21.12.00

Word kiddies... I've been doing some thinking. You know.. believe it or not, I've been around this merry-go-round a few times before. I've lived through countless episodes of violence, triumph, happiness, and tears. I've conquered. I've been conquered. I've loved. I've lost. I've killed. I've saved. I've kissed. I've terminated. I wear my scars with pride and no one can take those away. I think I've finally fucking learned something. Do what makes you happy. =) If someone doesn't want ya, that's their loss. =) I'm a magical caring human being. Not many of me out there. Take 'em as you see 'em. Take your licks and if you get the chance.. lick 'em back.. they're dirty fucks for hitting you in the first place. =) Anyway, I'm getting tired and awnry.. take care all.. I love you all. =)
20.12.00

HI, it's now 1010pm here. I just talked to my girlfriend about stuff for about an hour. I'm not sure if I've officially named her here, but her name is Elizabeth. I want you all to honor her as you have everyone else who has had their mention on this page...but this time please, don't egg her house. Thanks kids. Regardless, I'll have some photos up of me and Liz soon. I've already got about 3 or 4 pics, but nothing cool. I'm about ready to head out, I'm just waiting for my friends to get here. I think I'll talk about... well, maybe I'll improve a section here. I'll scan some more photos b/c that's my thing. Take care all! BTW, do you think I should redesign the site? If so, gimme a buzz. Thanks!
20.12.00

This is technically the second update today via Valpo time. =) Regardless, I'm open for content suggestions. I've had some glorious ideas in the past but I don't have the programming abilities to do what I want to do. Right now my mind is rather free floating right now. Being that this site was to express my confusion, it's almost served its purpose. You know, just the thought of killing this child hurts me. I've been through so much with it, and yet it's death would definately provide a new dawn in my life. This site has seen me through 2 girlfriends. This site has seen me through insanity and knowledge. This site has seen me through some good times and bad. Maybe this will turn more into a journal. I think I trust my readers. =) Maybe I'll publish some of my older works for you to read. You'd like that, wouldn't you? =) I'll talk to you later. Have fun kids.
19.12.00

Feeling two helping dickloads better today. I went out and bowled with some pals from Valpo. We had a few laughs and some bowling mishaps. A 16 pound ball is NEVER pretty when it lands on your hip. Especially if you are 95 years old... but we won't go into that. Let's just say I'm insured. Regardless, I've got my apetite back and I've got an extremely busy schedule ahead of me! I'll probably hit Chicago soon and South Bend as well. I feel like Santa.. hehehe... I updated the Shrine section abit to reflect current trend. Thanks to everyone who reads this stuff.. peace all. I love ya. =)
16.12.00

Welp, finals are over. I've been beaten to hell. I'm frightened. Ladies and gentlemen... I fear that I may never find a suitable mate. I fear that I am SO weird... that its irrelevant how nice I am or how handsome I am or how considerate I am of my dating partners. I don't think that matters anymore. Did chivalry die because women let it? Perhaps. I'm a dying breed. C'mon romantics, you know exactly what I"m talking about. There is no more world for us. If you want to donate money so we can build a colony somewhere in Antarctica.. gimme a buzz. =) Anyway... Things have been going alright besides that. I got an A in my Personality Psych class so I'm happy about that. Ghostface is happy even though she's far away and I miss her. I'm not sure what else I can say. I want to bowl tonight.. so Davie, you'd better fucking call me.. 'nuff said.. hehehe.. Take care everyone. I love you all... no questions asked.
15.12.00

Yeah, confusion rocks. Ok, this is my webpage... this is MY sounding board. I put whatever the FUCK I want on here, right? I just need to talk I guess. I know its supposed to be pussy for guys to talk, but sometimes we need a shoulder too. My life underwent some serious changes here in the past few days. I lived through finals thank God. I met a girl who I am actively dating and seeing. I'm working in a research position which I enjoy very much. I'm hungry. About a half hour ago was informed one of my relatives died. Alright, I'm so hungry now I have to go... damn I'm hungry. See ya later!
14.12.00

Hi kids! This week was absolute fucking hell! But you know what? I lived. Big shout out to Donna for letting me talk. Another big shout out to Mrs. V for her insightful comments and soul soothing. I need to give "propz" to God too. Without Him I would've never come into the being I am, nor would I have the friends and soulmate I do now. I hope sincerely that all of you get a chance to deal with God in some form. Even if he's striking your ass down, it's a beautiful thing. It's sort of like, if you're gonna get capped by the government, you want to be capped by their best... you know? Then when you go to Heaven you can say, "Yeah, they had to send Jimmy the SLASHER after me!" Then all your buddies will sigh in disbelief. Hehehe.

