Waiting
I sit here all alone,
Just waitin' for you
Even though I know
You won't do.
You occupy my mind
You take up my thoughts
I see you in my dreams
I care about you not
But that's just a lie
That I tell me
I don't want to admit
I just don't want to see
'Cause I know I'll be waiting
Sittin here alone
I know you'll be breakin'
My heart forevermore
Searching
I stop, I look
And guess what I see
That tantalizing face
Staring back at me
I just look away
Not wanting to hear
You reaction again
For me being here
You tell me it's wrong
That I shouldn't search
And everytime you talk
My stomach gives a lurch
Sometimes I'm not sure
Whether I should keep trying
'Cause sometimes I think
Your love I am buying
I know what you feel
I know you love me
And I guess I shove it away
'Cause I don't want to see
I'm in love with you too
I just can't bear,
What would you think
Would you even care?
So I just keep searching
For that 'special one'
I guess that's what I get
For playing the game of love.
What We Did
I'm sittin here all alone
With nothin' to do.
My mind is elsewhere;
Off with you.
I think about last night;
About what we did.
Part of me is happy
About what happened.
But part of me is lost;
I don't know how to feel.
I try to act to myself
Like it's no big deal.
I thought about it so long,
For weeks and weeks.
I suppose for the right person
Still I seek.
Self respect drowned;
A bit of new respect sought;
I knew what I was doing...
Or so I thought.
So when you come home,
I tell you what I know.
You tell me it's alright
To let my feelings show.
You tell me that you're sorry,
You didn't mean to hurt me.
I tell you that it's okay;
To just let it be.
You say no
And I realize
I can confide in you...
The fright in your eyes tell no lies.