8:30:48 PM its eduaaard: wait, can i ask you a question.

8:30:53 PM chelsea ann.: sure

8:30:54 PM chelsea ann.: what's up

8:31:05 PM its eduaaard: do you feel loved?

8:31:13 PM chelsea ann.: by others?

8:31:16 PM its eduaaard: yeh.

8:31:20 PM its eduaaard: by anyone.

8:31:23 PM its eduaaard: in general.

8:31:26 PM chelsea ann.: besides my family.

8:31:27 PM chelsea ann.: not really.

8:31:39 PM chelsea ann.: i guess i've just

8:31:43 PM chelsea ann.: gotten used to being hurt so much

8:31:44 PM its eduaaard: so, if someone loved you, you wouldnt want to lose their love, right?

8:31:51 PM chelsea ann.: yeah

8:31:57 PM chelsea ann.: i guess

8:31:59 PM chelsea ann.: but

8:32:07 PM chelsea ann.: if

8:32:12 PM chelsea ann.: you're holding onto a lost hope

8:32:14 PM chelsea ann.: like

8:32:15 PM chelsea ann.: example

8:32:16 PM chelsea ann.: me and kokay

8:32:19 PM chelsea ann.: or myko and yjie

8:32:24 PM chelsea ann.: we all felt loved

8:32:29 PM chelsea ann.: and we didn't wanna lose the love

8:32:30 PM chelsea ann.: but

8:32:34 PM chelsea ann.: it's holding onto a false hope

8:32:45 PM chelsea ann.: you're gonna get hurt more if you don't let go

8:32:56 PM chelsea ann.: if you see love not going anywhere for you

8:33:03 PM chelsea ann.: it's definitely a false hope.

8:33:29 PM its eduaaard: really..?

8:33:34 PM chelsea ann.: in some cases

8:33:36 PM chelsea ann.: not in all

8:33:37 PM chelsea ann.: but

8:33:40 PM chelsea ann.: like

8:33:43 PM its eduaaard: you mean most cases?

8:33:48 PM chelsea ann.: not really

8:33:49 PM chelsea ann.: haha

8:33:51 PM chelsea ann.: in

8:33:54 PM chelsea ann.: young love cases.

8:34:08 PM chelsea ann.: i don't know how to explain it

8:34:12 PM chelsea ann.: with me and kokay

8:34:16 PM chelsea ann.: the only reason we were still together

8:34:16 PM chelsea ann.: was

8:34:21 PM chelsea ann.: because we didn't wanna lose each other

8:34:22 PM chelsea ann.: cuz

8:34:28 PM chelsea ann.: we both felt loved by one another

8:34:32 PM chelsea ann.: but

8:34:36 PM chelsea ann.: we also knew we weren't going anywhere

8:34:53 PM chelsea ann.: so instead of breaking up officially the first time

8:34:58 PM chelsea ann.: we both held on for 6 months

8:35:02 PM chelsea ann.: and it hurt more

8:35:06 PM chelsea ann.: than it probably would have

8:35:12 PM chelsea ann.: because we held onto a false hope

8:35:13 PM chelsea ann.: thinking

8:35:23 PM chelsea ann.: the other would do something to change everything

8:36:09 PM its eduaaard: what if its only one side thats doing all the changing?

8:36:19 PM its eduaaard: and the other isnt..

8:36:28 PM chelsea ann.: well in that case

8:36:31 PM chelsea ann.: you're kokay.

8:36:34 PM chelsea ann.: haha

8:36:46 PM its eduaaard: you didnt feel like changing or anything?

8:36:56 PM chelsea ann.: i didn't feel like i needed to

8:36:58 PM chelsea ann.: or i should be.

8:37:00 PM chelsea ann.: like

8:37:10 PM chelsea ann.: one of the things he always got mad at me about

8:37:10 PM chelsea ann.: was

8:37:17 PM chelsea ann.: the fact that i waited so long to tell my parents about us

8:37:18 PM chelsea ann.: and well

8:37:21 PM chelsea ann.: you met my dad and titio chris

8:37:23 PM chelsea ann.: would you wanna tell them?

8:37:38 PM its eduaaard: idk, im a guy. i think it'd be different.

8:37:42 PM chelsea ann.: well

8:37:44 PM chelsea ann.: if you were me

8:37:46 PM chelsea ann.: knowing

8:37:49 PM chelsea ann.: my dad

8:37:49 PM its eduaaard: i guess not.

8:37:50 PM chelsea ann.: has tools

8:37:51 PM chelsea ann.: haha

8:37:57 PM chelsea ann.: so like

8:37:59 PM chelsea ann.: i was scared to tell my parents

8:38:04 PM chelsea ann.: and i waited 9 months to say something

8:38:10 PM chelsea ann.: he got so frustrated in me

8:38:17 PM chelsea ann.: that i wasn't willing to change for him

8:38:22 PM chelsea ann.: that he started turning to honey for help

8:38:27 PM chelsea ann.: and initially ended falling for her.

8:38:44 PM chelsea ann.: because i was unwilling to change

8:38:50 PM chelsea ann.: we both got hurt.

