Blown apart, exploded, peices strewn hither and fro
The part that held it all together, was the first to go
Confidence was gone, along with Self Respect
Self worth flew out the window and crashed onto the deck

Fear moved in, followed by Hate, filling every nook
Disregard said nothing, was worth the effort took
Timidity, controlled my moves, shortening my step
Indecision made me pause as in my mind it crept

Of all the things that left me..Trust I missed the most
It was the biggest of them all, but soon became a ghost
All the good that I held dear, had left behind a shell
That walked and talked and even laughed, it played its part real well

Time has played a vital role, surviving thru each day
but even time could not return the things that went away
I thought it was all lost to me, never to regain
the serenity, that I had once--would never be again.

A world that I could visit, at once became a wall
That I could pull around myself, to hide from it all
Its whiteness invited me to create what I needed so
and it became all I had left, a virtual ME, you know?

I took what I could gather, put my memory on a site
and clung to it like a lifeline, held on with all my might
returning there, I looked at all the people I had been
 wondered what had happened, how I came upon this end?

A friend stood by and watched as the pain spilled on a page
and cried with me, yelled with me, as I felt the Rage
She brought my Self Worth back, and alot of Self Respect
and showed me what true friendship is, and what I can expect

Another held me close and listened to my woe
but in the end he backed away, he didn't want to know
that made me falter, think again, but he had been so kind 
that he remained my hero, he is always in my mind.

A boy, with less hope than I, helped me clear my mind
and see that there is more than this, look and I would find
He gave me back my Confidence, held me up as we walked on
played music as I learned once more to dance and sing a song

Another brought me smiles, almost everytime he spoke
and a feeling of Worthiness, he gave me in his jokes
For everytime I seen him, I felt he held my hand
time we spent just 'being there' made me love this man

The last I must acknowledge with tiny little smiles 
for he completed all that I'd lost, across so many miles
The thing I valued most in life, I no longer lack
He taught me I can Trust, that I can laugh and not hold back

These people who I cannot touch have meant so much to me
Against all odds they proved that there's reason to still BE
Everything I lost, they returned and added theirs
peice by peice they built me up, their caring was the cure

Let go the terror, let go the fright, let go of all the fear
Let go bad dreams that haunt my nights, goodbye distorted mirror
Goodbye to all the extras, that shouldnt even be
so long to all the tears and pain, Im getting back to ME

Goodbye to all the nights filled with things I did despise
fill them now with laughter and the dreams I'll realize
So long to all the feelings that were only laid in place
by something that should not have been, and now I must erase

Im rebuilding, and Im gonna be whats more than is here now
heartfelt thanks to you, the ones that helped and showed me how
without you and your kindness, I could not have made it thru
Know always the new ME will have a little part of YOU