Midsummer!
Hello!

I'm going to spend the following 3 days + this one at Hannu's summer cottage(probably a big house with a wc and all that). We are going to celebrate midsummer by getting as drunk as we can! There are going to be 14 persons but some of them arrive tomorrow.

A year ago we tried to party here in Helsinki but almost all of the bars were closed. We ended up in this place called Ale Pub which is this horrible place dedicated for teenagers and hillbillies...

I'm not gonna do the same mistake twice!

Normally I don't celebrate midsummer at all. It is one of these compulsory finnish drunk fests which I'm not very fond of.

I ordered some records from this place called stereofonica. I don't remember if I have mentioned this before or not? Well it took them 64 days to send me the records and they sent me only 4 out of eight records(the others were deleted or something)! Pretty wack isn't it? I wrote a reclamation email to them and they responded today: They will send me 1 missing record absolutely free of charge and I don't have to pay the posting costs for my next order. Pretty nice but still I will wait/think for a second or 2 before I order anything from them again.

Anyways... I have to leave soon so I just wanted to say happy midsummer to each and everyone of you!

Ill Janne

a family dinner
Hello! hello!

I'm gonna see a french silent movie and I gotta go fetch tickets for it but first I'm gonna write a little something for all you peeps!

I've been working almost every day of the week... trying to earn some dough for the trip to Germany.

I have also been drinking almost every friday since I started working... I guess these 2 things are somehow connected.

Last friday I hanged out with Aleksi, Heikki and with some of their friends. We started the evening at Heikki's place but soon continued to "Elite" a fancy but nice restaurant in Tolo area. We talked about lots of things but 1 subject was maybe more interesting than the others. It was this idea to have an italian style "family dinner" in a restaurant somewhere... Each person would "play" a certain character but the main idea would be just to have a fun dinner with friends. I hope that these guys don't cast me as a thug... I would like to be something more than that.

but anyways... We continued to this striptease joint called "Gentleman Club" or something like that. There were 4 dancers of which I liked one. She was an ok dancer and had a good physique:)

It was a fun night indeed!

I spent yesterday running the last part of the 5 sessions long Hellboy scenario set in Chicago. It was a fun scenario to run... mobsters, ghosts, ritual magic and some other weird shit.
The next scenario will be run and scripted by Pietsu and I get to play a PC!

Ok nuff said

see yall!

Ill chilling by the sea Janne

Inflatable self
Yo waz up yall?

I've been mostly working the past few days. Helping my dad in doing all sorts of things that are connected to boats and fabrics. I even rode this little rubber boat. It is nice to work outdoors. I might even catch some sun(I burned my nose already).

I spent yesterday with Aleksi and some other people. We went to this club Gloria. They were playing some experimental electronica with goth aesthetics. The people there were really dressed up for the event: funny hairdos and lots of black pvc/ rubber costumes. The music was pretty interesting but almost all of the vocalists were wack. They tried to be very dramatic and all that but ended up looking real dumb and phoney. My friend Jussi(Porin poika) was also there. We discussed about this idea to make some electronic music. We will see if it leads anywhere... I hope it will:)

Oh yeah

I managed to get another(besides myself that is) dj for my next club/party thing. He is also from Torkkeli(The Art Highschool of Helsinki) and he digs bass and electro. The next party is probably gonna happen around 15-17th of july...

Last tuesday planet Venus passed sun so that it could be seen from Earth. This is very rare event. I worked at the Ursa observatory when this took place. It was cloudy all day... but I managed to catch a glimpse of the phenomenon. I saw this quite large black spot over the face of the Sun

O_O

awesome man!

yeah...

nothing else to report.

Ill Janne

PS: the new Beastie Boys album is dope!
ch che check it out!

PPS: I saw Hellboy the movie. I liked it even though it left me feeling little empty... It is definitely worth seeing if you like some action with some cthulhu-ish shit.

Day after
I had the entrance exam yesterday. It went better than I thought but I'm probably not gonna pass anyway:(

Don't know what I'm gonna do for living...

I still have the art history exam next monday.
I hope that goes well.

I'm gonna visit Berlin and Hamburg in july along with my bro and father. I'm gonna save up some money so that I can buy some vinyl.

We sat in some of the pubs in malmi region... real ghetto if you ask me... well not really just a boring suburban place with teenage and middle age drunks and these ok looking girls who are so hard to get that you hardly even bother. It isn't worth it. I was there with my bro and 3 of my neighbours/childhood friends. It was nice to see these guys and to chat with them... it has been a while since I did something like this. I have a light hangover and I missed iaido practice.

Next week I'm gonna visit this exhibition by the graphic department of Taikki and probably gonna visit Linnanmaki(an amusement park) too.

btw I'm gonna see Hellboy next friday:)

ok nuff said

Ill Janne signs out!

Mellow atmosphere
Yeah...

It went pretty well. First there were only about 10 people, but soon more people arrived. We had about 25 people there. I played my electro/bass/hiphop records and hoped that people would dance, but they didn't. I guess they weren't in the mood for it or something.

I spent the night there. My back was aching all sunday.

Fuck I just realised that I should have brought those lights back this morning.

I hope they don't have something like a late fee...

