Now? What now? I am no longer a child. Yet in a way I always will be. There are parts of me that can never age--the part that accepts, and the part that loves. I hold the capacity, like we all do..to love without price. To give without keeping accounts and ledgers expecting return for an investments. I have issues, as everyone does. Mine are basically centered around what I am inside, and being allowed to be what I am without conforming to what is thought I should be. I have no prejudices, I hold no grudges, I have no jealousies, I have no expectations. I fight internally against the limitations I have been told I have, and search for the serenity I once had and lost. I was once 'me' and allowed myself to be destroyed. The only restrictions I hold against others now, is to not allow them to destroy me once again.
The things I seek are fulfillment and serenity. To me, this is my wealth, my fortune. I do not seek a partner, tho I enjoy peaceful companionship. I do not seek support, tho would find fulfillment in giving and receiving such. I am regaining my strength, but the only reason I build it, is to lend it to others. I am pleased when I am useful. I gain happiness from contributing to a smile. I gain love from giving and receiving hugs. All these things build my strength. Each storm, each rain, each sunrise and sunset adds to what I am and what I will be. Yet, I acknowledge that all that I have, only has value when I can give it away. In the same regard, I accept nothing that is not given freely.
Oh, and yes, I can do a pretty neat trick with a banana :o)