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I figured that I
should cash in so to speek on this whole free
speech thing. so i made this site. This page is
just what ever my thoughts are while working on
it... so tis going to be very disorganised and
random. and full of bad grammer as well. and most
likely borring. Its really just a bunch of
incoharent babble really. so if you have nothing
better to do or somthing, give it a read.
I have often
wonderd to myself if I was fucked up. I am, but
not to the "normal" extent. I am
absolutly fucked up to the point where I had to
create a webpage to ask what reality is to
everybody else.
actualy at the
moment I am just noticing how fucked up I truely
am, sitting here watching the decapitation video
of Nich Berg. Its a boring video however, mostly
becuase 3/4ths of it is just some dumbass arabs
talking about some crap.. and then the good part
only last like a minute of gore (so it must be
real, an American film would of had more) ...
although I am still trying to find the other
dudes decap video, I have turned up no luck. I
think Im going to look for it at like rotten or
somthing since they have everything (but tha damd
leaqed columbine massare photos).
Speeking of
Columbine, if you dont know what that is (God
forbid sombody being that shelterd that they
wouldnt) it was a school shooting in littleton
colorado. Well anyway I am a huge fan of it, I
love all that they did for "US," and I
want another one to happen soon. wheather its me
whom dose it of not, for it would be cool to do
it, after all I would be on CNN if i killed
enough people, and then my parents privacy would
be invaded compleatly.
Speeking of
parents and privacy, my mother is a huge bitch.
Shes into this "hacker" shit, although
she dosent know that the kind of computer
brakeing and entering if you will that she says
she dose, (and dosent, I know for a fact) is
actualy called "cracking." She dosent
really know how to do what she says she dose, she
uses netbus instead... or a simular program.
netbus and simmular programs are often called
"posser hacker/cracker" programs, witch
fit my mother. but anyway i told you that to tell
you this, she started "hacking" into my
email and forwarding mail from my father or
friends to her inbox, and stuff, then she would
bitch at me about them, and tell me to change my
password (witch was "fuckyou" at the
time, since i knew she was doing it).
Anyway she got a
keyloger (ya all can get one in my cracks
section) which copys every keystroke, then you
can see what anybody typed later, she didnt know
i knew she had one. So she would brag about being
a "hacker" while she was bitching me
out. (while looking like a compleate bitch and
not knowing it) somtimes I would laugh or just be
like ok... sure.... uh huh... now go play with
your little friends sweety to her, witch would
royaly piss her off. It was fun.. mainly brcuase
she couldnt do anything about it (she has md
muscular distrophy, or somthing) and cant walk,
there for has a wheel chair.
Enough about my
mom, although i have to say that was only a VERY
SMALL part of what i could tell ya, about her.
and if i did you would understand why telling her
things like i do.
Next thing is,
since we are on, or at leased were talking
somewhat of hackeing/cracking, I have to say I am
not to into it, it all seems so

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ummm....
sortta..... PATHEDIC!, thats right, all
you stupid little wannabies out there. It
is symply pathedic, and I do not want to
come across as seeming to want to be one.
it is sad and unhealthy for you to be
thinking that you could be something
sorta "bigger"
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than
your present form for it. that is just gulable
and stupid. so therfore you are gulable and
stupid! and I am not sorry for saying so. Anyway
beoned that point. The only thing i do that can
be even remotly considerd hacking or cracking or
what the fuck ever is with keygens and patches. I
think they are extreamly useful for downloaded
software that you want free. I like to go to
somewhare like download dot com, and download
anything i might need bare in mind that
everything on that site is either free, witch
normaly means that the software is crapy, or free
to try, then you have to enter a key # or
licecnce code, or serial number or somthing. this
is whare the patches and keygens come in.. and
help me get them off the try mode and to the full
version.
before i get to
more interesting subjects, I would also like to
express hatred to the dumbasses on winmx or kazaa
that when you dont share anything, they like kick
you off there downloading list, although they
dont know if you are just new to the system or
just a jackwhole who dosent share files. then
there are the ones who send you those stupid
notepad documenst with stuff like"!!!
w32.blaster worm !!! you are infected,"
trust me people, just tell them somthing like
"ooooo scary *sarcastic voice*" and
that there full of horse shit. and never panic or
anything becuase there only trying to scare you
into shareing files. thats it.. they probily dont
know how to obtain viruses without harmign there
own computer anyway.. so just dont listen to
them.
lets talk about
death for a while now shall we? well i dont know
why i put the question mark there, becuase im
going to anyway, and not really give you the
option of saying no lets not. well there are many
things that induse death. murder suicide*on of my
favorites* and the regular boring natural deaths.
