On the Saturday night of September 28th, 2000, Beast and I met. I was over at Bathory's house, for the first time when we had just became friends. She showed me her photo album, and I got to a picture of her and him at one of the Sol Evil shows. My jaw dropped, he was so gorgeous! I asked her about him; did he have a girl friend? Did he like serious relationships? ETC... After hearing about him, I really wanted to meet him, so she called him. Bathory had told him that there was this girl over at her house wanting to meet him, he said he was quite flattered, but due to just getting out of surgery the day before, he didn't feel like it was the right time. I was disappointed because he decided not to come. Later on that evening, Lord Morder of Sol Evil stopped by the house. All of us were hanging around, and then the phone rang. When Bathory answered, "Hey what's up?... Oh so you're going to come over?" I was so happy. She handed the phone to Morder, and he asked me to come over by him...Lord Morder said "Its a go, bro." I was so nervous!! He finally got to her house, and when I saw him, I thought I was going to faint. A girl just knows when something special is going to happen between a male and herself, and I knew that he was what I've always wanted. We talked outside and smoked a pack of cigarettes that night. I still so nervous, I couldn't even look eye to eye to him. The night ended too soon, I wanted to know so much more about him. We both agreed as we were just friends, that jumping into a relationship quickly wasn't a good thing to do. But as that week past, we grew really fond of each other. That next Sunday he asked me out, I was so happy! Unintentionally, our relationship grew strong, and took a fast turn on us both. We fell in love quickly, and it was unstoppable.

I remember distinctly one night, the night of the Sol Evil CD Release Show; I was speaking with Bathory and another friend of her's, Rana. Rana asked me, "How long have you been with Beast?" I responded, "A month." She was astonished. "Oh my god, you guys are so cute, you two look like you have been together for a long time. And he isn't afraid to hold your hand and stuff around his friends." I felt like I had everyone's dream guy, including my dream guy.

Beast and I have been together for eight months now, and it has been the best ten months of my life. Even though times have been rough, I still get the same butterflies in my stomach like I did the first day I met him. Every relationship has their ups and downs, but in the long run it is all worth it to stick with it, and never stop fighting for the person I love. I would do absolutely anything and everything for Beast. And whatever fate may hold for us in the future, I'm hoping it's all for the best of Louis and I. I hope for happiness; for both him and I. May Aihsile and Beast forever reign this world.

Louis Wrote this to me on June 15th, 2001

Elishia Joy

A beautiful name, person, the only one I know. Let me tell you about her. Elishia is 16 years and counting, 5’3” give or take. She goes to C****n High school, in California. She is an extremely beautiful person in my eyes, on the outside as well as the inside. I, yes I, have had the privilege of spending damn near 10! Months of my life experiencing her love! I am truly lucky, if not downright privileged. Elishia has always thought of me before herself, she is constantly doing her best to make me feel great! She has the most killer eyes, skin, hair…lips, so hot with passion, yet greatly taming. To experience her passion, love, empathy, is what heaven is. Her presence is known; she is very outgoing, unique, beyond comparison. She is the standard by which many are judged. I only wish I possessed 1/1,000,000 other compassion. Before I met her I didn’t know what I was missing, and when I found her I met a dream come true. No one has ever truly showed love to me the way she can. In many ways I am not worthy of her love, I feel that very few would ever truly be worthy of her love; I am honored to have been deemed king! She will hold my heart for all eternity and beyond. With that said I can also say that I love her more dearly than anything and everything I have ever have, or will. She is what completes me, without her, emptiness is all.

In recent times I have made the worst mistakes possible. Threatening the reasons my passion born so! I have had doubts of her love and honesty. I have done things I would never dreamed of, even breaking her precious heart in the process, damn my weakness! I have only paved my road to misery in doing so. Yet, she, Elishia, my…love…life… passion has taken it all in. Yet her passion for me, love for ME! Has looked past my errors and shown me not just love, but true love. I cannot begin to describe it in more words, I only hope I really deserve it…..

Elishia, thank you for showing me love, true love. I can only dream of a life with you and dread it without. I love you more than ever, all, eternally!!!

