Commitment
:)

It seems that almost all of my so called friends have something more interesting than my party scheduled for today. It seems that there will be approximately 10 people present. It doesen't matter and it surely didn't come as a surprise. People these days they have 12 things going on at the same time...

For my next party I'm not gonna invite any of these mofos that don't show up today. Man first you talk about how cool this thing is and that you don't wanna miss it... but then you end up going somewhere else anyway. People are very afraid to make any commitments like: I'm going to this guy's party even if there were something equally interesting going on at the same time.

I'm so bored with this shit.

Voisitte lopettaa sen vaiheilun;)

This is probably the main reason why I'm so fed up with hki and the people here... I can't trust a single person here(100% that is).

see ya!

mad love to all the girls and guys who will show up today.

Ill Janne

Ghetto Electro Party is finally here!
I'm really excited about todays party.

I hope there will be lots of girls;)

Here's something I would like to share with ya:

I just finished(wrote this yesterday) up my makeshift record case. It is made out of a cool box(one that you keep your beer in so that it doesen't get warm). I padded it with some foam. It is just the right size and it can hold some 70/80 12"'s. It doesen't look very convincing or cool but at least it is less likely that it gets stolen or something like that. It cost me 13 euros compared to some 70 euros that "conventional" boxes/bags cost.

ghetto or not ghetto?

I'm listening to bassoradio at the moment... they are playing some house but they are mixing it with the vocals of jb's "house music" song.

We are going to practice iaido and after that I'm gonna transport my records, mixer and decks to the place. Seven o'clock starts show time.

ok nuff said.

Ill Janne

PS: I added up a photogallery and some other things so check out my front page.

Day before the party
Huh huh.

My legs feel sore and I'm very tired.

I just got back home. I spent all day with the arrangements of tomorrows ghetto/electro party. Picked up the lights and PA, made a record box(this one is real ghetto), chose the records that I'm gonna spin, bought an extra rca wire and shit like that.

Yesterday I photocopied some posters and decorated the place for saturday. I ended up using only b&w posters because I didn't have enough time today to go to the print shop. I'am quite satisfied with the posters... I think that the lights will make em look cool anyway.

I wonder how many people will participate and how many of them will be girls? I have emphasized that it is ok to bring a friend and even better if she is female.

I have just few ground rules for the night:

no dissing about my dj skills or record selections.

no one harrasses the girls... dancing and shit like that is ok but if they don't want that their asses/titties are being touched then they don't.

no stealing or destroying any furniture/lights.

no fighting.

If someone breaks any of these rules he gets his ass kicked out of the place.

Ok nuff said.

See yall

Ill Janne

PS: still haven't decided on my dj alias.

After the tide...
A big apology to all the people who were offended by my last rant... what can I say? I was very angry and frustrated.

Don't get me wrong I do mean all the things I said but the tone is out of place.

I'm just hard to please or something.

Anyway... I'm glad that the Ghetto Booty Party is on its way. Elmeri sent me a sms and asked If I could change the date to june because he is very busy at the moment, but unfortunately I'm not able to do that. Why? Well The lights and PA are rented for that day(21) + I'm not sure at all that this party is ever gonna happen if we change the date to june... people are more busy then. .

That Stockholm thing almost ruined my mood for the whole party... but it sure as hell is happening!

Ok see ya!

Ill Janne in a slightly better HKI mood

Mr Gray
----Warning some angry shit coming up----

Haven't yall heard it? Gray is the new hip color for worthless fucks and losers like me.

I do something.

I practice something for 3 years, but it doesen't do me any good.

All for nothing.

I will always be mediocre.

Mediocre for life!

I don't have the virtue to be able concentrate on one thing 100%. I do concentrate but I have always been into several different things at the same time. This flaw has made me into a jack of some trades(not all) and a master of none.

To top this I seek acceptance and I feel I'm never gonna get it... Then why do I seek it? Well I guess I'm just weak or something. People look at me as the second grade entertainment/friend. You know a fucking back up plan for when things don't go as planned: "I can always hangout with that loser if everything else fails". I fucking hate it! I hate people in general, but I can't live without them.

Most of the time I look calm, but I'm burning inside. I'm feeling trigger itchy. Thinking things like: "Yeah push me motherfucker! Just push me over that line and I'll snap!" How can a person have this much negative feelings inside him and still go on living his life normally?

I'm ANGRY!

got that?

ANGRY

This ain't one of those mundane moments of self pity/depression that everyone has... You see I don't pity myself. I'm a miserable fuck. Fucking waste of breathing air. I will probably never contribute anything worth remembering to this world. I'm simply not skilled nor motivated enough to do something like that.

Yeah mediocre 4 life!

People are always saying shit like: "Yeah I love this guy! He's such a good friend of mine!". For all of you fuckers out there: I ain't feeling it. Do I have a another personality that receives all that love u r talking bout? Or do you guys/girls live in a fucking never never land 'cause you ain't talking bout this here Earth.

Ill Janne in a bad Stockholm mood

PS: yes I didn't pass

Fuck yall!
What a day...

Everybody seems to be pissed at me. Yeah I know that they probably aren't, but it feels that way. You see there is lots of frustation in the air... this is the time when people get to know whether or not they get chosen for the entrance examinations of certain schools. It is mad hard to get into some of these schools and the whole thing feels very random: "last year I was chosen but i blewed it... this time I wasn't even chosen for the entrance examination".

I gave up this thing. I thought that it is ridiculously hard compared to the gains(quality of teaching etc.). I'm trying to get enrolled in university and next year I'm gonna be somewhere else... Fuck Finland!

