This page is dedicated to our first child, a baby boy, whose heart stopped beating before he had a chance to finish growing. We were just over halfway through a very, very difficult pregnancy. It was not easy to be given 50/50 odds at losing your baby at 6 weeks, (due to a blood clot in the uterus called a subchorionic hematoma), but that is exactly what happened to us. Despite the odds being stacked against us, Joey and I always remained as positive as we could.
We REALLY loved Nate and hoped so much that he would make it through. Joey talked about his "little biologist" that he would share the world of nature with. I was excited that a baby, made by Joey and I, would turn the two of us into a real family. We try to understand that it was not meant to be, but that doesn't help the hurt in our hearts. We know we should be lucky we can go on to try for another baby, but that doesn't bring back our first little boy. We had so many dreams for him that will never happen now.
We were trying to hang on until at least 28 weeks, which is when our doctor said he would have had about a 50/50 chance of survival. We slowly started to realize that it would have been next to impossible to go another 8 weeks as things were going with the continual premature contractions. The only thing that brings us some comfort is that Nathaniel never had to endure being put on a respirator, stuck with tubes, or injected with medications, as would have been the case if he had been born premature. We are thankful that we did not have to deal with the many potential complications that premature babies so often face, such as heart defects and more, not to mention just not being able to hold him. We just wish the hematoma would have never appeared so that we could have had a happy, normal pregnancy with no bleeding, no hospital stays, and a healthy, crying baby in the end. However, we are trying to look to the future. We are appreciative to all of our friends and family who have supported us. There is so much more I could say. I'll just say, Nathaniel, we loved you and always will.
Click here to see a page of Nathaniel's keepsakes.
Click here to see Robin's pregnancy pictures.
Click here to learn more about subchorionic hematomas during pregnancy.
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