As a result I gave my total self to God, an invisible thing that I wasn't even sure of how I could conceive it. I have struggled with my perception of what and who God was and is. Now I see him as a friend, father, counseller and saviour.

The day I found my son dead was like enduring the bowels of hell. Now I am experiencing the feasts of heaven.
The more I experience this world the more pain and suffering I see but also the beauty of people and God's magnificance in creation.
I am filled with great awe when I view this earth and its inhabitants.

But alas I am still a sinful creature but God is working and moulding me. I may be bananas but I truely believe that everyone is lovable. Sometimes it is not obvious but God is showing me that I can love all people through him.
His scriptures in the bible are just as much for today as they were for the people of the times they were written in.