With my entire being,

Love,

Louis

Written June 17th, 2001 by myself to Louis

Louis F. A. M. II

The most handsome male, on the inside as well as the out. I have truly been blessed (with what ever greater life form there is to mankind), to have already spent close to ten months with Louis. Since the start, I knew he was a very special person. His eyes caught me, I was hooked, and I still am to this day, and will be until death does us apart. There is nothing more in the world that could ever take away the love I have for him. Even today, when he greets me at my front door, with a smile or frown, I have butterflies in my stomach. If his day is doing not so well, I hope that my love and compassion makes him feel like the most special person in the world. Louis should always feel that way, because to me, there is no one more important and special to me than Louis. I never ever thought I could ever love a person so deeply and sincere like I love Louis. He truly makes me complete. When I gaze into his eyes, I get lost in his love he has for me. I can feel the loyalty, the honesty, the passion and love he has for me. I don’t know what I would do without him. Without Louis, I am a lost character walking lifeless through the world, not knowing where to go, or what to do. Since day one, he had my heart, and he still does. He has taken well care with it, and knows that it is very delicate. I have his heart, and try my best to keep it from breaking. I honestly can say, that both his heart and mine are taken well care of, and are in good hands. I could never express enough, or even know where to begin if I were to try and define my love for him. I know that I would do anything and everything for him. I know that I could see myself marrying him in the future, and growing old with him. I could see myself waking up every morning in his arms, and gazing into each other’s eyes, and saying that we love each other. I know what true love is, Louis has shown me the true meaning of love, and I never want that to go away. Louis is the sweetest person that I know. There has been many times where he has dropped whatever he was doing, to come make myself feel better. If I am hurt, he puts his feelings aside and does everything in his control to make me feel like a queen. Whenever I am around Louis, I feel like a queen. He is my king, and I am his queen. Louis will always be worthy of my love, no one can compare to him. I don’t regret anything that has happened between us. He is the best thing that has ever walked into my life, and I just hope and he never walks out. Because without him, I will be one bitter and cold person. Louis deserves the best; he should always be treated like a true king. I try my best to make him feel that way, hopefully he does. I know I am destined for him, and I know that one day, I will be able to marry and live a wonderful life with the man I truly love, Louis. I have not even begun explaining my feelings for Louis. I could write a book. Words cannot describe what I feel for him, and I know he feels the same.

Louis, I love you forever and always. You are my destined one. For all eternity I would be truly honored to be yours. You are the reason I get up in the morning. For you, I would do anything. Your presence is an honor, as well as your love.

Yours truly,

Elishia

Written to Louis on June 20th, 2001

Louis,

As time progressed, my love for you has greatly increased. My heart only beats for you, and nothing more than for you and your love, passion and sincerity. There is nothing more in this life that I want more than to spend the rest of my life with you; loving you, caring for you and your feelings, giving you all that you want from me, and truly making you feel like a king. My life will never be complete if I lose the love you have for me or if I lose you all together. I dread for the day if we ever break up. My heart is not broken, it isn’t even damaged. The love I have for you and you have for me repairs my heart every time it is tampered with. Words will never be enough, there isn’t a word nor words powerful enough to say to show you or prove my true love for you. I don’t even know of an action I could take to prove my true love for you. I know if I had all the power in the world and universe I would give it to you. I know if I had all the riches and jewels I would give it to you. If I had control over everyone and everything I would give it to you. One thing I do have that I wish to give to you is my love. I want you to take it ALL in. I want you to feel it, feel it the way I feel the love I have for you. You and me have something special very special going on. I cannot think of anyone or any couple whom are more in love than you and I. I NEVER WANT TO FUCK UP what we have going. I’ve told you over and over, I want to marry you some day. I want to live a wonderful life with you. I never fully understood and felt what wedding vows meant, and were all about, until I fell in love with you. I know when I walk down that black velvet isle and meet you at the end, whether we make our own vows or state the ones already given to us, I will mean all from the bottom of my heart and say them with all sincerity and love in my heart. There is NO OTHER I would rather be with. NO ONE I’d rather spend all my life with and beyond, no one to share my love with and above all, no one could ever love me the way you love me. I await the day to truly be your queen. Louis, you will ALWAYS be worthy of my love. I want you to always feel the true love I have for you. After all that has gone on, I can still love you with all my heart, my entire mind, my emotions, and all my strength. Bad times made good only improve you and I = us. I have never been miserable with you. All I have to do is reminisce on that great night when you sat in your civic and whispered the three most important and meaningful words to me and touched my heart with your index finger, and meant it, and still do. I still remember that night like it was last night. I still remember how you looked up at me with those gorgeous eyes of yours and told me you loved me. And to know that your love has only grown for me is the greatest gift you could ever give to me. I want you to be the happiest person in the world, so we can both be happy, happy together. I love you with every ounce of strength and emotion I have. I could never ever hate or despise you. You are far too special of a person to ever hate. I only wish to grow old with you, and forever love you. You shall always have my heart, and more importantly my love.

Yours Always

Elishia Joy