TGIF!!!!!!
Mood:  celebratory
Now Playing: My kids in the background!


Today I started my new job! It seems cool enough. My boss is super nice and helpful. It's just me, him and my friend Mary. I'm working for a construction company and that stuff is complicated!!!!! I know after a week or so I'll get the hang of it...It's nice to go to work in a office and have my own little space!!!! This is a first for me.

I'm looking forward to my Friday and my weekend. I'll get the pictures posted sometime tomorrow. As for tonight...well...you know it's official drinking day in my house! So I'm off to celebrate!

Ciao`Kool Mama Kat

My Trip
Mood:  celebratory
Now Playing: Tom and Jerry


Well I had a great vacation. I did a ton of shopping. Got some great CD's at cheap prices, a couple pairs of boots, some cool cherry shirts, and other cute things. The weather was COLD!! I don't do well in cold weather. I think living in south Florida has made me intolerable to cold weather period!

I got to hang out with my sister and her boyfriend a bit. We went out to dinner and played some Grand Theft Auto...what a cool and crazy game that is. My sister is so pretty and smart. She is graduating high school in May..has a car and drives now!!!!!! I'm still getting used to that. She is so mature and beautiful. I know she is going far in life.

My little brother has discovered internet porn!!!! He is only 11 yrs. old. My mom and I busted him by checking the history on the computer...of course he denies it all...His poor little brain is so tainted now...It was hard for me to look at him the same way afterwards, but I know he is a boy...and boys will be boys!!!!

My folks are doing good. It was great hanging out with my mom and stepdad. We went bowling and I feel on my ass so hard...but it was fun. I miss Tennessee but I would never leave Florida.

Went to Alabama and saw my Grandmother's. My Great-Grandmother is on her death bed. This was the last time I was to see her. It was hard but I know one day I will cherish that moment. She know's she is dying and she just cries all the time. She is so eaten up with cancer, she has tumor's all over her head...She is such a strong women, raised 7 kids on her own. 88 yrs. old and has been around long enough to see her great-great-grandson..my son Aaron! That's amazing and an accomplishment. I hope I can say the same for myself when I'm that age. She wished us well and told Aaron to be a good man and live a fine life. I cried like a baby as we all did!

Finaly home almost 1500 hundred miles later. I was offered a job and had the interview this morning. I go out to get in my car and it won't start!!!!! So I take Patrick's truck, pull out of my street and get pulled over for doing 17 mile's over that damn speed limit....after a few moments of my poor me story and the fact that I'm a girl..he let me go! Thank God! I got the job and start tomorrow. I'm doing office work for a major construction company around here that builds home's and Condo complexes. I'm excited and hope to learn a lot from this. I'm still going to do Marketing for Papa John's but decided to pick up a second job so we can buy a house this summer.

So anyway I have so much to do around here...I don't even know where to begin...so maybe I should start by getting off this damn computer...this thing is like a black hole sometime's. I'm glad to be home and back to my Katty dutie's!

Ciao`Kool Mama Kat

Yeah...I'm finally home!
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: The Stripes


Wow! I'm sooo glad to be home finally! Had a great trip....gonna have a few and watch the O.C....LOVE THAT SHOW!!! Even though I'm probably to old to watch it! My kitties are soooo happy to see me!!! I'll give all the juice tomorrow about my trip!!! I had so much inspiration for my novel while away...can't wait to share!!!

Love to all you Kool Kat's,
Angel

AAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: My whining

I Salute You
Mood:  lyrical
Now Playing: The Doors


There is nothing more sad in life than the feeling of despair. When life has put it's ugly walls up around you and your left feeling stifled and suppressed. When your left with the depressed feeling of hopelessness. When you left questioning who you are and your purpose. When your left wondering other people's motive's and quiet possibly your own. When you've tumbled so far down that downward spiral that it's hard to find your way back up.

To those who are feeling me...I salute you and feel ya....

For that girl...you know who you are.


Stop it!
You are special,
You have a purpose, a meaning.
Who are they to tell you any other way.
Who are they to drive you to tears,
They know you fears,

Like a sign on her face,
She feel's she has lost her place,
In this ever expanding space.

Don't slit those wrist,
Don't cut your arms,
Put that glass down,
Drive those voices away.

