28.2.01

My drivers liscence expires riiiggghhtt... NOW. I have to get that renewed tomorrow. Anyway, just here to bitch about how much midterms SUCK ASS. Can you believe this? A ROUGHT DRAFT FOR A 12 PAGE PAPER DUE TUESDAY.. AND AN EXAM IN THE SAME DAMN CLASS ON WEDNESDAY??? I don't think so. *sigh* I'm photo editing the pics so they fit the thumbnail format as usual. I think I updated ACB... I can't remember. He has one letter already sent in to him... that plastic bastard. Anyway, Once i get the pics thumbnailed I'll post them. The problem is switching from Photoshop to this program called Iphoto or something. It doens't suck as bad as I thought.. just different styles... It's actually pretty easy to use and plain faced once you start using it.. just YOU.. not me using it.. just YOU. =) I'LL USE FUCKING FIRST PERSON VOICE IN MY PAPERS IF I WANT... just so you know. Check ya latah Hoez. In the meantime, go find some porno or read the new commercialized Stile. >=P
24.2.01

IIIIIII BUUUUURRRNNNNNNN. I just worked out... and I feel a little better... I got the bank thing worked out... I feel alot less... worried about shit.. mostly people. Here's a thing for you... hypocrites... I fucking hate them... can't say that I'm not one myself... after all I am human.. right?? Exactly. You know this whole forgiving as you would have been forgiven?? Well.. what if you NEVER would've done the thing that that person did to you? What if it was so atrocious... that you wouldn't even fucking THINK of hurting someone like this?? Interesting proposition no? Where does my Lord draw the line there? Huh? Your guess is as good as mine. At least I've got a couple of saving graces... I've got God... and as much as I bitch and whine... I know He loves me... and He knows I love him... I've got my family.. right? We've worked out alot of stuff over the past year or so... that's a good thing right? I've found a soulmate... let me rephrase that.. been blessed with the chance to even FIND my soulmate.. much less defying all odds to be with her. I want you all to know... that there isn't one FUCKING night that doesn't go by that I don't thank God for her... for everything she's done for me... and the shot at happiness that I earned. I worked hard for that chance.. I braved hell.. I killed.. I slaughtered... I stood at the precipice of insanity... I was ready to eat the world alive... and because I didn't.. because I backed off and made peace with those who didn't necessarily offer it to me... I've got friends that will stick with me through thick and thin... through love and hate... to hell and back.. quite literally. =) You know... I do have a lot to be thankful for. I think.... I don't think I'll ever be rid of this sword.. it's like it's fused to my hand... but I can choose to hood it or not... I can choose to use my advantage or keep myself at bay. I will always have that blood-thirsty tyrant inside me. I show my love and devotion to God by supressing that horrible thing. I have been wrestling with one question though God.. if you are reading.. what happens when I run out of cheeks to be slapped?
24.2.01

I'm really not sure what it is. Maybe it's the fact I'm $11 in the hole according to my bank. Maybe it's the fact I don't have a job for the summer. Maybe it's the fact my soulmate is a hundred miles away. Maybe it's the fact I have 3 exams AND a term paper due by Wednesday of next week. Regardless, I am feeling mildly strange. It started last night. I went to sleep for about ten hours. When I woke up... I felt ok... but I still feel weird. It's like my whole system has just locked up. Weird. Well, let's talk about some more happy things. I attended my first Psi Chi Meeting the other day. I'm really not all that sure what to make of it. My job is going well. We actually start running subjects this next week. Hopefully my tax money will be enough to cover bills this summer. Doubtful though. You know what's even worse? I can't even state on this page how I feel. You know what's even WORSE?!? I can't even tell you WHY I can't tell you how I feel on this page. Well, I can tell you one element. I feel angry. Not just angry, but blindly enraged. The weird part is, I can't even nail a god justified reason TO BE angry. Maybe it's because some people are completely full of shit. Maybe it's the fact I'm $11 in the hole according to my bank. Maybe it's the fact I don't have a job for the summer. Maybe it's....
12.2.01

Ahhh, Monday nights always reek with the pleasure of RAW IS WAR. I love spending time with my friends and just having a grand old time. I took two exams today... neither of which I studied for due to my recent addition of a one to my age. It seemed alcohol took precedence somehow. On my 21st? NO WAY! hehe, actually, I had a GREAT time. For the first time in my life, I felt relaxed. My system deals quite well with alcohol... and for the record, yes, I have pictures... MANY pictures. Regardless, I've made some new content for you folks and I'm posting some pics tonight.. I hope you all enjoy! I'm not tired yet persey... so I'll be around! Take care all! Remember to check the webcam!!!!
10.2.01

Hello everyone! Today is my birthday and this could quite possibly be the last entry I ever write sober.. heheh.. Anyway, I'm writing this today and taking time out of my birthday to say a couple things. Number one, I want to thank all my pals who are making such an effort to make this a day to remember.. Thank you all and I love you very much. And in no particular order, I present number two. My soulmate last night most likely gave me the most important gift of all. She taught me a lesson that will carry with my throughout the rest of my days. Thank you Stephanie for teaching me something new. I love you. I also have some newer material to present on the shrine. It's a whole collection of rhetoric and literature that Steph and I have traded throughout our times together. I hope you enjoy them. Fair warning though, these have been declassified so that some of you will learn/understand possibly what it feels like to have a soulmate or to maybe understand some of the other workings of life. I in no way say that we understand these things, Steph and I... but I think we hold a grasp of them.. and perhaps through exploring our interactions you can make sense of your world a little easier. I love you all! Have a great day!