8:38:58 PM chelsea ann.: like.. i onno who you're talking about

8:39:04 PM chelsea ann.: but if she isn't willing to change for you

8:39:06 PM chelsea ann.: then

8:39:11 PM chelsea ann.: it's a one-sided relationship

8:39:11 PM chelsea ann.: like

8:39:19 PM chelsea ann.: people have one-sided friendships

8:39:28 PM chelsea ann.: where one friend asks for favors and the other can't ask for shit in return.

8:39:41 PM chelsea ann.: you feel like you're being used.

8:41:22 PM its eduaaard: but i dont feel like im being used.

8:42:00 PM chelsea ann.: well

8:42:05 PM chelsea ann.: if you don't feel that way

8:42:08 PM chelsea ann.: i onno

8:42:11 PM chelsea ann.: do you feel loved back?

8:42:15 PM chelsea ann.: or is it just

8:42:24 PM chelsea ann.: you wanna find something new

8:43:27 PM its eduaaard: i do feel loved back.

8:43:42 PM chelsea ann.: so

8:43:46 PM chelsea ann.: i don't get what you're asking

8:43:47 PM chelsea ann.: haha

8:43:53 PM chelsea ann.: you just

8:43:54 PM chelsea ann.: don't know

8:43:57 PM chelsea ann.: if you should let it go

8:44:02 PM chelsea ann.: if

8:44:03 PM chelsea ann.: person a

8:44:09 PM chelsea ann.: doesn't wanna change for you

8:44:38 PM its eduaaard: nvm chelsea.

8:44:44 PM its eduaaard: thanks for everything.

8:44:51 PM chelsea ann.: i'm sorry i wasn't much of a help.

8:45:03 PM chelsea ann.: your situation is different than anything i've experienced.

8:45:08 PM chelsea ann.: sorry i couldn't help.

8:45:18 PM its eduaaard: no, you did help. thanks.

8:45:26 PM chelsea ann.: haha. i feel stupid

8:45:29 PM chelsea ann.: i don't know what i helped with

8:45:30 PM its eduaaard: can you keep this between you and me?

8:45:34 PM chelsea ann.: yeah of course.

8:45:39 PM its eduaaard: thanks.

8:45:43 PM chelsea ann.: welcomee

8:45:45 PM chelsea ann.: and now, i must study

8:45:46 PM chelsea ann.: byee

8:45:52 PM its eduaaard: k, bye.

8:45:56 PM its eduaaard: thanks again.

8:46:00 PM chelsea ann.: welcomee

8:46:00 PM its eduaaard: sorry for taking up your time.

8:46:04 PM chelsea ann.: haha. it's alright

8:46:08 PM chelsea ann.: i'm studying for a final on thursday.

8:46:13 PM its eduaaard: k.

8:46:15 PM its eduaaard: good luck.

8:46:17 PM chelsea ann.: i need it

8:46:20 PM chelsea ann.: it's my anatomy final

8:46:21 PM chelsea ann.: haha

8:46:21 PM chelsea ann.: bye

8:46:51 PM its eduaaard: k, bye.

9:07:35 PM its eduaaard: im sorry if i've hurt you in any way.

9:07:35 PM chelsea ann. (Autoreply): 

studying till forever.

9:07:46 PM chelsea ann.: where is this coming from?

9:08:26 PM its eduaaard: im sry.

9:08:35 PM chelsea ann.: why?

9:08:48 PM chelsea ann.: eduard, the past is the past

9:08:53 PM chelsea ann.: what's done is done

9:08:57 PM chelsea ann.: you can't do anything about it now

9:09:01 PM chelsea ann.: and if you feel sorry

9:09:03 PM chelsea ann.: than you shouldn't

9:09:05 PM chelsea ann.: cuz if you hurt me

9:09:09 PM chelsea ann.: it taught me something

9:11:23 PM its eduaaard: so what about me? am i getting taught anything? am i just gonna keep hurting everyone i kno?

9:11:24 PM chelsea ann. (Autoreply): 

studying till forever.

9:11:34 PM chelsea ann.: honestly.

9:11:38 PM chelsea ann.: the fact that you've said sorry for

9:11:40 PM chelsea ann.: hurting me

9:11:53 PM chelsea ann.: means that you've learned something

9:12:01 PM chelsea ann.: and

9:12:05 PM chelsea ann.: the fact that you feel sorry about it

9:12:17 PM chelsea ann.: will probably make you realize what you're doing a lot better

9:12:22 PM chelsea ann.: and you probably won't hurt everyone as much

9:15:32 PM its eduaaard: k, chelsea.

9:15:36 PM its eduaaard: thanks again.

9:15:45 PM chelsea ann.: i don't understand why you're saying thank you

9:15:45 PM chelsea ann.: hahaha

9:15:58 PM its eduaaard: for helping me.

9:16:05 PM chelsea ann.: actually

9:16:08 PM chelsea ann.: you're helping yourself.

9:16:10 PM chelsea ann.: i'm just

9:16:14 PM chelsea ann.: giving you a push in the right direction.

9:16:25 PM its eduaaard: well then, thanks for the push.

9:16:30 PM chelsea ann.: no problem

9:16:33 PM chelsea ann.: it's fun pushing you

9:16:33 PM chelsea ann.: hahaha

9:16:39 PM its eduaaard: =)

9:16:46 PM chelsea ann.: don't worry too much about your problems.

9:16:52 PM chelsea ann.: you're starting to sound like me.