"The change: a very short story" By Sailor ClearMoon PG This is waayyyy short! Okay, go on and read it. I'm typing this at 2:30 am so I'm kinda wacko. Anyhow I'm experimenting, K? Later! All of the disclaimers are in my other 'fics. Check it out! Bye. ** I ran from my house That cannot contain me From the man that I cannot keep From my mother who haunts me Even though she's gone From my daughter that never sleeps I ran from the noise and the silence From the traffic on the streets I ran to the treetops I ran to the sky Out to the lake Into the rain That matted my hair And soaked my shoes and skin Hid my tears, hid my fears I ran to the forest I ran to the trees I ran and ran I was looking for me I ran past the churches And the crooked old mailbox Past the apple orchards And the lady that never talks Up into the hills I ran to the cemetery And held my breath And thought about your death I ran to the lake Up into the hills I ran and I ran I'm looking there still And I saw the crumbling tombstones The forgotten names I tasted the rain I tasted my tears I cursed the angels I tasted my fears And the ground gave way beneath my feet And the earth took me in her arms Leaves covered my face Ants marched across my back The black sky opened up Blinding me I ran to the forest I ran to the trees I ran and I ran I was looking for me I ran to the lakes And up to the hill I ran and I ran I'm looking there still And I smelt her burning flesh Her rotting bones Her decay I ran and I ran I'm still running today -"Mer Girl" by Madonna ** ***** ***** "My queen....?" Asked the woman standing next to the blonde woman. Slowly the blonde turned her head to one of her greatest friends, "How can it be... after so long?" Her voice was soft and whispery, as it had been the past week. "Serenity..." The Neo-Queen closed her eyes as tears ran down her face, "Rei, why did this have to happen? And now of all times!" Rei looked at her friend, it took all her power to not cry in front of Serenity. Neo-Queen Serenity looked out upon the burnt city of Crystal Tokyo. Her mind shouted angry words to the heavens while on the outside she tried her best to stay calm. Finally she could not take it any longer. She lifted up the white skirt of her dress and ran past Rei. On her way through the palace she made out the figures of her other friends. Ami, Makoto, Minako, Hotaru, Haruka, Michiru, and Setsuna... each turned to stare at the queen that ran by. "I ran from my house That cannot contain me..." Serenity shook her head to clear away the tears that fell. One week... he was now gone. He was lost, causing part of her to leave. "...From my daughter that never sleeps..." 'Daddy.... Daddy.... Daddy...' The cries of Small Lady echoed in the queen's head. Serenity wanted to scream out. She wanted to leave everything behind, she headed to the hills and trees behind the palace. "...I ran from the noise and the silence From the traffic on the streets I ran to the treetops I ran to the sky..." Rain started, soaking Neo-Queen Serenity head to toe. She let out a loud cry of pain as she finally let go. She had held back as much sorrow as she could while still in the city, because of her friends... because of her daughter. "...Up into the hills I ran to the cemetery And held my breath And thought about your death..." The queen knelt by one of the newest graves. He was buried there, after what had happened... ---Flashback--- "We must get the queen out of here!" Sailor Mars cried. Tuxedo Mask reached out his hand to his wife. She was in a simple blue dress that hung loosely around her body, she was still very weak after giving birth to their second daughter a week before. "You okay?" The queen smiled weakly in reply. "Come on..." Sailor Neptune held out a hand to Serenity to help her into the helicopter that was ready to leave. Serenity held her young daughter tighter as another bomb dropped in the distance. "Mommy..." Small Lady, Chibi-Usa, whispered. "Come on dear..." Tuxedo Mask lifted Chibi-Usa up into the helicopter after Serenity was in. "Mamoru..." Serenity called her husband by his name from long ago. Tuxedo Mask looked at her, "Please come... I would never be able to live if you died..." "Usako, it's okay. Remember that Ami, Minako, and Hotaru are with you. You will be safe, and I will join you," The masked man kissed Serenity softly before backing away. "Mamoru!" Serenity cried, she felt it. Something was going to happen to her love, she knew it. She looked down at the city that was slowly being destroyed. Mercury came over and placed a hand on the queen's shoulder. "You must take care of your daughters, it's not just yourself anymore..." ---end--- Sailor Mercury's words echoed in the queen's head now, "It's not just yourself anymore..." "No, you are wrong, my friend. I am lost without him..." she looked at the grave marker again. One week he had been gone. Two weeks since her second daughter had been born. ---Flashback--- "Mercury, something's wrong..." Serenity looked out the window, down at the palace where they had just left. "Hold on!" the pilot cried. A bomb whizzed past the front of the helicopter. "No! No!" Serenity screamed. She knew where the bomb would hit. Sure enough, there it landed. The whole east side of the palace was blown away. And she felt it, he had been there. "Take us down..." she whispered. "That would not-" Venus started. "Take us down!" Serenity demanded. Chibi-Usa and Serenity (with Chibi-Chibi still in her arms) were the first to run out. "Mamoru!" Serenity spotted the cape. Torn, it was, over a bloody body. "No..." Serenity knelt down and screamed, "No!" Her cries echoed throughout the whole area, even louder than the bombs. "No!" "Daddy!" ---End--- 'You must live on. Please Usagi, don't kill yourself...' Rei had begged and pleaded with her friend to keep her from hurting herself. A few days before Serenity and gotten out a small knife, she was about to cut her wrists when Rei had stopped her. "But I can't live without him!" Serenity screamed out to the sky. Mamoru's voice came softly to Serenity's ears. Serenity doubled over as her body shook with sobs, "Mamoru..." she knew he was right, that everyone was right. She had to live on, she couldn't leave. Not now with Rini being seven and Chibi-Chibi only two weeks. Tears of defeat streamed off her chin. "My love... why didn't you go with us? Damnit! Why is it this way? It's not fair!!" "I cursed the angels I tasted my fears..." "This isn't right! We were supposed to be together! Damn this fucked up world! Why?! Why him? Of all people! Why him??!!" She screamed. ***** ***** She returned a few hours later. Neo-Queen Serenity would forever be different, not as she had been. The death of her lover left her half empty. For the rest of her life she was solemn and quiet. Her voice never rose more than that of the wind. Chibi-Usa was never quite the same either. All of Serenity's friends changed too, they were much more protective of their queen and her family. **** "...I ran and I ran I'm still running today..." **** So that was short! Wow! I'm sorry, I just wanted to do a short thing. I don't like it that much, but I got the inspiration for Madonna's "Mer Girl" and then I wanted to test out having Mamo-chan die for a change. Yadda, yadda. I'm sorry, I'm really tired. I *am* writing this at 2:30 am, while watching Disney's "Hercules". Ja ne minna-chan, comments are appreciative! -Sailor ClearMoon