This song is very personal and it is about the process of denial and acceptance that my family no longer wishes to know me, and that I am not allowed to set things right. I have never done drugs, robbed a bank, killed anyone, I can't even kill a bug. Like most folks, I have made a few stupid decisions, but nothing that would deserve this. What am I talking about?

In 1996 my folks met Cat for the first time and did not approve of her, telling everyone that they did not like her but to "form your own opinion". It is 11 years later and they decided that my kids and I are out of the loop as long as I am with Catherine. I think each family has a person that they don't enjoy spending time with, but there is still a requirement to visit on special occasions, so I get to be a black sheep but nothing will ever be good enough to win approval. All the extended family members also avoided us like the plague, as to not upset my mother. Worst of all, they can't see that it bothers us that we would be treated like we are disposable. I say at the end that we don't need them, but it isn't true. I wish I knew some way to fix this. My grandma told me that she thought things would mend at her funeral. I guess this might have been true, because I was not invited to her funeral.

So that is what this song is about, the lyrics constantly change, so far I have recorded it 3 times and played it live twice, all versions are completely different.I really like the songs, but form your own opinion ...