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(02/01/12 02:32:24 )
[A free woman is inordinately precious. She is a thousand times, and more, above a mere slave.-Players of Gor, p.92]
:::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::
Free Woman of Gor
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to ALL: So I was still curled on My couch.. I didnt move, and I could not hear him entering. All I knew was the circle My thoughts were racing in. I tryed to stay away from thoughts of Him and focus on how I would get free. I had made plans, and now.. here I was.. NO place really to call home, alone.. at his mans mercy.. I was grateful He had been kind so far.. and that was why I was quick to help Him, but I would never tell him it was Me.. I dont know why I felt I needed to keep it to Myself.. but something told Me to.. Dipping My head, the whisper of dark lashes kissed the top of smooth cheeks.. just..lost in thought

(02/01/12 02:33:12 )
||.Macto Sanguinus.||
||.Oenomaus.||
||.Caste of Slavers.||
||.Tetrapoli | RoG.||
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to :::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::: -Once I got inside, I was quick to slip the knife out of my sleeve. I held it by the hilt and then staring at it thoughtfully, I headed towards the kitchen, hoping to still find you there.-

(02/01/12 02:39:58 )
||.Macto Sanguinus.||
||.Oenomaus.||
||.Caste of Slavers.||
||.Tetrapoli | RoG.||
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to :::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::: -I noticed the sliding door to the room Id given you open. I paused in my steps and hid the dagger Id retrieved from the Initiate.. and carefully composed my features before I lowered the hood and slipped to stand in your doorway.. the same softly murmured "hey" of earlier falling to your ears again now.-

(02/01/12 02:50:08 )
[A free woman is inordinately precious. She is a thousand times, and more, above a mere slave.-Players of Gor, p.92]
:::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::
Free Woman of Gor
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to ||.Macto Sanguinus.||||.: Curled on the couch as I was, I perhaps looked as soft as a woman should have, but you said I could treat this as My home and I did. Dressed in a light, white gown, My hair fell down the spanse of My slender back , curling just under My ass. Legs were drawn up under Me, and I had an arm lifted over the side of the couch. Turning My head at the softly spoken word, My gaze fixed on You and I shifted. Legs unfurled, and I dipped My head, hiding the relif that would have been given away in the light, shimmering pools. Catching My lip between My teeth, I stood and crossed the floor on bare feet til I was just a few paces from you. I never took My eyes form You, but I did cant My head sligtly, looking you over making sure you were ok.

Tapered digits curled into My palm, fighting to choke back the urge to run My fingers along Your skin. My throat worked as I swallowed, and forced words forth, hoping they did not betray the relief I felt.

"Hey Yourself. I see you made it ok.. I hope.. Yout business is comeplete. You should eat.. and rest. You need to take it easy for a few days."

My gaze shifted away and I pondered moving to the kitchen, not sure how I felt, talking to you like this.. in My room.. but I did not move to make you leave either.. I just soft of..waited.. curious.. adn confused..but I did everything in My power to appear like i gave a shit less, even if I did..

(02/01/12 02:54:33 )
||.Macto Sanguinus.||
||.Oenomaus.||
||.Caste of Slavers.||
||.Tetrapoli | RoG.||
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to :::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::: -I pulled off my cloak.. and began to peel off layers carefully, until I was in just a simple sleevless tunic and rep pants. I handded off everything to a slave to take care of. Youd get whiff of something on my person that smelled strongly, and nothing like the salve youd used. I had tucked the kinfe in my bracer. To your words, I gave a slight nod and then sighed slightly with a furrowed brow.-"sometimes what we should do.. and what we can don't line up well. I wanted to ask you something.. Did.. you happen to see the knife that got me in the shoulder?"-I levelled my obsidian gaze upon you, and youd know in that moment at least that Id been fully aware of whod taken care of me, even if Id been aloof earlier. I watched your face for any reaction.-