I changed the date of my party because we are going to Sweden next wednesday. Iaido SM and that damn graduation, finally! This change has also caused some undesired shit... some of my friends can't participate now.

I'm gonna stop this bitching/whining now.

Gonna see Uusi Fantasia at Stella Star Bar Club. Kinda cool.

well see ya

ILL JANNE

Ghetto Booty Bass Kallio Style
Hello!

I haven't written anything in a while... lazy me.

Vappu came and went. It was pretty nice. Old fashioned "get drunk yo!" style of entertainment.

some news too!

15.5.04 = Party time!

Ghetto Booty Bass Electro - Kallio Style

I'm gonna throw this party for my friends. It is a ghetto electro disco. No fancy mixing or anything. I'm gonna spin some records and hopefully people will dance... "shake that booty girl! Let me see what you got!"

oh yeah:

I put up 2 picture galleries for you. They consist of poster/flyer/something designs that I made for that afore mentioned party. The first one is older and has rawer pics... I prefer the ones in the second gallery. Big up for Mr Hajime Sorayama whose art I'm so wrongly exploiting... that girl is just so hot!(I had to use her)

see yall!

some music tips:

Disco D: Night at the Booty Bar ->Great ghettotech booty bass mix cd!

Imatran Voima: Techno Slut -> A truly great single from one of my favorite bands. It's not new or anything but it is a real killer!


Illah Killah Janne
signs out

PS:I Saw Kill Bill volume 2 and it rocks!

Ghetto Shit
Hello all yall!

I saw Juan Atkins at Kerma. Pretty good gig although I liked his older stuff better. They played some electro and some Dj Assault songs at the other side of the club.

I'm going to visit Pori next friday. You see there is this iaido camp there. I'm trying to graduate 1 dan in iaido.

Oh yeah! I attended this theme(split personality this time) party. I had this old puppet with me. I spent most of my time talking to these people from Hameenlinna. About politics and other shit.

I'm gonna participate in this Necromunda special scenario. 3(?) gangs versus some Imperial Guard... It sounds pretty rough.

We continued our Hellboy campaign. This time the crew was sent to Antarctis to investigate this strange black pyramid. We are gonna continue it next week.

I'm studying Finlands prehistory because I'm trying to get enrolled in Helsinki University's archaelogy department. 1 of the books I have to read is in Swedish:(

Still trying to get work...

I saw that movie "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" starring Jim Carrey and that chick from "Titanic". I'm not a fan of either of these actors but I was surprised by how good this movie was. Way deeper than most films of this genre(love?) and it's structure was interesting. Go see it!

Ok I gotta go now... I'm gonna go see "The Third Man".

Ill Janne

Architecture and sex don't mix
Hohhoijaa

Man...

I'm having a terrible headache.

What did I do yesterday?

I saw my pal Petteri and drank some soda with him. It was nice to see him because I hadn't seen him in a while.

Later on I went to see Hannu. We drank some beer on the way to otaniemi... you see there was this party: "cheap beer and hot women!" he said and encouraged me to come along(10.3.04). I thought: "what the hell I should give it a try!".

resolution:

I'm at the j2imaluola waiting for a buss to leave(5.45), no pussy for me, just a headache.

Don't get me wrong... I'm not bitter at all. I don't set my expectations too high these days.

1. thing was nice though: Rudy and these 2 other rap guys did a short freestyle set there which was funny.


Today we are gonna get this data projector and start our video-marathon. Classic sci-fi etc.

what else?

I ran this rpg scenario for Empa, Pietari and Anni. It was Hellboy rpg and it was situated in northern India. Missing children, a cursed town and werewolf spirits. I think it was quite enjoyable.

next sunday -> a boat to Stockholm again

ok I'm gonna get some tea now

see yall

Ill headache Janne

Fuck the oscars!
Well hello!

Here I'am rambling again...

Long time no blog

What have I done recently?

I went to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show, armed with some rice, a water gun, news paper and this thing called a raikka not sure of what it is called in english. It was a funny event, although the atmosphere was bit too nerdy at times. There was this one girl sitting very close to us yelling non stop through the whole picture... most of that shit wasn't even funny and her timing was always off.

Mj had her b-day party... how would I say this? Well it was boring as hell no offense grrl. I bought her a book by Roald Dahl and ticket to that afore mentioned film. I think she didn't know what to expect:)

Most of my friends are doing their time at the army or civil service. I sure am glad that it is over for me.

We had this Ursa winter camp. It went pretty well... although I found myself carving a skull out of ice and smashing it with a shovel 3 o'clock at night. I couldn't sleep because the kids were behaving like a bunch of monkeys(sreaming and throwing their crap at each others).

I'm trying to get work but I haven't had any luck yet. I am probably not trying hard enough or something...

what else?!

Well Sami and her wife to be Outi moved together into a very cool apatment in Hakaniemi. I helped them move and drank their beer later on. Congratulations to u my friends!

I saw Paris at a gig here in HKI. Great gig indeed! Inspiring and truly skillfull shit!

I recommend his albums to everyone interested in political hiphop

his latest album "Sonic Jihad" has some cool artwork too.

support Paris and visit www.guerrillafunk.com

Hard Truth Soldier for life!

Something sad happened too...

My beloved cat Minni died 6.2.04. He was over 15 years old. He had been in a bad condition for a half a year or so and at the morning of 6.2 he was having breathing problems. Before we could get him to the vet for a mercy shot he died. I miss him very much because he was a special kind of cat, funny, violent and very unpredictable. It kinda feels like I still feel his presence here in this apartment and inside my heart.

R.I.P

a true friend



I apologize for being sentimental and for using the word "he" instead of "it".

yep yep

Ill Janne signs out