Where are you?
Love that lives within decay...
love, my pain, I turn away.
Close off the night, give in to blindness
of deafening echoes, lack of kindness.
Crouching down, closer still,
without a soul, nothing more to feel
as I span my arms to the heaven’s built...
heart screaming, pulsing guilt.
You are my life, you are my death...
divine inspiration, my only breath.
Your selfishness ... forever cold,
the fire’s gone, by love untold.
Did you know you were brave?
Did you know you were strong?
Did you know there was one leaning hard?
Did you know that I waited, and listened and prayed?
And was cheered by your simplest word?
Did you know that I longed for the smile on your face?
For the sound of your voice ringing true,
Did you know I grew stronger and better because
"I had merely touched shoulders with you"?
I'm glad that I live, that I battle and stive,
For a place that I know I must fill,
I'm thankful for sorrows, I'll meet with a grin
What fortune may bring, good or ill,
I may not have wealth, I may not be great
But I know I will always be true,
For I have in my life, that courage you gave,
When once, I touched shoulders with you!
Instead of hearing that melody waking from a sleep,
I hear the silent, mournful echoes of the memories I keep.
The memoirs of a brother, a man so full of pain,
Who took away his life and left a gunshot blast remain.
Staring out from behind my window of apathetic cries,
Thinking of my beloved, alone, in a room as he dies.
I'm watching as a robin slowly takes his morning bath,
Wondering will I forever be raped with pain of aftermath?
I step outside to feel the cold, brisk air,
Begging for some answers, do I want to live, do I really care?
Then notice the robin, and once again getting filled with hope,
Sure he had been sent by my brother to delicately help me cope.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,--I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!--and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
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