(02/01/12 03:07:51 )
[A free woman is inordinately precious. She is a thousand times, and more, above a mere slave.-Players of Gor, p.92]
:::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::
Free Woman of Gor
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to ||.Macto Sanguinus.||||.: I did not avert My gaze, even as You made yourself comfortable. I made sure not a muscle ticked, using that professional aloofness as I let My eyes lower to the shoulder in question. After a moment, I looked back up at you, and You might have noticed My paleing a bit. Did he know I was there? What would He do.. if I admitted I was there and left the compound without his permission? Drawing a breath, soft lips parted to say something.. anything to deny being there..the scent of whatever you had on made Me shut My mouth again. I DID see the knife.. and one better.. dipping My head. I could not look at you.. I guess if you were gonna do something to Me.. why not here and now.. turning without a word, I walked to My bag. Opening it slowly, I withdrew a bloody length of bandaging.. it was obvious that it was more than what it appeared, but it had been concealed in the mess of gawkers and the dopey baker. I was not going to give it to you.. I was gonna place it where it would have been found and I never would have been attached to the scene at all. I didnt want you to know, even after you captured me.. I helped you. I also left without permisson.. I could have kept going under the guise of helping you, but the thought never entered My mind.

I crossed the floor back to You, but I would not look at you.. I was afraid of what I would see in those piercing eyes of yours. Holding out the bandaged wrapped knife in both hands I held My breath.. There was nothing to stop you from using it , or one of the ones on you already, on Me.. and I guess, I would have deserved it for being willful and disobeying

(02/01/12 03:10:38 )
||.Macto Sanguinus.||
||.Oenomaus.||
||.Caste of Slavers.||
||.Tetrapoli | RoG.||
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to :::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::: -I dropped my gaze from you only then.. to the knife and a muscle ticked in my jaw as I closed my eyes and I murmured a soft "sonofabitch"-I spun around and stalked off towards the kitchen, where youd hear something slam.. Then something else... and.. another thing. Finally, there was complete... silence. I didn't come back towards your room, which would make it impossible to tell if I was pissed at you... or something else entirely.

(02/01/12 03:18:14 )
[A free woman is inordinately precious. She is a thousand times, and more, above a mere slave.-Players of Gor, p.92]
:::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::
Free Woman of Gor
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to ||.Macto Sanguinus.||||.: The muttered swear touched My ears and I flinched. When I dared to raise My gaze, You were already walking away from Me. My hands trembled, and I heard the slamming.. Then nothing.. Everything from the last few days welled up in a knot the size of the Sadar Mountains locked in My throat and I let the knife slide from My fingers to clatter on the floor.. I followed all too quickly, the impact of the floor on My knees unnoticed. I was consumed by the feeling of guilt, of agony, loss.. and.. something else I could not define. I did not cry out, I did not made a sound as My head bowed and the hot tears spilled from My eyes, My face hidden behind My fall of hair.

I had no idea what it ment, but You were angry.. and I was sure it was My fault.. I felt in My bones it was a matter of time before You came back and killed Me.. I cried there for a time before pulling Myself together and wiping the tears away with the back of My hand. drawing to My feet, I crept thru the house, Looking for you. I had not gotten the chance to explore, so all I knew was, where your room was, My room was and the kitchen. But I went after You none the less. I didnt want you to hurt yourself worse in your anger, because of Me. Id rather you killed Me now, and saved the stress on yourself..

(02/01/12 03:21:34 )
||.Macto Sanguinus.||
||.Oenomaus.||
||.Caste of Slavers.||
||.Tetrapoli | RoG.||
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to :::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::: -I heard the noises from your room.. but I had no idea what was going on. The sounds had come predominantly from the kitchen.. and if you arrived there, You would find me in front of the counter Id leaned on before. I leaned against it, the plate of food left there by the slave still untouched. Then, a knife that matched the one you'd just dropped on the floor was jammed into the table. I just stared at it mutely. Everything in my posture was tight with anger.. The silence in the kitchen tangible in its weight.-

(02/01/12 03:32:00 )
[A free woman is inordinately precious. She is a thousand times, and more, above a mere slave.-Players of Gor, p.92]
:::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::
Free Woman of Gor
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to ||.Macto Sanguinus.||||.: Ok, so the kitchen was the LAST place I looked.. but when I did find you there, I did not enter. Standing there in the door way, I took in your posture, the bunch of muscle under Your shirt, Your face was mostly turned from Me but the tension in your shoudlers made Me step forward and to the side. It was then, I saw the knife dug into the table. It was the match of the one I stolen from the Inn. I felt the blood rush from My face. YOu knew who it was that tried to kill you.. The tip of My tongue darted out, and I drew in a breath. You didnt need this stress with what you just went thru.. I saw the plate you had not touched, and shook My head.

