30.4.01
SO WHO WANTS TO TALK ABOUT SEX?!?!? I don't. That's why I'm going to discuss something totally different. Today, I finished up 3 of my 4 finals. My last one is on Wednesday. I've done alot of thinking lately, and my world seems to have snapped somewhat back into place after that strange funk I was in. I still have a piece of that funk for future reference, and alot of my funkiness really helped my total being. Lauer and I kissed and made up because we fucking rule (hey, I did mention sex!... you can figure that one out for yourself.) I also learned today that the DSM-IV, a manual that decides whether to put people in institutions or not, isn't scientific. Yep, that's right! A book that has thousands of manhours invested into it as a research tool for correct diagnoses and making strong beer is NOT scientific. Oh well, I guess we'll go back to throwing darts to decide who is insane and who isn't. I just ate 4 white castles that had sit out over night. I think they fermented because I feel odd right now. It's as if my bowels are slipping out of my butthole. No, that's happened everytime I've eaten White Castle. REMEMBER! DO NOT REVEAL YOUR PERSONALITY!!!! THEY WILL USE IT AGAINST YOU!!! Can someone please tell me what the FUCK is up with THIS?!?! 52 hits?? COME ON!!!
26.4.01*ADDENDUM*
You know, I was just looking over some web pages of old. It makes me miss my old friends that fucked me over. I really wish they hadn't done the things that they'd done... oh well, I suppose what will happen will happen... everything works out for the best... and most importantly.. C'est la vie! I'm not saying what I want to here, because I still feel lacking in these words. I'm going to go buy some hamburger and be back later. I think maybe I'll write then. See ya!
26.4.01
DAILY UPDATES ON THIS PAGE?!?! NO FUCKING WAY!!! Yes way... I am doing it now! Watch, this will be the last update until 2004. I think I have an infected sinus. No, you can't see it. If you could I'd show it to you though. You know, recently I've been using ICQ less and less. I'm gradually switching over to AIM. Big difference huh? Anyway, if you have something to say... then you should hunt me down and talk to me. It's really not all that hard.. I mean, c'mon. The west frontier of Lafayette gets purty lonely sometimes. I'll even buy you beer. =) heheh. I've been tossing around the idea of doing away with the movies section and replacing it with a "Fuck You Blue" archive. I know you can just see them in teh updates...but I'm sort of curious what they look like all together? I wonder if there are any sort of trends? With the exception of cuss words and large type. Welp, I think I'm gonna go do nothing because studying is for LOSERS! See ya!
25.4.01
Haha! When I first saw this story, I thought it was a joke. Just read the title, doesn't it sound like something from The Onion? Anyway, I'm thinking of making "Fuck You Blue" a weekly installment. People are just that ignorant and bullheaded. Regardless, I do my best and that satisfies me. Word to the wise: When a "friend" lies on numerous occasions, it probably means they aren't your friend. When a "friend" can't accept who you are, they probably aren't your friend. When the "Pope" says he is keeping Jesus's seat warm, he's probably not the Pope. Oh well, c'est la vie. You win some you lose some. Just remember that the spice of life is that there were "some" and not "none." Have a fantastic Wednesday! A BIG fucking thanks to Sid Meier for his works of genius. Tschus!
24.4.01
Well ladies and gentlemen, I think next year will be my last year here at Purdue. Well, I know it will be my last year...but I think it will be my last year education wise. I'm going to apply to a couple of grad schools, but I'm really not hoping for any miracles. After everything that's happened this semester, I don't think I can take the stress of continuing my education and beyond. Did you know that to some people, that makes me less of a person? Yeah! Wouldn't that be a sad life to lead? Thinking that the only people of worth in this world are doctors? Now that I think of it, isn't it a sad life to lead to assign worth to people in the first place? Welcome to America I guess. It's been a shitty year. I sure hope next year is better. You know, when I was younger I never thought that I'd look at time units that large. A whole year is HUGE when you are a kid...now that we've belted back around 20 or 21 of them... they aren't such a big deal. Hell, I didn't even care when I turned 21. I went out and drank and that was about it... it's really the last big bang of your extended childhood. Well, regardless of how bad it is now, tomorrow is another day with new promises and new potential for making the rest of the year better, right? Right. On a happier note, I've started to play Civilization II again. I really like that game. I think it's the whole idea of controlling an empire and it being successful. =) Well, I have some GPA crunching to do. Say goodbye to my 4.0! BYE 4.0!!! =) See you in hellllll!!! heheh... Have a great day everyone!
