Mood:  hug me


This weekend has been full of to many emotions that I don't think there are even words in the English language that could explain them! I am a mess. My heart is in many little pieces. My thoughts are at war. My mind is a maze that I cannot escape.

I'm seeing myself through a new set of eyes and I don't like the girl that I see. I see someone who appears to have all she could ever want/need yet she is living in misery. I see a girl who has made so many mistakes yet the future ahead could be bright. I see a girl picking up a drink everytime she needs an escape...it's a temporary fix...

There is a war going on inside of me right now between good and evil, between right and wrong, between need and want, between selfishness and selflessness.

Tomorrow is suppose to be a new beginning for me in some ways, though this opportunity that I have been given leaves me guilt ridden. All I can say if you are reading this, is that "I'm Sorry"

I'm am imperfect......