Alright, I have to get this off my chest RIGHT NOW. I am currently listening to Eve 6. Yes, I'm sorry I'm sorry. Please don't hold it against me but that "On The Roof Again" song is really catchy dagnabbit! Alright, I'm going to go sell my books for drug money. Don't hurt yourselves. By the way, STILEPROJECT
10.12.00

Hello everyone! Today, I officially hung up my guns... hopefully for good. Today, I experienced one of the best days of my life. I was born into katabasis... but I crawled out. Wretched and emaciated, I grew to gigantic proportion. I became that which was despised. I was a human incarnation of Satan. Then I met someone... showing me the same unconditional love that I knew was so right inside... it felt great. As I see this person work their way into the world, I feel a great sense of pride. God has given me redemption. God has given me success. God has bestowed upon me his love and affection. Thank you God for everything. Live to live my friends... and do nothing more. I know it's a simple statement.. live to live.. but just think about it. I love you all... and to you who love me... my eternal thanks and devotion.... NO I DIDN'T ADD ANYMORE BMZ... Jeez. =)
29.11.00

Quick update before I leave to deposit some cash. I made my first shitty flash animation with one of the BMZ characters. I'll post it later. I've got two exams tomorrow, then a HUGE paper due... so I'll be pretty busy these next couple weeks. I should really post some of my assignments, I bet you'd like them. I've got tons a material and have more backed up.. I still haven't even posted the sandcastle pictures yet.. damn... welp, I gotta go deposit at the bank! I'll see you all later!
22.11.00

Hi kids! I'm home for the holiday and taking a quick break to update. I've been loaded with tasks and stress lately. I have two exams next week and finals RIGHT after that. We are officially in the HOME STRETCH of the semester. I'm still working my job as a research assistant. It's really panning out into something appreciable. Looking through the past updates that I just archived, it looks like a lot of material is still in production. Lauer never sent me his damn Flash. I'm feeling ambitious.. perhaps I'll do something tonight! Talk to you all later!
10.11.00

Ok, now I am afraid. This entire election process going wrong thing truly inspires fear inside. Think about it a moment. We haven't had a serious world conflict in 55 years. In other words, we are past due for a good old slaughter and challenge to our world wide supremacy. The situation in the Middle East continues to flair up like a bad hemmroid. I can't spell either. What is this world coming to? I've always felt like things were falling apart, but I've never felt it more strongly than now. It's so strong it's creepy. This election scandal isn't helping me either. I dunno. I'm going to be gone this weekend, but I imagine I'm going to improve my page next week. I know I have homework... don't remind me. Have a nice weekend everybody!
9.11.00

VICTORY!!!! I now have ADSL access and this page is gonna get it's ass overhauled hardcore. Expect some massive pictures and new material. I'll get flash soon too hopefully... God permitting. Also, I've eliminated one of my banner relationships because American Greetings skipped out on me. THose sluts. Anyway, I'll see you all soon!!!!
5.11.00

Well, I updated the other day, but it was completely lost on the angelfire servers. Weird. Anyway, I just finished off a HUGE weeks of exams and thus rewarded myself with a nice meal at Olive Garden. They didn't have the everlasting pasta bowl anymore, and honestly, the meal wasn't as filling as it used to be. Nonetheless, it was a BEAUTIFUL meal and I had GREAT service. I think I just found a splinter in my pointer left finger. Ow. Other than that, I'm in relatively good health. TOday is a beautiful day. I'm getting ADSL very soon, as my circuit ID is scheduled to be assigned on Tuesday of this week. If you haven't heard it enough ADSL=overhaul for this entire site. You heard what I said. =) Ok, I'm gonna go read for a little while. Take care all!!!!!