life is gay!

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I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I wasn't what you wanted. I'm sorry that I couldn't give you everything you needed. But I know I did love you with all my heart and I still do .. and you know that. I'm also sorry I never told you sooner how I felt .. I wish I would've .. I know I should've. Everything happens for a reason right? But you see .. I'm still waiting to figure out the reason because right now .. I'm miserable more than ever. It's so hard seeing each and every day at school ... and then you talking about other girls .. dating them .. and all that stuff. It hurts so bad. I asked you want did you want me to do .. you said that I'm suppose to stay, but it's hard .. when you just talk about other girls and say we do end up hooking up again .. I can't trust you .. I'll be all paranoid because with what you do now .. how do I know you won't do it again? See so many things run through my head .. and we're not even together. I just wanna be happy.