Hope Somehow
The pain is so intense
I look toward death
to comfort me.
But it doesn’t.
I was a man that had it all
but it is all gone now
and I must try to go on
though I feel depression’s grip.
I want to be a good person.
I want to be there for my kids
I want to marry Emma
But I have thrown it all away for nothing.
I destroyed relationships
that mean the world to me
and I have no one to blame
but myself.
The only thing I can do
Is try to better myself
And show the world
I’m not a loser, but how?
I will find a way.
I have to.
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Live On
So today I found out
what my punishment will be
for my recent slip.
I can't say I'm excited
But I have to own up
to the things I have done
if I want to move on.
This is the most costly
and demeaning mistake
I have ever made.
Determined not to repeat it
I will take action
against my condition.
and live on.