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Nothing has really happened since the last time I wrote. I went to the welfare office to get medical. Only pregnant, disabled, or *something else* can get *free* medical in Idaho. I was all, "Whatever then, I'll just move back to fucking hermiston. I can't stay here, I'll die." So she had me write a letter to her saying I wanted my application taken off of their system. The bad thing... she called the office in hermiston, "informing" them that I had moved to Idaho. So they are probably going to cancel my medical there and I really will die. *sigh*
I have a doctors appointment tuesday. For the lump in my arm. I'm kinda nervous, so I'm making my daddy go with me. I love him. =) Stinky lover-boy has to work and go to school so he can't be there.
Hmph. OH! I ordered buttons from that mushycat.com. I hope they'll be here soon. They kick-ass. I even got some custom ones made. I'm super excited.
Also. I'm going to try and go home for halloween. I found some kickass slutty costumes on pinupgirls.com (i think that's what it was called.) and I'm gonna get one. =) Cuz I'm kickass.
Well, I gotta go do laundry and get ready for work. So see ya!

*name me cancer*
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: FM Static - Something to believe in
^^^ that is a beautiful song. =) it seems i'm turning into a little christian girl. *lol* 98.7 rocks up here.
anyways. i'm not going to get a second job, considering my other half got a job for himself. $8.75 an hour! and he's working like 10 hour shifts. damn! wish i could of made out like that. ah well, he'll buy me things, cuz he loooooves me. =)
yeah. so i went to the doctor (in hermit-town) about the lump in my arm. uh-huh. he wants me to go to a surgeon to have it removed and tested. cuz get this... it could just be a swollen lymphnode, some disease (he said a name), or something worse. the something worse, you ask. CANCER! so i go home and tell my family. and... duh-duh-duh... my mom says that two of her aunts died from cancer. so i could have cancer and i could die. yay for me. so i'm completely worried now and i think all this stress is starting to make my hair fall out more. so on monday (if i don't work) i have to go to the health and welfare office to try and get medical so i can find a surgeon up here in I da ho to cut me open and tell me i'm gonna die. =) i love me.
other than that. life is going good. i'm working harder than ever, making some new friends, buying some new stuff... acting all grown up, i guess you could say. and i get to go home on the 27th again for an orthodontist appt. i'm excited. i've been having bad dreams about sadie being kidnapped. and it would just make me feel better to go home and see her. =) so yeah, i'm gonna go read a couple of books i just bought. thought i'd fill you in on what's crackulatin. *laugh*
jamie

work is berry tiresome *yawn*
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Papa Roach take me
Well, I might be getting a SECOND job. I think it would help the money situation. It's called Wetzels Pretzels, located on the floor above DEB. So it will be easy working at both places, get off of one and go to the next a few feet away. YAY.
So yeah, I'm going to check on that tomorrow. I also need to check on getting health insurance here in Idaho. I have this nasty lump in my arm that won't seem to go away. It's starting to scare me.
PEACE

mushycat.com
Check it. ^^^^

An Evening With Colin Mochrie & Brad Sherwood, Stars of "Whose Line Is It Anyway?"
Mood:  not sure
Playing live at the Morrison center on Sept. 30.
I really hope that we can go. I love watching "Whose Line is it anyway?" I think it would be a wonderful experience to see them live. The tickets cost $40 each though. So we probably won't go considering I just started my job and we won't have money to waste like that. *sigh*
I wish life was easier.
Bye.

clothes, clothes, clothes
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: the voices inside my head
So I did get the job at Deb. It's great there. The mananger is 'gay'. But he's so freaking awesome. I love him to death. =) My coworkers are great too. I met one girl today and she seemed like my type of friend. But she said she's finally quitting in a week. Maybe I'll get her number or something before she leaves. But I doubt it, cuz I'm a coward. *whimpers*

Today was my first day. And since it was a holiday, it was a very hectic day. *sigh* My feet hurt. But the happiness of having a job I like, beats it all. Way to go happiness!! As for the job in general, it's nice. I like the clothes. I have a feeling I'll be wasting LOTS of money there.

Aside from my new life here... I get to go home on the 14th (i think). I'm so excited. I miss my daddy and my sister. *whine* But anyways. I have to go shopping now. Yay for the grownup-ness.

new life
Mood:  surprised
Now Playing: my lovers guitar
we made it. it was a lovely ride, besides the tire splitting. put me out $60. *boo*
exciting part of the whole "new life" thing is that i might have a job already. went to fill out an application at a clothing store called DEB and they gave me an interview right on the stop. *does a little dance* i was way nervous, but determined to get the job. so hopefully i did ok. :S i guess i'll know tomorrow.
this place doesn't seem so bad. it's not that hard to learn my way around. so that's good. but the taxes suck. can't get out of it like in washington, "i live in oregon." what a phrase to miss. *haha*
well... guess i better go get ready for another day of my new life.

so so sad
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: breaking benjamin - so cold
moving is sad. so so sad. it didn't hit my sister until 5 minutes before i was leaving. then she started bawling. i couldn't handle it. she needs me, i need her. i don't know how i'll survive.
my cousin started bawling today also. even though i'm going to see her sunday. it's scary. being able to affect this many people. everyone cares so much. and yet i only care about my sister. i didn't even shed a tear, until it came to her. *sigh*
bye all...

sex is "oh my god" so good
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: ashlee simpson - la la
"oh my god"
and it just keeps getting better and better . . .

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Mood:  rushed
Now Playing: all american rejects-drive away
*scream*
everything is so close. so very close. one week. that's it. *sigh* everyone is stressing me out so bad. they're stressing my love-bug out too. and that makes me just a tad bit angry. he don't want to go, just as much as i don't. maybe even more. this is going to be so hard. how do so many people do it every year?
we're moving everything up there this weekend. i'm choosing to stay behind to visit with my sister and dad before we leave for good. ugh...
i'm so scared...