(ofcourse there are many more things that cuase
death, just these are the normal ones) . I
remember when I was in spokane washington, there
was one night i was watching the evening news,
and there was nothing but death for a hour.
" Man murderd at 3:00 am at somthing or
another streat, Babys head gets ran over by
tracter, Dog gets legs decapitated and bleeds
todeath on city bus. recent wave of taxi drivers
being killed... whos to blame?" I mean like
nothing but death after death after death... It
was some what shocking and yet somewhat funny
that all that death could have taken place over
the corse of one day, in the same city.
then another one
of my favorite things is death in movies, like
final destination 2, (#1 sucked) I remember
watching that movie at the centeral valley mall
in spokane, and when it let out, you felt like
youve been mind fucked ... and violently... but
then after you already had those fealings (if you
were me, droping somthing in the street and
picing it up, while the bus was comming to the
stop (i didnt see it there at first)(and
obviously the driver didnt see me, or didnt care
or somthing), i almost got swept under the bus
and mabey of died... then you dont feal mind
fucked... you feal like... ... ... mind raped
...and you question everything, and all you tink
about... and all you ever done has just a bit
more trivility to it. i guess i dont know how
better to describe it than just plain trippy.
Well other than
that i must talk about my favorite sort of death.
such as suicide. why is it my favorite? you ask
... or dont ... whocares... well its my favorite
becuase there so damd interesting.. not the damd
people who go oooo look at me, im depressed, im
going to commit try to commit suicide to get
attention at school tomarow, even though my life
is like toataly perfect, and I have lots of
friends, and money, and attention already
directed tward me people. its the fact that when
you here about suicide, its eather one of two
things (normaly) 1 sombody you know, or sombody
that sombody you know knows.. and 2 its a
original sort of suicide. there for has a either
media attention, or is just cycled around as
gossip. I like #2. it is so great to here about
these suicides,... cuz there always original and
interesting... like "man jumps off 4th floor
of building on top of 10 running chain saws, with
note straped to chest, - funny part -> police
have yet to decipher what note menchioned, since
it was shreaded by the chain saws. This ofcourse
is very humorus and gives a moment of indused
happyness to your day.
Well enough of
death for now, I could go on, Belive Me i could
go on, but i rather get to celebritys first.
Celebritys. ...
Celebritys Brian? What do you think about
celebritys?... well since you asked.. I think
that celebritys need to shut the hell up about
themselfs being to fat and shit... I mean its bad
enough im going to have to listen to the bitches
at school going .. oh yea im getting over my
anorexia and bullimia or as i like to call it
bull crap! why do they care what they look like,
there the exsamples for what everybody eles looks
like, so if they just let them selfs do there
normal habbits.. other people might too, and this
town taken over by preppy bitches all trying to
look like some damd britney spears and THAT GOD
DAMD FUCKING BITCH ASS Justin Timberlake. might
not be as bad! or i guess in some of the whores
cases it would be cristina agulara.
- Personal Note To
Mr. Timerlake, YOUR CAREER IS FUCKING DEAD! Get
the fuck out of making pop songs, becuase they
are nothing more than a anoyance anymore!
Then there
always complaying about the poperatsi (or however
you spell that word) .. I mean good god jesica
simson is a perfect exsample of this.
I am now just
going to get into the as it was once called to me
"phycotic" shit now. well actualy,
befor i get off the subject. I want to know what
you think is phycotic. so if you would email me and
tell me, that would be great... and mother, if
you are violating the agreement, in witch you are
leagaly binded to from the start page, and above,
let this be known.. that dosent link to my normal
email address.. so if you think that you hit it
lucky by finding it YOU ARE WRONG! that is a
alternait email address that i only use for this
site, you stonned bitch! and a catchup story for
this for those of you who dont know, I deleated
my mother from my messangers and changed all my
addresses so she cant censor me or contact me by
computer. and also the above story. so mother
leave now... cuz you cant do anything about this
due to the contract.