Don't give into despair,
Where life is so unfair.
Where your life has no name,
Where your life is just a game.

Find meaning in being,
Be alive in being arrived.
Be new in being you.
Be fresh at what you do best.

Laugh at passerby's who just don't get it.
Smile at that child who looks to you for purpose.
Be that mentor you always knew you could.
Let out a sigh of relief at being your own cheif.

Don't ever question what you are,
Who you are,
Where your going,
What is done is done.
That is the fun,
That is it girl.
That is it.

~Kool Mama Kat

Whine...Bitch...Complain...Yadee..Yadee..Yadaa
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: The Voice's

AAHHHH!!! Finally I'm home. I had to work tonight...which I don't normally do, but I was doing the Husband a favour...Friday nights as you know are my OFFICIAL drinking night...I mean it is an official day in this house...EVERYONE knows this!!!! But I couldn't leave Patrick to suffer without my suffering with him! So here I am on a Friday night with a back-ache, drinking my 1st of only 2 beers I will allow myself tonight...Tomorrow on the other hand will be another story.....things to do before hand....Practice Soccer with the kids....get groceries before we all starve to death...then make up for my cheated FRIDAY NIGHT!!!

Thanks to Rick for referring me to Writing.Com...it is a really cool site and one I feel I will benefit from. I need honesty..good or bad. I need tools to put to good use..by the way Rick if you are reading this can I have a link to your site again????? Please!!!! I seemed to have misplaced it and I promise I won't again...

Before I go I just want to share with you all a new hobbie I have picked up. People watching. It's easy and cost nothing to get started..There's nothing like being an observer you know...You can learn so much by just watching people. Try it...who know's..the possibilities are endless!!

Ciao~ Angel

Another Brain Freeze
Mood:  spacey
I've had these thought's and ideas swimming around in my head for quite some time. Should I write a book or shouldn't I. I want to. I have a bag full of ideas. But where the hell do I even begin! I can sense the answers coming to me in my dreams, but there a little clouded. As vivid as some may be and exciting at the same time it's all a little fuzzy.

If I procrastinate for to long will these opportunities pass me by? Will I loose the desire and the knowledge? Am I just setting myself up for failure? I don't know. I don't really know were to turn, who to talk to. I need a mentor! I need a good kick in the ass!!!!

I have a lot of inspiration..a lot of determination..and a heck of a lot of time...I need to uncloud my head...I need to check out of my senses and look beyond my limitations....I need a muse and a mentor! Anyone interested? Anyone feeling me?

For My Husband
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: The Voices


Stay true to your personal hopes,
And patiently wait.
Changes will happen in time.

Mood:  incredulous
Now Playing: Generation X { 80's }
The Philosophically Multi-Storied
weekend pleased her.
Laughing and Complacent,
The Gift of Knowledge becomes
her life and form.


~Kool Mama Kat Poetry in Motion
http://www.poetry.com.....enter the contest!!

Mood:  on fire

You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Baracuda - Heart
Gazing down the highway glassy eyed a flash has blinded her. Opening her eyes alien sounds surround her. Be comforted girl, let it go girl. Own your space, it is yours. Use it, abuse it, be amused by it. So long to old thinking, so long to old ways. Be reborn, savour your clean slate, take advantage of starting over.

Take no pity and tolerate no shame. Smile casually to passerby's who don't know any better. Be cool in being you, be cool in being different.

A flash. A bang. Back on that highway, is it called life. Where am I she ask. No more confusion. Back to a familiar plane. Gazing down that highway again it hits her all at once. She has arrived...Oh yea arrived.

Mood:  caffeinated
Now Playing: the voices in my head
I will be forever new, Where I found a new desire, Delicious and Hot. I found a new echo... http://www.poetry.com

Mood:  lucky
Just wanted to add that another of my poems is being published!!!! Poetry.com has decided to publish "The Underground" If you want to read this click on the "my writings" link to the right!!!! I'm also a Semi-Finalist in the International Open Poetry Contest!!!! Keep your finger's crossed for me!!!

Mood:  suave
Now Playing: The Cramps
Well I have finally officially upgraded!!!! Yeah!!!

Last night was fun....full of many laughs, many Amberbock's and lot's of music...Thank you Tim for the CD's and your mixes sound great by the way! DJ Timquella always making parties happen!!