Aren't we absolutely INSANE???
09.2.01

Welp, today is the day before my birthday! As a great birthday present we have accumulated over 1000 hits since last fall! CONGRATULATIONS TO US! You, the reader, make working on this page enjoyable. It's really nice to see that I actually have a steady readership. I guess I should make a sort of homage to those websites which I feel really impacted my want and desire to do this sort of thing. I'll probably do that by redoing the linkz page. I've also noticed that a few of my links are broken here and there. I'll fix those summarily. I'm working on a new part that's rather interactive, so I hope that will be done soon. I recently purchased Microsoft Front Page 2000 to help spruce up this page. Let's hope it does what I want it to. I'll probably talk to you all after posting my birthday pictures! Take care all!
06.2.01

I'VE GOT THE WEBCAM BACK UP!!!! Just sign in with whatever name and you can see me in my domicile and home environment! I'm also working on my current update.... I've found some java applets that actually suit what I need to do! I hope you like them! I've also got the new pictures scanned.. I might as well post a couple now so you know I'm not lying. =)
30.1.01

Hi Kiddies. It's been a LONG time since we had an official episode of:


Dear Brothers and Sisters,

I'm sick of you shitting on me. I've had it up to HERE with you people. You know what? I fucking bust my ass for you. I go out everyday with a smile on my face and a stick up my ass to help you understand. I try so HARD to communicate! I go through every medium I can possibly think of. I talk. I use body language. I love . I hug . I kiss. I take the decrepid and do my best to keep them on their feet. Don't give up. Don't lose hope. The tomorrow you've always wanted was always there and will always be there... What do you give me? WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU GIVE ME BACK!??! YOU GIVE ME HATE! YOU GIVE ME INTOLERANCE! YOU GIVE ME THE EFFIGY OF A FALLEN PEOPLE!! YOU GIVE ME NOTHING!!! Sometimes I just think, "Fritzy... no big shit.. you hold your standards for others WAY to high man.. relax..." I don't think that's adequate.. however... If I treat others with the utmost dignity and respect, then should I not expect that back? Can two people who speak English be SO ignorant of each other? Remember that sword I used to have? How do I NOT pick that up? I am grateful to God for all the gifts he's given me... honestly... it's just SO difficult... God, I love you SO much...don't bail on me now man.. I need your strength.. gonna tear this shit up... you my bitch and I'm yours.. let's do this.

Ok, done deal. I'll probably have more to say later. Do I have problems? Maybe you wanna take that up with my lil friend. New pics COMING!!!! NEW FEATURES COMING! MONTHS OF EMPTY PROMISES FUFILLED!!!! MY WEBSITE WILL GIVE YOU SEXUAL SATISFACTION!!!! THIS WEBSITE WILL MAKE YOU RICH AND POWERFUL!!!** See ya later all!!!


**Note: That was one huge pack of lies. None of its true.. I'm not giving you shit even if I DID have anything to give. =)

27.1.01

Hey all! I know it's Saturday and I should go out and break shit... BUT instead I'm relating to you all the wonders of my world. I realized I hadn't updated in a VERY VERY long time.. so I've been scouring the web fo all kindsa neat stuff. I found some pictures I want to scan and post... also found some neat ideas for features. Unfortunately multimedia has NEVER been my thing, so I'll have some pretty low tech shit. I deal mostly in text and content.. poor me. =) I gave up on Flash because I am mentally retarded and just don't get it. If I'm feeling really ambitious, I think I'll take down all the commercial banners... as you've probably heard, the market went soft and therefore so does my faith... not to mention my pocketbook. So I'll have some new pics and new pages for you soon! Take care all! I love ya!
10.1.01

Ok, my brain is OFFICIALLY MELTED. It's bad.. REAL bad. I've started my classes up for this semester and I feel like I was lobotomized. I'ma psych major and I had problems spelling that! WHY GOD WHY?!?!? Hell hath no fury like a college mind destroyed. *sigh* I hope alcohol solves this problem. Anyway, I just stopped in to say hi. I've been looking for a nice java counter until mmy birthday, if you see one, tell me. *sigh* I'm outta here... feelin' kinda funky. Think I might go shit my brains out. Enjoy all!
3.1.01

Long week. SOrry I haven't been around in awhile.. had alot of stuff to do. I'm broke. I think if you take that in any context it would be a true statement. I just wanted to stop in and tell you all that I'm not dead and that I miss you all. I'm getting my static IP next semester so maybe webcam will be up again. Take care everybody... don't hurt yourselves.