My Journal Page
Hey, this is my journal site, this is where I'll be typing what I feel at the moment or whatever else I decide to put on here.Sunday, August 3, 2003:
Today is my friend Sarah's birthday,4 days til Brad's, 9 days it'll be my birthday, 10 days til Crystal's birthday, 11 days til Adam and Lauren's birthday, 12 days til my grandma's birthday 13 days til my mom and uncles birthday and like 28 days til my grandpa's birthday...wonderful huh? well I cant wait for my birthday....I'll be 16...I went to the performing arts center last night and had a lot of fun...I went with my boyfriend's stepdad's friend and one of his friends and her kids...great night...I got totally drunk and my boyfriend hates me for right now because I told him I wasnt feeling well, then he left and I ent out with someone else...I erally was sick at the time, I started feeling better after he left me...I understand why he's mad though...well gotta go....bye talk to you whenever...
August 21, 2003:
Today I got dumped....lovely isnt it? he and I are cool at the moment though...no hard feelings we're still friends :) well I know I havent been on for a long time to update and what not but I have to go now I just thought I'd get on and tell everyone I'm not dead...yet...haha anyways bye bye...
Tuesday, August 26, 2003:
Yesterday Sean and I got back together and I am really happy that we're back together because I feel that he is the best thing that has ever happened to me so yeah I am really happy...the couple days that he and I were broken up I thought I had just died because when he broke up with me I didnt know what to say or do or anything...I did a lot of crying and I am glad that I am done crying and I hope that Sean and I stay together for at least a long while and I cant wait to see him again....I get to see him today so I am really happy....well I have to go do chores and stuff so I'll talk to you again sometime soon...bye for now.......
Saturday, September 20, 2003:
WOW it's been almost a month since I wrote on this site! I didnt realize I was gone for that long! Well since the last time I wrote in this "journal" I've gone back to school (started September 2) and umm, what else happened? I don't really remember but I do know that I dont like any of the classes I got this year, p.e., english, math, science, art and world geography. I hate all those classes. But anyway enough about school. Sean and I broke up yet again *fake smile* you never know whats going to happen next in this crazy, stupid messed up world. I hate the fact that you try your hardest to keep the thing (or in my case person) that means most to you, you do everything for that person, you give up your whole life just for that one person (or thing) and still it ends up not working out, something bad happens, or perhaps its because nothing happened that it all fell apart. I just dont know anymore, but I do know one thing, I know that I love Sean and I know I probably messed up really big with him and I know that I should have tried harder to stay with him but I didnt know what to do I didnt know what I could have done to make him know how much I really do love him. I know I love Sean more than I've loved anyone in my whole life. Well anyways, enough of me babbling about how much I love Sean, I have to go now because I have to go do my homework....bye.
December 7 2006:
OK I keep forgetting about this thing. I mean COME ON its been over three years! A lot has happened since then. I'm no longer in love with Sean. I havent even really spoken to him too often since the last time I wrote. I've done a lot of growing up since then as well. I've had one long-term relationship and one not so long relationship since the last entry. The long-term relationship lasted eleven months and nine days. His name was Nick. He was everything to me at the time. He and I ended it because he and I just didnt get along anymore. We were constantly arguing over just about everything. There was only one area in our relationship that seemed to be going perfectly so we agreed it was best if we werent together anymore. After that I started someone who wasnt even close to being 'my type' if I even have one. Either way I never expected to be with him. His name is Ross. I dont remember how long he and I were together but it wasnt long. Maybe a month. I'll wirte more when I remember it...
October 9, 2007
Of course I forogt again like I always do...but anyways, I guess after I wrote that last entry I started my relationship with Ross again because December 7th was when he and I got back together and we've been together ever since. In fact, I moved in with him just last week. So yeah, things are good besides the fact that I am in the negative in my bank account...I cant believe I did that! I'm such an idiot!...but yeah enough with the bad lets go to the good...Ross. The first time he and I were together it was a month and 19 days. Then when his brother had a seizure I was over at his house and I was just really there for him while his brother was in the hospital and we got to talkign and whatever and in a matter of maybe 3 hours we went from just friends to friends with benefits to boyfriend and girlfriend. So my last entry must have been before his brother had the seizure. Since we got back togehter we've been really great, we havent argued yet, not once. Other than that I've been good because I'm finally out of my grandmothers house. I was there for so long I started to lose who I was I think. Anyways, yeah, things coming up that I know of for sure (just in case I forget again, which I most likely will) I have been invited to a Halloween Party. I'ev already bought the costume I'm going to wear on Halloween but for the party we have to actually wear a costume of my favorite movie character...so I have to come across another costume just for the party so I might or might not go...that also depends on what Ross' schedule is like because I wouldnt want to go alone and besides, he has to drive me anyway. After that I have Christmas really but I dont know what I'm doing for christmas just yet. I'll write again when I remember lol.