Well here it
goes...
I find police
lights oddly attractive.. I infact almost want to
comit random murders just to see those pretty red
and blue flashes!... I cant get a way from those
butiful pictures of dead people.. and speeking of
witch .. rotten dot com .. PLEASE UPDATE YOUR
PICS SOME MORE>> IVE SEEN THEM ALL AT LEASE
4 times! I find it interesting to watch the
decapitation videos over and over to try to
deturman if its fake.. and it seems as if it isnt
so far.. prahaps about 80 more times of watching
will tell for sure. movies that are said to have
too much gore seem almost miled to me at the
moment. when I was 6 my next door neibor was
mailbombed, his body was in to peaces and his
wife.. who survived cant remember her kids.. and
i remember just riding my bisycle next to his
house right before it happend. and the emergancy
crews comming after wards (this was in colorado
springs in 1994.. we moved to south dakota short
after becuase of my parents insecuritys) ... if
you dont think this happend i also have a link
for you to go to if you want tosee the picture of
him and a discription of what happend here scrool
down to
Thomas Livingston and Tada, thers the story.
Infact my father was the seccond on the scean..
and you could also see the dudes heart and
intestines and shit... they never got the guy who
did it... but they did think it was this one
chicks husband who was cheeting on him with my
neibor. then theres the fact that when i was in
washington i would try to kill cats as much as
possible.. there used to be this feild that is
underconstruction to be a graveyard whare we used
to live that cats would roam all the time. then
theres the fact that I am obsesed and not afraid
to admit it with the columbine incident... its
yet so awsome, and i wish that i could have
talked with them while they were still alive.
Okay,
I admit, that was only minorly phycotic. There is
a explanition for it though, I have to check on
what I can say herefirst . then you will get the
" more hard core" stuff.
Now
I think I will do a "like dislike"
section. this is where i will bable on about
things i like, and things i hate (mainly just
some pet peeves)
Like:
Bomb threats at school, at my school we seem to
get about 3 a year, but this year we had a few
more... but theres nothing better than everybody
having to go outside into the pearcingly cold
weather (In winter we did this) or have the
dumbasses that run our school make us wait INSIDE
the gym untill the police have finished searching
the building. WHAT DUMBASSES! *does impersonation
of principal, while making usual retarded
gestures ie. bent wrist up against chest, saying
"durf, lets all wait inside the building
that supposably has a bomb, and better yet! in a
room with only 2 exits (very small doors)*
Dislike:
I fucking hate it when people say "ATM machine," OKAY DUMBFUCK! the
reasion its called a "ATM" is becuase
it abreviates the words " automated teller
machine" therefor by saying ATM machine, you
are really saying automated teller machine
machine. Which just sounds stupid.
Like: Gehto
people. Not in a mean way, just they are the
nicest people on earth somtimes.
Dislike: Fucks
that make fun, and generaly make it there goal to
compleatly ruin people, for no concivable reason.
Like: Revenge on
fucks
Dislike: George
Bush! God I hate that mofo, he is such a stupid
little bitch. infact most republicans are. here
are a few links that you can go to about him. Link 1 Link 2 Link 3
Like: People whom
hate George Bush.
Dislike: The WB,
that show is like the BET for white people...
infact I was watching comedy central not to long
ago, when they did a skit called " Pretty
white kids with problems" that was to take
place as if it was on the WB. This Is so damd
true. All of there shows are about a bunch of
little whiny rich brats who are full of
"problems" (aka shit) and learn how to
deal with them. I say instead of learning how to
deal with the fucking problems. Just learn to not
have them. I mean good god. And I also Hate that
theam song for 7th heaven. It gives me headaches.
Like: People who
have insecurity issues. There so funny. and so
fun to mess with. (yes i know this is what i
previusly said i was against.) but you would
understand if you knew this one kid. he would
become upsesed with everybody he knew. and
everybody he sleeped with. so he would end up
stocking them. the only good way to get him to
leave you alone was to treat him like shit.
(there are exceptions to what i am against. this
is one of them)
Dislike: Country
Music! WHOLY FUCKING SHIT! Thease little
readnecks are just anoying. I personaly belive
that we should round up everybody who likes
country, and is patriotic at the same time, and
put them in texas and nuk tha damd state.
