"Quietus" by Elora Le Fay
Tomorrow is without
Today is bitter compromise
which in future's memory
will taste much sweeter
after there is nothing left to taste
I haunt this world
empty of soul
lost to the ground
along with the dead
All I wanted and never had
I float within myself
trying to find reason or feeling
meaning means something from nothing
this is a truth I accept
meaning
is an irrelevant attempt
at perception
I know that attachment
robbed me of my own perception
and attachment knows
nothing of meaning
smiling at nothing
but submission
It has held fast to me
even through the parting of life
It still rules my mind
from the grave's earthen throne
but as the dark angel
is gone forever
so is the peace I sought
from the protection of shadows
never quite revealing
how much I wanted
the unspeakable
the inevitable
that which is now
past possibility
From the ashes
of what I never had in reality
comes the truth
a death too late
Unacknowledged attachment
is synonymous with obsession
Harsh dangerous word that it is
it is merely a distraction from oneself
enhancing a hidden strength
not in yourself
but in your desires
Written but unlearned
for once again
I use you as an allegorical shield
to protect myself from exposure
You are the shadows
my protection
my abused sacrifice
You, my shadows
taste mild
you hide my bitter fears
Will I linger forever on the edge?
Will this precipice always stand?
I'm afraid to taste exposure
bitter memories hold me to the ground
The mind's eye shatters
and I'm plummeting
through thick air
The answer
to "Forever or the End?"
comes rushing to meet me.