23.4.01
Ok, I officially have THE biggest headache. It hurts. It hurts so bad I feel as if my eyes are going to just excrement themselves out of my skull. I got in last night at about 11pm from Illinois. That's not the problem. I woke up today at 5:45am to go to work. That's not the problem. I go to work. They don't need me. That's not the problem. I just HAVE THIS HEADACHE. *sigh* Regardless, things in my world haven't been to shabby. Things with Steph, while rocky at times, only get better. This past weekend we saw Freddy Got Fingered at the theater. To most, this movie was an abomination to humanity. To me, this film represented a bit more than that. I hate to give away the film a bit, but in my infinite wisdom I feel I need to express my view on this. =) hehe... Anyway, as silly as the film may seem, it makes an important point in my mind. Life. Live to live. Yes, that's right... you heard me.. I've said it before and I'll say it again... live to LIVE. Why? How? Just live and you will live. Just go out there and do things and you will be participating in the act of living. Life is hard. Life is bloody. Life is violent and disturbed. Does that stop us? NO! We continue to live..through molestation... we live.. through the lies... we live.. through the blood and guts of giving birth to the concussive injuries we receive in the act of living... we live. Trust me on this one. The pain is worth it. The trust is worth it. The lack of sleep, alcohol, the cigarettes.. IT'S ALL WORTH IT. PRAISE PHILIP MORRIS! PRAISE CORONA! For without them we would not be ALIVE! INSANE!
20.4.01
Ok, I know I usually use these updates to just shovel bullshit in your face, but today I've actually got something serious to talk about. I was reading on Yahoo (everyone's favorite news source =P) that the Chinese have imprisoned a few of our "intellectuals" over the past year or so. I believe there were five total, but I can't remember. Anyway, I'm really scared. We've gone SO long with peace in our time... well, peace meaning without war.. which doens't have to be peace at all.. now that I think about it... peace isn't necessarily "without war" now is it? We've had somewhat of an international peace.... if you don't count Somalia... or Yugoslavia... or Grenada... or the Falkland Islands... or .... well, nevermind. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that I think our new President is going to war with China. I think all this stuff is set up. We all know what war does to an economy right? Well, last I checked a republican being able to hold up an economy effectively is like asking your grandfather to screw without the use of viagra. Think about that one. Anyway, you get the picture... but what happens when your grandfather is allowed to take Viagra? He screws and keeps it up right? Well, what happens when you give a republican president a war? He screws and keeps it up. That didn't mirror as well as I'd hoped. Regardless, a war would equate to a booming economy just like lil GWB knew when he was growing up post WWII. The next FDR??? I don't think so.... Well, I hope you all have a great weekend... and don't worry too much. I'm going out of town but I'll be back Sunday. See you all then! Take care!
16.4.01
Four and twenty blackbirds baked in a pie. I'm trying to read this book, and I can't start it but I don't know why. It's called Lao Tzu's Tao Te Ching. Sometimes I pretend that my arm's in a sling. I'm eating some ice cream because it tastes really good. I'm excited that wrestling is on tonight every Monday I understood... Wow, this is just getting deeper and deeper into the poetic liscence shit hole. Anyway, just thought I'd chime in and see what was up. I think we passed 1,500 hits.. which is great because it means people actually read this shit. I've got finals coming up so don't expect a huge amount of updates. I'll probably write a couple of these garbagy limericks to soothe your Fritzy soul. In the meantime, I think you should explore your options.
15.4.01
Well, Easter has proven an interesting experience for me. Everything has become an uneasy standoff between factions. It seems that once I've achieved and internal balance, the balance of everything else has toppled. Alas, such is life.. c'est la vie... I'd write more, but I just figured you guys would appreciate the Heads Up that I'm still alive. No one reads this anyway, so who am I talking to? That's an interesting statement actually. An interesting view... who or what is this page directed at... the simple answer is me... the complex answer I'll think about and report back next time I feel ambtious.. take care all!
5.4.01
WORD!!!! Hi. This is an official statement saying that I am absolutely positively insane. If having vision is correlated with insanity... Yes. I am insane. If loving someone is insanity.. then yes.. I am insane... if breaking away from our traditional bullshit fend for yourself American rhetoric.. then yes.. I am insane. If doing what is right is wrong... then i am the absolute worst sinner on the face of this earth. To all those who would prefer to abuse my time and feelings... FUCK YOU. To all those people who need green to feel absolved of sin and self-actualized... FUCK YOU. I feel no feelings towards any of you. You are all still my brothers and sisters.. but I will cannot deal with those who will not deal with me. These links make me feel good. Enjoy.
EINS | ZWEI | ZOFA!!!