Like 9/11, I loved
that day, I mean it was bound to happen with the
US acting all big and mighty. Im extreamly glad
it did happen. That day was a beutiful wake up
call for the US and now we are all scared it will
happen again. this is good for one reason. we
will think before we do anything from now on.
which ultamtly will make us a better people.
Dislike: those
damd arabs and whatnot that do hate america like
nothing other,. I mean get a life. the only
reason you hate us is probily the fact that you
live in a pile of dirt. and our government cleans
up our citys, and makes them nice. (that and the
fact that we are always bombing you) but get over
it. You all probaly havent even been to here so
shut the hell up untill you can see it for your
selfs.
Like: food, Im
hungry, BRB i am going to go get some food. ....
I'm back. * does Hommer Simpson Impression:
"Mmmmmm Donuts"*
Dislike: People
who are opinunated.
Like: Reno 911,
That show is fake, but good. It makes me want to
be a police oficer infact, cuz they have somuch
damd fun. And the pure coruption that takes place
is almost worth it.
Dislike: Cyber
Sex! WTF? I mean seriously? This is my
impersonation of some retard that wants to have
cyber sex in a chat room:
<Retardbitchboy
Says:>Wanna cyber?
<DumbassMonkeyFaceBitch
Says:>Okay.
<Retardbitchboy
Says:>Let me just jack off to what you say in
the chat room, and type responces at the same dam
time.
<DumbassMonkeyFaceBitch
Says:>Sounds Difficult *confusing face*
<Retardbitchboy
Says:>It is, but its the only sexual interface
I will have in my life.
Oh My Fucking God!
Get a fucking life, these people act like they
dont know how to go into the sunlight(outside)
and find a whore and get some real shit! I mean
FUCK! !@#$% that just pisses me off. Its even
somehow more pathedic than phone sex (which is
pretty damd pathedic). Yet somehow it is
justifyed.
Like: Actual chat
rooms that are filled with inteligant people, (I
know what your thinking, and no i dont mean
people against bush, although that is a plus) I
mean people whom can have a good conversation
with out sounding like they have no pourpus in
society.
Dislike:Hatemail
Like:Replying to
hate mail.
Enough of that
for now. What can I talk about now. I am gradualy
running out of ideas. but there are still some to
talk about. like ... ... ... MTV! ... I think im
going to ramble about that for a while then.
MTV. Where to
start? Well I guess with jackass. I cant figure
out if that show was cancled and mtv went pussy
or what. its just like compleatly disapeard.
Which strikes me as suspicious since they not to
long ago had that bitchen movie come out. that
was like a HUGE movie. what the fuck happend. but
now theres Wildboys. Basicly the same principal i
guess. just a couple of people put in front of
cameras proving that people will do ANYTHING for
money. Like having huge as spiders bite them, and
battleing with allagaters and bears, or one of my
favorites. the time they say on a bed of nails.
.. then there are the shows that are just
outright preppy! like your face or mine. where
concited people go and compair peoples faces to
find whos uglyer.. but thats only like a small
part of it. the people mostly have to compair
there own faces to there "parthers" or
other peoples. Some of these people are so
consited its not even realistic. The way you can
tell is when thy make detailed coments about
there face. and always choose them over there
opposing face. infact. the only shows i like on
that channel are the videos that they show all
night, and boiling points. (boiling points is a
show where they piss people off and see how
pissed they can get before they start swaring or
calling the police. that show is extreamly funny.
I recomend it in fact.... I think I will but a
link to its web page here infact. Go here for the
hompage.
Next thing is.
... . ... . ... . well idk yet. let me think.
Teachers. What i think about teachers is, there
cool with me. well some of them. alot of them
claim they dont have favorites. but we all know
they do. But dont think thats a bad thing unless
you want to admit you are a bad person! becuase
you would be hiporcritical. Becuase all of us pic
favorite teachers in the same way. Not only that
but students as well. And I catualy feel sorta
sorry for my teachers. becuase they dont really
have a life. its sad. one day i was in the
library of my school, and then i heard this
teacher talking about how a studend wrote
"dam turkeys" on his paper but spelled
it like "damd turkeys" and said she had
to cherish the moment, cuz exsitement like that
dosent happen too much. HOW SAD. dont give your
teachers greef! there so so so so alone already.
they dont need to realise that its depressing at
the same time. well un less there republican
teachers, or catholics. then it is okay. becuase
we all know they deserve it.
