----Warning some angry shit coming up----
Haven't yall heard it? Gray is the new hip color for worthless fucks and losers like me.
I do something.
I practice something for 3 years, but it doesen't do me any good.
All for nothing.
I will always be mediocre.
Mediocre for life!
I don't have the virtue to be able concentrate on one thing 100%. I do concentrate but I have always been into several different things at the same time. This flaw has made me into a jack of some trades(not all) and a master of none.
To top this I seek acceptance and I feel I'm never gonna get it... Then why do I seek it? Well I guess I'm just weak or something. People look at me as the second grade entertainment/friend. You know a fucking back up plan for when things don't go as planned: "I can always hangout with that loser if everything else fails". I fucking hate it! I hate people in general, but I can't live without them.
Most of the time I look calm, but I'm burning inside. I'm feeling trigger itchy. Thinking things like: "Yeah push me motherfucker! Just push me over that line and I'll snap!" How can a person have this much negative feelings inside him and still go on living his life normally?
I'm ANGRY!
got that?
ANGRY
This ain't one of those mundane moments of self pity/depression that everyone has... You see I don't pity myself. I'm a miserable fuck. Fucking waste of breathing air. I will probably never contribute anything worth remembering to this world. I'm simply not skilled nor motivated enough to do something like that.
Yeah mediocre 4 life!
People are always saying shit like: "Yeah I love this guy! He's such a good friend of mine!". For all of you fuckers out there: I ain't feeling it. Do I have a another personality that receives all that love u r talking bout? Or do you guys/girls live in a fucking never never land 'cause you ain't talking bout this here Earth.
Ill Janne in a bad Stockholm mood
PS: yes I didn't pass