Stepping forward, I reached out, tapered digits skimmed lightly along the top of your back, between Your shoudlers, as if I could erase the bunch of muscle there. The touch, brief and light was withdrawn just as quickly as I reached out, and I murmured softly

"Please Oenomaus.. I wanted to help.. I..Im sorry.. "

I stepped around so I was facing You, My hand once more reached out to rest on Your arm.

"Please, sit, and eat something. REST. YOu have gone thru alot tonight.. and I am worried about you..." There it was fucking out

(02/01/12 03:35:26 )
||.Macto Sanguinus.||
||.Oenomaus.||
||.Caste of Slavers.||
||.Tetrapoli | RoG.||
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to :::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::: -If it was even possible, the line of muscles tensed more to your touch.. but then eased slowly. I closed my eyes, still keeping silent and finally turned and grabbed a stool, dragging it noisily across the floor and sitting. I sat on it with a grunt, and kept glaring at that knife. I then decidedly ate, in a very moody fashion and irritation hung in a cloud around me as I did so. Finally, after about 5 ehns of my eating, I lifted a brow slightly and settled the unreadable depth of my gaze upon you. "What the hell do you have to be sorry for.. and why were you crying?"-I speared another bite of steak, watching you intently.-

(02/01/12 03:52:47 )
[A free woman is inordinately precious. She is a thousand times, and more, above a mere slave.-Players of Gor, p.92]
:::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::
Free Woman of Gor
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to ||.Macto Sanguinus.||||.: I was afraid when Your muscles coiled even tighter, you would turn and strike Me, but then, some of the tension melted away and I released a breath I was not even aware I had been holding. Stepping back, I watched your surly display and did not say anything. Moving to the nook in the window, I settled there, drawing My legs back up under Me. I watched you eat for a while and then turned My head away. I knew I would not sleep this night.. I did not see you look My way til You spoke and I returned My gaze to Your face. Your question was gruff and for a moment, I pondered what to say. I decided on the safe answer.

"I should have told you before I had that knife. But I did not want you to know I had left here. I was gonna let you find it later.. I just wanted to help you.. "

My words trailed as Your second question caught Me off guard. I had not made a sound when I cried. Looking at You, I shook My head. I carefully replaced the mask that hid MY emotions and gave you a simple pat answer that would hide the true reason..

" I just came to this city hoping to make a life doing what I love, only to be captured.. Then no sooner than I accept that I am at your mercy, I am called to help you and almost let you... I have been thru alot, and While I may be strong, even I have limits to what I can take. I am still human.."

I could not look at you even as I finished what I was saying. IT was true to a point, tho, it was the things I had been thinking while You had been outside that made it bubble to the surface and crack the shell I struggled to keep in place. YOu were getting under My skin. I didnt want to admit it or even face it. It was scaring the hell out of Me. Then you being hurt, it was too much...but none of THIS she said.. She would just let you think..what you thought

(02/01/12 03:57:51 )
||.Macto Sanguinus.||
||.Oenomaus.||
||.Caste of Slavers.||
||.Tetrapoli | RoG.||
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to :::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::: -I pursed my lips in thought as I finished the steak and suls. I rose, getting a bota of water, and drank about half of it down outright. I narrowed my gaze slightly..and would accept your answer.. for now.. but some of it didn't really ring true or at least.. not to the situation at hand. My gaze kept drifting to that knife.. and finally I yanked it out of the table and slowly turned it in my hand sniffing it. I then flung it at the thick backdoor of the kitchen and it was deeply embedded.. the hilt left to rattle loudly. I then stood and moved around the table and sat on it, staring at you quietly once more.- "I knew as soon as I woke up. I could smell you. As for leaving.. do you think you should be punished for it.. for doing your job?"