I went to a
catholic school, and thats how i know this. It
was the worst damd 1and a quarter years of my
life! the little religious tweekers walking
around everywere. then on fridays for 2 hours of
the school day, you would go to church and pray.
and if you did do it "right" then they
bitched at you. and ya know what i think. i think
if i were to do a columbine, i would start there,
then work my way to the next block where the
highschool is. all becuase of there little
bitching and moaning about everything and even
how you pray. YES thats right, how you pray. and
I live in the usa. and i think there was a little
thing that we suposible cherish here that said
" blady blady bla ... yadda more yadda. oh
here it is 'Everyone has the right
to freedom of thought, conscience and religion;
this right includes freedom to change his
religion or belief, either alone or in community
with others and in public or private, to manifest
his religion or belief in teaching, practice,
worship and observance.' yadda yadda" oh
what was that document? oh yea now i remember.
United Nations Universal Declaration of Human
Rights. That means that I have the right to
practice my religion in any form or way
whatsoever (as long as its peacful i supose). So
back off damd religious tweeking bitches. (now i
am athiest) and a bad speller if you havent
noticed.
I
have to write about this one. This was a peace of
hate mail that i got. But just to clear up some
things with my mother here it is.
Sender
: your nothing but a little cunt thats too
affraid of his mother, so
takes it out on a stupid little website.
Reply: If your mother was the suprime overloard
whore of hell, you
would be afraid too. (and I'm a fucking retarded
peace of shit bastard, not a little cunt.)
How
about being gothic Brian? are you a
"goth"? .... .... .... .... let me
think the best ways to answare this. NO! I am not
a goth. I think its a sad practice to be one. the
only time you should ware black is when in a
"tux" situation, or when robing a
place. if i may borrow a quote from jeff
foxworthy. and i frankly dont give a fuck if i
cant. " didnt we used to call that
holloween? " seriously. what the fuck are
you trying to do? I dont get it enough to even
make fun of it that well. so i guess thats it.
So,
what kind of music do you like? well since you
asked, im going to call you a stupid bitch and
tell you to fuck off! becuase there are too many
catagorys of music, and most of them all sound
the same. and i like really all but country. I
can do the punk, the pop (in moderation), classic
rock, newer rock, rap, hiphop, gunge (especialy
grunge you got to love everything from seattle if
your me) and all that stuff. so asking a person
like me to pick one genre is like obserd on so
many levels. well mabey thats a over reaction,
but it is pretty stupid for people to limit
thereselfs to just one thing of every catagory.
thats why im trysexual, and dont pic favorites in
really anything but classes at school. although i
dont have many of those.
speeking
of music. i engoy the occasional maraline manson.
he is cool. but his voice is to damd raspy
durring the points that he trys to make shocking.
es ist traurig, aber was
können Sie tun?
oh yea, i
probialy havent mentioned that i study german,
well mabe cuz its not interesting, well then
again like the rest of this stuff is? *sarcastic
voice
I think im
probaly normal, but everything that i think seems
so differnt, and unexceptable. Mabe its just a
phase, a simple fealing of self importance,
beyond all others, with a few exceptions, but I
have a silent rage in me, waiting to work its way
out. in prahaps some of the worst ways. or
nicest. I find it simply hard to remain quiet any
longer. To many preppy little bitches have
disapointed me, not me i guess. just dissapointed
what i thought life was. was going to be. what it
was before. but nothing is true anymore. and it
needs to end, for everybody, or just me. take
your pic before i come. I am god. I am satin. I
am your jugement day. I am your gardian angel. I
can either protect you, or compleatly end you. I
AM COMEING FOR YOU. YOU ARE MY LITTLE SHEEP. BAH
BITCHES ... BAHHHHHHHH!!!!!
Thats
it, if you want me to write about somthing, just
email me, and i will most likely do it. i really
need to know what should I
talk about in this collume? any ideas? cuz im
pretty much out.
Well
thats it for now, I'm officialy tired. So I am
going to bed (its 4:55 AM here) I will write
again soon, so till later days
-Brian
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