4.4.01
Hey all! Well, we are watching the demise of the Internet. Just like everything else we've ever stood for that was "cool" or "neat", we have been bought. When the market fell under us... we will be sold... how do you sell that which cannot be sold? You take it away from its rightful owners.. and keep it in a shelf... in a dark box.. away from everyone else. I don't know about you, but I'm going to miss the internet. I'm going to miss sharing all my feelings with you guys. It doesn't matter anyway. No one reads this shit...It's tough to lose friends you know? But, no matter what happens I've got the big guy upstairs. I've always got my diary. I've got my CD collection and a CD player. I know that no matter what happens, I'll have my soulmate. I know Davie's never gonna leave me. =) Man... remember that time you left that book on top of my car and I got so pissed? Or that time we hung out with Marsha and Amanda and we both got grounded? hehehehe... "Davie, go back to your cage!!!" hehe... Man, I'm fucking bawling my eyes out. =) The world keeps on spinning... and we aren't getting any younger... remember all those dreams we had? All those plans to start a business or a comedy club?? Davie... Thank you. For all those times that I needed you... thank you. For being the only person who noticed the world was a little quieter when I was removed... thank you. There's so much that you deserve... so much this world needs to give you... and it's made me so happy to see you finally living out your dreams and going to that Massage Therapy place... I've said it before and I'll say it again.. if there's anything you need/desire.. please tell me so that I may be the first to provide it. Take care man.. and thank you for being there from fucking day one.. you bitch. =) I love you Davie.
19.3.01
Greetings everyone. I just want to give a shout out to Stephanie Lynn for being such a great girlfriend. I love you Stephanie... I know we have our rought times, but we will persevere with work on both of our parts. These times may prove really awkward at times, but it's just a matter of time before you and I are together forever. Take care of yourself, and don't get too pincushiony. I love you soulmate.
HAHAHAH!!! THAT'S MY SOULMATE!!! HAHAHAHH!
18.3.01
Wow, two updates in one week? MMAAAAAANNN.. crazy shit huh? Anyway, the shrine is undergoing some SERIOUS changes... by the way, that cool applet running that slide show in the pictures section is part of the anfy java package. I can't remember where I got it, but when I do I'll post the link again. Also posted a couple new pics under Purdue Buddies for your pleasure. A new section called "What the Hell Were We Thinking?" is going to be up soon. This will include all the crazy shit we've done that was recorded on film. Again, I'm always working on new content.. and now that I've found a source for decent .au sound files, I can get this other thing up and running.. it'll be a laugh riot.. I might take Riot down so I can do this.. hehe.. Anyway, take care all.. don't strain yourselves too hard tomorrow.. Spring Break does bad things for the will to work/live. CIAO!
15.3.01
Today's Update! Alot of you won't understand this, but I'm going to lay it out how it is. I know at least some of my readers were hardcore video game players. You know at the end of the game? After you've beaten the final boss and you just have to go to the last place to return object x to King/Princess/Skateboard shop Owner Y? You know how lonely that walk was from that last place back "home"? No monsters.... no music... just blank terrain... you felt the monochrome sand at your feet... your now dull 16 pixel sword at hanging at your side. You might go for kicks and buy a new Heart Shield since that stupid Pancake Monster ate yours.... But all in all, you are rich from all the fighting, you have every item in the game... and you are about to go win "the game." Kids... that's where I feel I am... I have no idea what the sequel is going to be like... I don't know whether it'll be First Person Shooter (or in my case First Person Complainer) or a Real Time Strategy (Get Fritz to class in 30 minutes by clearing the path.. heheh) Hey.. hehe.. It could even be a Puzzle game! Fritz-tris! YEAH! hehe.. Anyway, this is where I am in life. I have found a young lady that I want to marry. I never believed the hype of love and companionship until I experienced it for myself. God could only teach me so much without my experiencing it mono e mono. Actually, this all relates best to the Castlevania series. The first was just simply "KILL DRACULA BECAUSE HE'S A MEAN AND NASTY PERSON!" THe sequel followed with the same side scroller format.. but many more items and paths to follow.. but NOTE THIS... for the similarities begin here.. remember the end of the game? You kill dracula.. but there were 3 different endings I think. Either you lived, or you died.. or you lived for awhile then became a vampire!!! Right now, I am praying that I will live and not become a "vampire" so to speak. Anyway, my point is this: In the next few months some of you will think I'm mad.. some of you might feel neglected. Rest assured that neither is true. The characters are always welcome in the sequel and are never EVER forgotten. Tell me, did any of you REALLY forget Toad in the first Super Mario Brothers? When Link came back in the second Zelda...did you forget about Gannon? OF COURSE NOT! Listen, I LOVE YOU ALL... don't worry about me... I can take my licks and still stand... and all of your past, present, and future help is MUCH appreciated. My roomie's hamster just scared the shinagle out of me. Anyway, I believe I'm going to spend tonight scanning pics of my 21st birthday. The reason the pictures are being held up is because I'm still having problems thumbnailing to keep standard with the old format. Anyway, expect a shrine overhaul very soon. Fritzy out.