I found out that I was 14 weeks pregnant on 12/17/01. During the previous 2 months, I had been spotting brownish thick discharge. Of course, since this is my first pregnancy I assumed it was nothing, although I mentioned it to my doctor. They prescribed me 2 prescriptions of Serephene (which allows you to release eggs). My brilliant doctor brushed off my brown spotting as my hormones changing.

I went in for a pelvic sonogram because my husband and I were trying to get pregnant. My OB/GYN informed me that my placenta looked abnormally thick and my fluid was low. Well, as nervous as I was, I got a second opinion ultrasound. The new doctor informed me that it was a blood clot and it was blocking their view of the baby. He has scheduled me for a follow-up u/s after Christmas and if they still can't see how the baby is developing they plan to perform an amnio., which at only 25 years old, I am rightfully nervous about. I pray to continue on my story as a survivor and a proud parent of a healthy baby.

December 28, 2001 ~ 15 weeks
I went in for another ultrasound and come to hear the glorious news that my body absorbed the blood clot. I was so astonished by the news I wanted to cry. BUT, and there is always a BUT, my fluid appears to be low and they can't tell if the baby is where it is supposed to be growth-wise. So next week I have an amniocentesis scheduled, which I am not nervous about because I am looking forward to hearing good news. So keep me in your prayers and stayed tuned. Happy New Years!

January 10, 2002 ~ 17 weeks
After the amnio, that I thought I wouldn't survive, I DID! And if you are having a high risk pregnancy, that can put you at a greater risk than the 1% to 200% ratio of miscarriage.

Unfortunately it seems as if the bad news doesn't end. The specialist informed me that the size of my hematoma (around 7 cm) is rather large and seems to be in the way. Meaning I am back stuck at the fact that after the results of my amnio I might still have further complications, like the baby may not have enough space to grow. Of course the specialist is telling me that this is one of those things that you have to wait to see what happens. Within the next 10 days I must wait patiently until my next u/s and the results of the amnio. I am damn near sure that this go round I will be singing the song of good news.

Update ~ January 18, 2002 ~ 18 weeks
Unfortunately my good news from the results of the amnio and AFP didn't prepare me for the rest of the complications. On 1/17/02, I went in for my ultrasound and unfortunately the doctor seen more than one problem besides the hematoma, which was measuring at 12 cm. He also saw a cyst, clubfeet, and low fluid and with that he said that this pregancy can end up aborting itself. So we decided that our best option would be to have an early miscarriage. So as of this weekend I will no longer be preganant.

I am not giving this update to discourage any women that might be going through the same thing. I am just letting it be known that unfortunate things can happen. I have a supportive husband and family that has been reassuring me that everything will be okay. We also decided when life goes back to normal that we will try again. Not everyone's first is promised.

~ Kareeta