I got a job offer, but I have to decline it because I should be working 28 day when I have my entrance exam:(

Ok see yall!

Ill Janne

PS: there is a new "menschen im ghetto" photogallery on the front page. The page layout sucks... sorry

Commitment
:)

It seems that almost all of my so called friends have something more interesting than my party scheduled for today. It seems that there will be approximately 10 people present. It doesen't matter and it surely didn't come as a surprise. People these days they have 12 things going on at the same time...

For my next party I'm not gonna invite any of these mofos that don't show up today. Man first you talk about how cool this thing is and that you don't wanna miss it... but then you end up going somewhere else anyway. People are very afraid to make any commitments like: I'm going to this guy's party even if there were something equally interesting going on at the same time.

I'm so bored with this shit.

Voisitte lopettaa sen vaiheilun;)

This is probably the main reason why I'm so fed up with hki and the people here... I can't trust a single person here(100% that is).

see ya!

mad love to all the girls and guys who will show up today.

Ill Janne

Ghetto Electro Party is finally here!
I'm really excited about todays party.

I hope there will be lots of girls;)

Here's something I would like to share with ya:

I just finished(wrote this yesterday) up my makeshift record case. It is made out of a cool box(one that you keep your beer in so that it doesen't get warm). I padded it with some foam. It is just the right size and it can hold some 70/80 12"'s. It doesen't look very convincing or cool but at least it is less likely that it gets stolen or something like that. It cost me 13 euros compared to some 70 euros that "conventional" boxes/bags cost.

ghetto or not ghetto?

I'm listening to bassoradio at the moment... they are playing some house but they are mixing it with the vocals of jb's "house music" song.

We are going to practice iaido and after that I'm gonna transport my records, mixer and decks to the place. Seven o'clock starts show time.

ok nuff said.

Ill Janne

PS: I added up a photogallery and some other things so check out my front page.

Day before the party
Huh huh.

My legs feel sore and I'm very tired.

I just got back home. I spent all day with the arrangements of tomorrows ghetto/electro party. Picked up the lights and PA, made a record box(this one is real ghetto), chose the records that I'm gonna spin, bought an extra rca wire and shit like that.

Yesterday I photocopied some posters and decorated the place for saturday. I ended up using only b&w posters because I didn't have enough time today to go to the print shop. I'am quite satisfied with the posters... I think that the lights will make em look cool anyway.

I wonder how many people will participate and how many of them will be girls? I have emphasized that it is ok to bring a friend and even better if she is female.

I have just few ground rules for the night:

no dissing about my dj skills or record selections.

no one harrasses the girls... dancing and shit like that is ok but if they don't want that their asses/titties are being touched then they don't.

no stealing or destroying any furniture/lights.

no fighting.

If someone breaks any of these rules he gets his ass kicked out of the place.

Ok nuff said.

See yall

Ill Janne

PS: still haven't decided on my dj alias.

After the tide...
A big apology to all the people who were offended by my last rant... what can I say? I was very angry and frustrated.

Don't get me wrong I do mean all the things I said but the tone is out of place.

I'm just hard to please or something.

Anyway... I'm glad that the Ghetto Booty Party is on its way. Elmeri sent me a sms and asked If I could change the date to june because he is very busy at the moment, but unfortunately I'm not able to do that. Why? Well The lights and PA are rented for that day(21) + I'm not sure at all that this party is ever gonna happen if we change the date to june... people are more busy then. .

That Stockholm thing almost ruined my mood for the whole party... but it sure as hell is happening!

Ok see ya!

Ill Janne in a slightly better HKI mood

Mr Gray
----Warning some angry shit coming up----

Haven't yall heard it? Gray is the new hip color for worthless fucks and losers like me.

I do something.

I practice something for 3 years, but it doesen't do me any good.

All for nothing.

I will always be mediocre.

Mediocre for life!

I don't have the virtue to be able concentrate on one thing 100%. I do concentrate but I have always been into several different things at the same time. This flaw has made me into a jack of some trades(not all) and a master of none.

To top this I seek acceptance and I feel I'm never gonna get it... Then why do I seek it? Well I guess I'm just weak or something. People look at me as the second grade entertainment/friend. You know a fucking back up plan for when things don't go as planned: "I can always hangout with that loser if everything else fails". I fucking hate it! I hate people in general, but I can't live without them.

Most of the time I look calm, but I'm burning inside. I'm feeling trigger itchy. Thinking things like: "Yeah push me motherfucker! Just push me over that line and I'll snap!" How can a person have this much negative feelings inside him and still go on living his life normally?

I'm ANGRY!

got that?

ANGRY

This ain't one of those mundane moments of self pity/depression that everyone has... You see I don't pity myself. I'm a miserable fuck. Fucking waste of breathing air. I will probably never contribute anything worth remembering to this world. I'm simply not skilled nor motivated enough to do something like that.

Yeah mediocre 4 life!

People are always saying shit like: "Yeah I love this guy! He's such a good friend of mine!". For all of you fuckers out there: I ain't feeling it. Do I have a another personality that receives all that love u r talking bout? Or do you guys/girls live in a fucking never never land 'cause you ain't talking bout this here Earth.

Ill Janne in a bad Stockholm mood

PS: yes I didn't pass