." She sings.
"Sly!"
"HI lover." He smirks hoping to get himself out of trouble by being cute.
"So - are you guys going to stick around Port Chuckles after the reunion?" Emily asks Lucky and Elizabeth.
Lucky then looks to his wife.

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Elizabeth looks to Lucky and wordlessly tells him that they will be staying in NY.
"I don't think we'll be moving back just yet. But within the year I'd like to be back in Port Charles.
"Lucky!" Elizabeth almost screams.
Lucky ignores her. "Marya - when are your parents going to give you a brother or sister?"
"I dont' know but daddy says he's trying."
"SLY!" Cassie yells at him.
"HI lover." Sly smirks.
"Sly when I get you home" Cassie leaves it unfinished.
"Are you going to tie me to the bed and have your way with me?" He asks hoping.
"SLY!"
"CAS! I love you sexy." He quickly takes his wife into his arms and kisses her deeply.

The three couples go to Kelly's to catch up and finally Lucky and Liz return to the hotelroom Lucky rented. He had called his parents and asked them to watch the boys, he and Liz needed time alone without intruding ears. His dad understood and Lucky brought Liz to hotel in Port Charles, not the PC hotel but a nameless one where they wouldn't be recognized.

"Lucky, what are we doing here?" Elizabeth asks.
"Elizabeth, we are going to fight thats what we are doing here." Lucky tells her.
"OH we are?" Elizabeth asks with her hands on her hips.
"Yes we are. I am completely irritated so lets do this." Lucky advises and strips down to his boxers, and Liz takes all her clothes but her shirt and panties off and they both crawl into bed. Liz lays down on top of Lucky and says, "OK what are you mad about?"
"Give me your hand" Lucky orders, they made this pact about fighting about 11 years ago and so far its worked. Whenever either of them were mad at the other, they would have to get in thier night clothes, and lay down like they were going to make love, (which meant Elizabeth on top) and hold hands. With them being in that position, they were unable to get away from one another and unable to really be mean, they would have to talk openly and thier hearts just wouldn't let them get mean.
"Ok, Elizabeth, I've decided something, we are moving back to Port Charles by the end of the year so you should start getting used to it."
"Lucky how can you just unilatterly make this decision?"
"Because Elizabeth, you've been making all the decisions for the last 10 years. I'm tired of living my life by your need for revenge."
"Lucky thats not fucking fair."
"Elizabeth! You have to admit, we haven't even come home for the holidays mor e times than I care to recall because of some case you were working on. Our boys and I are moving back to Port Charles and this time I'm going to lay down the law with you Mrs Spencer."
Elizabeth jumps off of him.
"Elizabeth, no, get back here."
"NO Lucky you're being an insensitive asshole."
"Oh I am? I'm insenstive? I'm an asshole? Elizabeth Imogene Spencer I have been coddling your ass since you were raped 12 years ago. When are you going to realize that I'm not the enemy, that no matter how many rapist you get the book thrown at they aren't Tom."
"Lucky! Thats not what I'm trying to do." Elizabeth says from near the bathroom.
"I"m not talking to you until you get back over here." Lucky says.
Elizabeth walks over to him and lays back down on top of him and holds his hand. "I still dont' think you're being fair."
"I dont' think you've been fair to me for a long time Elizabeth." Lucky tells her honestly.
"Are you tired of me?" She asks.
"I'm tired of paying for a crime a createn committed. Do you realize in 10 years we've made love exactly 3 times with me on top of you. 3 times.
2 of those times we made children, the other time was after I begged you for 3 days, you finally let me on our 5th wedding anniversary. Elizabeth I want you to get back into therapy. This isn't right." Lucky says by way of the last word.

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"Hey Cas." Sly smiles after they made love.
"Yes sexy." She says, her head on his chest.
"What do you think about Lucky and Liz? Somethings wrong with them isn't it?"
"Sly. Don't go into thier marriage." Cas warns him.
"I have to- Cas she's making him unhappy."
"Sly do you honestly think that after 12 years Lucky is now unhappy? He's a grown man - if hes unhappy let him figure it out, he'll come to you if he needs a friend."
"Why are you so smart?" Sly smiles rolling over to face his wife.
"One of us has to be." She laughs rolling on top of him. "Can I have you again?"
"Cas - have I ever said no to you?" Sly smiles.
"NO you dont' say no to me for anything. You are too precious. You are the sexiest man alive."
"You just say that because you want my body." Sly smirks.
"Of course I want your body, your erection is pressing against me already you might as well give me my pleasure."
"OH might as well huh?" Sly smirks as he rolls them over and he traces and invisible trail from Cassie's ear to her left breast.
"Sly"
"What lover?" He asks innocently.
"You are driving me crazy." She smiles.
"I wouldnt' want to do that- do you want me to stop?"
"Please don't." Cas begs and kisses him deeply.

"Emmy - what do you think about today's activities." Juan asks from behind Emily, they are spooning and ready for sleep.
"Juan I just don't get Elizabeth, she's had Lucky for 12 years and it doesn't seem like she cares, if she only knew how easy that love was to lose she'd care. She'd never want to lose him the way I almost lost you. I love you Juan."
"I love you Emmy. Night love." Juan kisses her shoulder and holds her close.


