"No day but today." -RENT

I've decided to revamp my journal page and just use it for rambling. So, this page is currently under construction. Be warned!

November 25, 2000

Where to begin, where to begin. I have a lot of questions lately. Am I in the right place in my life? Did I pick the right school, the right field of study? What about my relationships? Everything seems to be one big question mark right now, and I feel that I've lost complete control over my emotions, over everything. Almost any sense of security that I had is lost.

November 27, 2000 Well, well. Here I am. Still here, still kicking. I'm really stressed out right now, about silly, ridiculous things that shouldn't bother me: my piano jury, schoolwork, all things that I can handle. So why am I so freaked out? Why do I have this nervous, unsettled feeling? Why do I have this constant headache and this sick feeling in my stomach?

I guess, more accurately, instead of 'why me?' i should say, "Why not me?" Because, why not, really? I Know that I can handle it. It's just a time. A rough patch. It'll smooth out sooner or later.

Today I had fluctuating highs and lows, but what can you do? Such is the story of my life. This, too, shall pass.


"May the road rise to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face.
May the rains fall soft upon your fields.
And until we meet again
May God hold you in the palm of his hand."
-traditional Irish blessing
this blessing comforts me, and holds a lot of meaning for me personally.



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