Signed the kids up for soccer today!!!! They look so cute! And oh yeah baby I'm a soccer mom!! Tonight the hubby and I are going to have a few drinks and hopefully play some cards...tomorrow who know's!???!!?? If it's hot..and i'm sure it will be...maybe I will go to the beach! I could really use some sun..you can't see my Native Americaness anymore!!!

Anyway ta ta for now

TGIF!!!
Well it's my official drinking day!! I typically only "get drunk" on Friday's b/c the week is all about being mommy but come Friday and it's all about ME!!! Tomorrow I'm going to sign the kids up for Soccer...Aaron is 4 and this will be his first anything really...how cute will he be!! What a sight...

No codeine today boy's and girl's...it will not mix well with my Rollin Rock's, although some of you may beg to differ...I must be responsible b/c the kiddies are watching!!! Besides as much as that stuff makes me all warm and fuzzy...it taste like shit!!!

Happy Friday` Kool Mama Kat

Codeine
Can I just say Codeine is great!!!

My doctor prescribed me robitussin with codeine to help with my nagging cough due to broncitis {spelling} the codeine is supposed to help me sleep but no luck in that department....medicines tend to have reverse affects on me....sleeping pills never make me sleep they make me jumping...and CODEINE...hahaha...well it makes me hyper..I can take a dose and clean house like I've never cleaned before!

Unfortunatly for me I have an addictive personality and this little bottle won't last long! But I shall enjoy it to the last drop!! UUUMMMM- well at least I'm feeling a little better!!!

My poor baby!
Today was such a weird day!

I awoke this morning to my baby boy {Aaron 4yrs.} complaining of a bug bite...turns out he got bit by a spider on his little leg. It is so gross. So I call his Doctor and she tells me to drop what I'm doing and bring him in right away...not something you say to a worried mother!!! So we went down to see Dr. Rojas...she told me it was infected..it has an abcess...he will be on antibiotics for 7 days. Aaron is a tough boy and is handling it well....I actually think he thinks it's cool! Typical boy!

Later on that evening.....

I'm on the computer- hear a noise in the living room...run in there....the TV is smoking and making noise!!!! I call the husband in a panic- he tells me to unplug it before it catches fire- I was to scared to touch anything but at this point I'm thinking we don't have renter's insurance and my kids are now screaming and freaking out- so in a fit of adrenaline I unplug the bloody thing!!! It helped but now we are without TV. Not cool with 2 kids! However my husband being superdad is out buying us a new TV as I type.....THANK GOD!!!!

I'm glad this day is almost over...hopefully tomorrow will be better!!

Keep my baby boy in your prayers...Thanks!

~Kool Mama Kat

Our Trip
Well we had a great time in Orlando. We went to Universal Studios Islands of Adventures. It was sooo much fun....Can you believe they actually had a Happy Hour?!?! So needless to say we had a few which made things a little more interesting....We took lot's of pictures which you can view by clicking the "My Pictures" link in the right column. We also went to the Titanic Exhibition which had over 200 artifact's from the original ship....it was erie...Anyway it was fun today is our official 2 yr. anniversary....Happy Day Baby- I love you!!!!

~Kool Mama Kat

I'm being Published!
Well it has finally happened!!! I have been writing since I was 13 yrs. old and finally something has become of it!!!!!

The American Poet's Society has chose one of my poems to be published in their upcoming Anthology "A celebration of poetry" If you would like to read the poem click on the my writings link on the right column or go to my website and click on Scribble.."Sins of the Father" is the one that has been picked!

I shall share a little from the letter they sent to me-

" Angel, we would love to publish your poem in our new anthology. Congratulations on impressing me and the other editors. I know your poems will enhance the book and inspire others. - Maggie Whitford. Senior Editor

" Dear Angel,

Thank you for sending us your poem, "Sin's of the Father". Our Editorial staff was impressed with your poem and has accepted it for publication in our upcoming collection of fine poetic works. Our editors are very particular about which poems are approved for publication. We wish for the Anthology to represent only the very best poetry. Being selected by our senior editor is an accomplishment that signifies you are an artist, aomeone with the ability to put their thoughts into words that eloquently describe their feelings".

It goes on to explain the process and boost my ego so to speak.....This is huge for me and I just wanted to share!!!!

~Kool Mama Kat