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After the goodbyes are said and Liz and Lucky are back in New York, thier kids are unhappy because they wanted to stay in Port Charles with thier friends.
When they put the kids to bed that night Lucky brings a vcr tape out of hiding.
"Elizabeth do you remember the night you asked me about adult videos - probably 8 years ago?"
"Yes - you taped us. So we could watch ourselves." Elizabeth recalls.
"I want you to sit in my arms and watch that tape with me right now."
"Lucky I'm not in the mood for that." She says matter of factly.
"Elizabeth trust me when you watch this you wont' be sexually turned on - I wasn't." Lucky put the tape in the vcr and sat on the bed and she sat between his legs and leaned her back against his chest.
Lucky pushed play on the remote and let his wife watch, on the tape Elizabeth is very into loving Lucky, until he rolls them over and gets on top of her. She starts wiggling and opening her eyes, Liz can see herself and how uncomfortable she is when he's on top of her. For the first time Elizabeth sees what Lucky sees, she sees the terror in her eyes, and she realizes that has to hurt him every time.
"Elizabeth heres the deal. I've been the most loving, caring, generous man in your life for 12 years now. Its about time you love me that way. Its time that your husband and children come before your mission in life. Its time I come before the memories of that Tom did to you." Lucky tells her exhausted.


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"Sly will you just tell me I screwed up? Will you yell at me?" Cas screams at him.
"No." Sly says calmly.
"OH so I can do whatever I want and you wont' yell. Will you ever get mad at me for anything? Sly I was flirting in front of you."
"I know what you were doing Cassandra- I'm mad at you right now, but I'm not going to blow a gasket over it."
"Why? Why will you not stand up to me? Why do I get away with anything?" Cassie asks him hoping he's mad enough to tell her.
"Because Cassandra- I've lost both of my parents, grandparents, most of my aunts and uncles, my guardian - and all of that before I was 12 - I wont' lose you. Not over something this fucking dumb. I know you'd never cheat on me - you love me to much, you're playing a mind game - I dont know why and I dont' care I'm not participating in your games. Play them yourself, I know you'll be in my bed in my arms at the end of the night."

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Emily crawls on top of Juan in the middle of the night and begins to fulfill his dream. She knows he's having a sexual dream because he is rock hard. She slides her body down so that he fills her and begins to move, ever so slightly, Juan wakes up a few moments later and they make love. He enjoys the way he woke up from his dream. After thier bodies find thier peak, Emily won't move from on top of him,
"Juan its the perfect time for conception."
"Emily theres no reason to do me when I'm sleeping. We've made children before."
"Yeah but you heard the Dr, I shouldnt' have them after thirty, they are more high risk."
"So what Em? Are you going to take me with or without my permission?"
"You've never minded before. But I'll ask. Promise" She smiles and bites at his lower lip.

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A few days later:

For the last few days since they got back to NY, Elizabeth has been fuming silently. How dare Lucky put a time frame on her emotions, how dare he lay down the law like that. Today he would hear exactly what she thought of him.
She walked in the door and the kids were in their beds already, she glanced at the clock, 930pm, damn she missed bedtime again. She had left before they woke up this morning.
"Lucky - bedroom, now!" Elizabeth says already removing her skirt.
Lucky gets up from the den and walks into the bedroom, removing his shirt and then his jeans. As soon as they were disrobed they crawled into bed, and she crawled on top of him. Her fingers interlaced with his and she looked at him.
"Lucky - you hurt me. By telling me that its time I stop dealing with my rape you hurt me. Do you know what it feels like to be raped? Do you have any idea how it feels to have something shoved inside of you forcefully, while a fist comes down on your cheek? Do you know what its like to have your nipple bit so hard it bleeds? You dont' Lucky, because the only way you've ever been with someone is with love, you've only ever been with me. I love you Lucky with all of me but you have no right to tell me how I can feel and for how long its appropriate. You've never been there Lucky, you've never been beaten and used and torn and scarred, you've never wished to God he would just kill you rather than hurt you anymore. You dont' know what its like to be scared of your own shadow, or to get physically sick at the sight of your own body knowing that his dick was inside of you. You have no idea what its like to have something inside of you taken away, he took away my faith, my freedom, my self esteem, my dignity, my love for life, Lucky he took away what I wanted to give you - my purity. So don't you ever, ever, ever sit here and tell me to get over it or stop dwelling on it, until you've felt it Lucky you have no right. Yeah so what I was punishing other rapists for Tom's crimes but you know what - I was doing a damn good job getting scum that shouldnt' even be allowed to call themselves a man off the streets so that another 15 yr old girl sitting in the park, when she thinks its safe doesn't have to go through what I did. GOT IT?"
"Elizabeth"
"OH and another thing Lucky - dont' you ever lay down the law like that - when we got married it was for better or worse - so this was the worse part but I'll tell you what - no where in my vows does it say the word obey- so dont' dictate to me or you'll find out just how much of a Spencer I really am."
"Elizabeth - I'm sorry. I never meant to tell you to get over it, I know you can never get over it - you can move on but its always there. All I meant was that its time not hurting me starts to matter more than hurting Tom. He's in jail Elizabeth, he can't hurt you, but if you'll let me I can love you so perfectly."
"Lucky I want to move with you and the boys, but I can't give up working- it helps me. Also I want to work on a different position with you."
"Really?" Lucky asks hopeful.

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