(02/01/12 04:20:41 )
[A free woman is inordinately precious. She is a thousand times, and more, above a mere slave.-Players of Gor, p.92]
:::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::
Free Woman of Gor
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to ||.Macto Sanguinus.||||.: I was a bit relieved when you finished eating. At least You would have some energy stores now. My gaze followed You across the floor and I crossed My arms over My chest. Your look was not lost, but I didnt comment further. I felt it best to leave it alone. I followed Your gaze to the knife and let it linger there, startling slightly when you yanked it free and sniffed it. I wondered if You were a tracker as well as everything else. The sound of the knife connecting with the door made Me turne dMy face into the window. I did not like violence, even if I did fix the aftermath of it.

The whispering shuffe of your feet on the floor told Me you moved, and I looked up again. YOu were closer, causing Me to draw in a labored breath that refused to release for a moment. blinking, I held your gaze, the weight of it as tangible as a touch. Your words registered slowy in My brain and I felt the heat of a blush creep across the bridge of My nose and along My cheeks. Smell Me? Did I smell.. like sausage or something? I wanted to die just thinking about it. I had bathed last night, and was in the rain today.. did I stink that bad?

I suppose you were right, I had done My job.. helping You.. but I had taken Your dagger with Me.. I stole the knife form the Inn.. those were not My job.. I didnt say these things, I just simpily shook My head. If yOu were not brining them up, I would not either.. I had never been around a man outside My family, and I knew how fickle they could be, and not knowing you all that well, anything could happen. But I could feel, even if you were a bit under handed, You had honor, you were keeping your word to Me. That would stand under anything. My next words, were picked carefully. I felt like your eyes were staring straight into Me and I needed You to stop..

"No, I suppose not, but.. I had a reason more so to help you. If you died, I would be at the mercy of Your men here. Who is to say they would have the same morals you do? I would not take that risk on My life or safety."

The words were harsh, but not what I wanted to say. I hoped My voice did not betray the tremor I felt inside. Exhaling deeply, I uncoiled her legs to let My feet find the floor. Standing, I took your dishes and moved then to the dish basin to be washed in the morning by one of the girls, and in the process, removing Myself from that gaze.

(02/01/12 04:29:51 )
||.Macto Sanguinus.||
||.Oenomaus.||
||.Caste of Slavers.||
||.Tetrapoli | RoG.||
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to :::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::: -Where before Id made noise, this time I did not. I unfurled from my pose on the table like a predatory feline. The steps that brought me behind you were soundless, and it was not till I exhaled , since you were trying to not look at me, that youd even notice I was there. Finally I spoke softly, with a deeper chill to my tone than you'd ever heard thus far.-"Do not ever speak on the morals of my men again Lavonia. This is my homestone. They are of it. I do NOT take anyone impuning my homestone or those of it lightly."-I turned away, walking to the knife in the door and yanking it out and heading towards the hallway.-"I am headed to bed. It would behoove you to travel with those men you dont trust the next time you leave, even if called. The man that sent the woman who tried to kill me today is an Initiate. They have eyes everywhere in this city."-With that, I walked to my room and slammed the door shut.-

(02/01/12 04:37:53 )
[A free woman is inordinately precious. She is a thousand times, and more, above a mere slave.-Players of Gor, p.92]
:::Lavonia Mag Aoidh::::
Free Woman of Gor
-=Personal Residence=-
within a personal residence in the city
says to ||.Macto Sanguinus.||||.: I didnt know you were there, so when you spoke, My whole body tensed up and I did not move. I felt the warm play of breath over My ear, and the scent of Your salve. The cold in your voice carried an unspoken threat and I thoguht My heart was gonna stop. I did not know these people.. I didnt know you.. but it made sense. The kind of man you appeared to be would only have men of his caliber with him. Still, the words had served their purpose of creating a shield..a safe space.. Even if you were angry with Me.. It was safer than the alternative. Your words were not missed.. Next time.. So I would be free another day. I exhaled a shuddering breath as you moved away and withdrew the knife. I didnt watch you, but listened as the door slam shut behind you. It was only then i turned and looked after you, I didnt realize I was trembling til I started for My room. A knot sat in My belly and I knew it was My fault I put it there, but it needed to be done.. for both our sakes. slipping into My room, I closed the door softly. Walking to the wall that seperated the rooms, My hand lifted to press agianst the cool surface. Holding it there but a moment, I sighed softly and let it drop, turning and heading to My couch and find sleep-