I just want to tell you that I love you more than anything in this world, and I always will. My life is not the same without you, and it never will be. Every time I see you, I just want to hold on to you and never let go. You have my heart and you always will. I just wish I could turn back time and do all those little things I should have. I regret so bad that I didn't. You really opened up my eyes Tabby. You have made me a better person with this experience. If you decide to give me another chance, I will never, ever take what we have for granted ever again. Every night when I go to bed, all I can think about is wishing you was laying there in my arms. I miss feeling our bodies pressed together with my arms around you while you sleep. I miss how you would get so excited when you would see me do these little stupid things. I miss telling you "No bad dreams" before we go to sleep. I miss the look in your eyes when you would tell me how much you love me. I miss your sweet passionate kisses. I miss every little thing about you Tabby. I promise with all my heart and soul that I would never take any of that for granted again. My heart feels empty without you. All I can think about is a life with you. Remember when we said that we would be the old people sitting on the porch in our rocking chairs hand in hand? I think about that all the time. That's where I see myself. I constantly think about if we got married, and our honeymoon. I see us out in a field with bright flowers. I see you walking towards me barefoot in the grass. I see with with flowers in your hair. I see the wind blowing through you long beautiful brown hair. And I think about the feeling of our kiss. It's the most wonderful feeling in the entire world. I'm so sorry I didn't show you my love for you the way I should have. I would give anything to do it all over again. I swear I would even give up the rest of my vision to do it. If it cost me the rest of my vision to be with you the rest of my life, I would do it in a heartbeat. That's how much you mean to me Tabby. If you decided to give me another chance, I promise you candle light dinners (I hope pizza's ok. hehe j/k), flowers, walks in the rain (even barefooted), romantic camping trips, and so many other things. You are my heart and soul. I just feel so incomplete without you with me. I am glad that this happened though, because I have become a better person, and I am content with who I am. You did that for me. But even though I am happy with who I am, I still need you in my life to feel whole. This really was a learning experience, and I thank you for that. I would feel comfortable doing ANYTHING for you now. You name it, I'll do it. You made me realize that I can't let my past get the best of me. I have let it hold me back for so long. But I will never let it again. The reason I haven't done much with my life is because my dad, Lee, and Raleigh told me all the time that I would not amount to anything, and I am only going to be a lazy bum. But thanks to you and this experience, I know that I can amount to something. I let their words get to me, and I started believing it. And I think that's why I haven't pursued anything. You really tought me a huge lesson here, and I'm glad. Now the only thing missing in my heart is you. hehe, I just noticed that I think this lesson has also helped me to get my feelings out better. Don't you think? I have so much more love to give you then what I have shown you. And I promise, that I would do my best to show you all I can. I would do anything in the world for you. I will let you go now. And remember that I will always love you and cherish you.
I love you forever and always.