July 7-28-03

Another long absence and I have neglected to write in you. Analisa Brontė and have decided to take over the Rising Sun and we have almost managed. I can smell the success.

I have been trying to get a familar. I have managed to coax it to me, to have it see me, but I have failed twice. I know it's name, however,

Keeran Crevan

I know it is a fox. I think. Draco has told me he loves me and I couldn't be happier. I LOVE DRACO AND HE LOVES ME! But, Jett is missing and I hope he is alright. I do not know what else to write... I LOVE DRACO MALFOY! And I have decided to write my story. The Story of Spike Kree.

I LOVE DRACO!

July 7-2-03

I haven't written in a long time. Analisa Brontė and I are in the Rising Sun, a group of students like mini-aurors. It's because the Ministry won't help our school out because of the Death Eaters and Bloody Demons. I can't write anymore for the sake of it. Erik (who is our leader) is a total idiot and... I just can't stand him. Since I haven't written in a long time, I have to recap. Draco and I fought a lot in June, I can't live with him and I can't live with out him. I love him, for crying out loud.

I lost the first Quidditch Match of the season. The snitch got out and I got hit by a Bludger. Kamin Blackwood was trying to stop me from getting to the Snitch and I was going to fly right up in front of him and pull up at the last minute to scare him, but I didn't know the Bludger was after me and I got knocked unconscious. Kamin caught me, he saved my life- but we lost the game because of my arrogance and pride. After the game I attacked Kamin as a fox and ripped his leg up- after he broke my dagger. I was in the Hospital Wing for a week.

I gave my Lycanthe to Draco to save myself and Draco and I fought again a while after that. I am so jealous of him and Deva. They're best friends and companions and I'm second best. He's open to her and closed to me. I feel like I'm dieing every time I think about it. It breaks my heart. Especially because Draco doesn't know I love him.

Ana and I plan to make our own club to undermine Erik and his foolishness- after we steal our blood back.

That's pretty much it- oh yes, my Birthday was almost a MONTH ago and Draco didn't even realize. Deva was dieing and I was just so sad that he forgot that I blew up at him. I feel rotten. I'm 16 and only Ace and a girl I don't know Cobra Blackwood told me Happy Birthday. Ace just said "Happy Birthday" and Cobra gave me magical animals. A porcelain fox and pegasus.

I took a picture of myself and my "fashion" My brother told me a year ago to make a "Spike Fashion Book," I might. In here...

June 6-4-03

So sleepy... so tired... 

June 6-3-03

Well, I met this girl named Analisa Brontė, she seemed kind of cocky and arrogant to me, getting all pissed because I was amuse by a girl's name (which was Lilybelle- I realize it isn't half as stupid as my name- Sophia Elizabeth) and because I wanted to be in on a prank. I met the McConnaugheys, the twins (Lilybelle and Chase) and their brother Miko. They seemed okay, but they seemed to really dislike me. I probably seem so rude... What really worries me is that Analisa saw me when I was hung over and she probably thinks I'm an alcoholic. Oh well, you can't please everyone. Too bad most people only see the shield outside of me.

I had a lot of fun playing with my dagger in front of them... heh. I must of sounded so cocky. I guess I usually sound like that with people I don't know. I'm still glad I have a shield keeping people from seeing the real me.

May 5-30-03

The Autumn Ball is tonight. I didn't win the contest, but that's alright. Draco asked me to go with him to the Dance and I agreed. I have to go visit Jett first, but I don't plan to be late. I'll be fine, Jett and I have a lot of catching up to do.

May 5-29-03

I know I have not written in a while, but life has been doing a lot of stuff to me lately. I'll start from the beginning, but I may have to stop. My time is limited right now because I don't know when the rest of the House will come back and you'll have to go back underneath my floor board. Draco does really like me, he asked me to the Fall Ball (and I accepted) which we are both winning for the Fall Goddess and Forest King. I would say I loved Draco, but love a big thing for me to proclaim.

Starting from the beginning, which was when we were locked in the Den. We got out safely... not much happened. Draco taught me how to stand on my broom and fly. After that, Draco and I met up occasionally and yup. Dameon left, the Fall Ball is coming up and I signed up the Miss Hogwarts Competition. I doubt I'll win. My lycanthe is giving me premonitions and is becoming attuned to my emotions. I also received a matching sword to my shield. Fun... fun.. Ah shit, here come an onslaught of dimwits.

May 5-10-03

We spent the night in the Den... I feel so jealous towards Deva. Draco started paying a lot of attention to her and jealousy so over whelmed me. I am I love sick?

May 5-9-03

Later: I want to write it in here, that I tried to convince Dakota that I needed her cross or I would die, but she refused, so I had to take it violently. I feel terrible, but I had to do it. I wish, I wish, I wish, I could change the past.

I feel like a slut, traitor and such a terrible person. Everything happening is too much to write... but for the sake of writing... I might as well. I'll start at the beginning. It started in the Astronomy Tower, I was scowling out the window and all of a sudden, Draco Malfoy was there and we were discussing our daggers and suddenly, we where kissing... I think I like him, but I'm pretty sure that Deva does too and that makes me feel like a terrible person and a slut. I don't want to date Draco... I hate commitment and commitment killed my mother. After that... I went to the Den and found Gina Rabite threatening Draco. She said Dameon was going to kill him, Kamin and Seth. So naturally, we chased after her, since she had Draco's journal, but we couldn't catch her. When I came back to the Den, Dameon was there... and what ended up happening was me betraying Dakota by stealing her cross and Seth (who is a half-vampire) being tortured. It ended in my breaking down and Draco helping me. He's sweet, but I keep thinking I'm loosing his interest. That hurts, but I already told Dakota she could have Konah and if Deva wants Draco and Draco likes her, he's all hers. I can suffer and drool over Ero.

May 5-6-03

I've discovered I like Draco Malfoy and Konah McKeown too. The Death Eaters had taken over school, but left as soon as Deva Blake gave herself up to her father, Dameon, her led the group. Dameon almost killed me twice, first in the Forbidden Forest and then in the Headmistresses office. He almost killed me when I followed him from the Library once too. I guess that's three. Dameon's quite handsome, I can see where Deva got her good looks. Personally, I find myself very ugly. But, I guess some one finds me pretty, or some one is related to me that I don't know about. What I mean is that I was sent a matching shield, dagger and sword from a mysterious sender. I don't know who he or she is. But I wish I did.

What else has been happening? I kissed Konah ::savor:: and almost told Ero I liked him. Anyways, Kamin betrayed the school, by letting the Death Eaters in. I got so mad at him, I punched him on the nose. God, I hate him.

April 4-25-03

I have a huge crush on this guy name Ero Zalen...

I don't know what it is about him, but I find myself feeling so different around him. I know I like him. I wished he'd

like me, but I think he doesn't. I don't know it for a fact, but I'm pretty damn sure (I don't know how.)