In the dictionary you'll find the defination of a Mother to be rather simple "A female parent". It is a shame that a book we turn to, for just about any word in the english language,would give such an unembellished meaning to such a powerful role in life. When you stop to think on where, in life, you would be without your "Mother" you'd realize you'd be nowhere. Infact, you'd not exsist if it weren't partly for her. Don't you think...the giver of life...should be defined as more than a "female parent"?
It wasn't until recently, in my own life, I discovered much about my mother. I discovered..all those words out of her mouth..while I was growing up..were more than just fabrication. They were Fact! And they weren't said to me for just something to say...There was more depth in them then I could ever hope to see. As a major part in a childs life..I now see what she meant and why she said all she did. Slowly but surely I am comming to reflect on my Mother's past words...and am learning from them day after day. If it wasn't for her "lessons" on life I probably would be failing at life now.
But she has been more than a teacher. She has been my Mother, Father, Friend, Mentor, Support, and Refuge. Mom has been "home" to me for so long. There was a time in my life that I thought I would never get "home" sick..a time where I could not wait to get away...break free...live MY life the way I saw fit. But let me tell you...once you have that so called "Freedom" all to yourself....and all it brings with it...suddenly "home" doesn't look so bad..Suddenly "home" is all you want again. Lucky for me..No matter how far from "home" I am in my life...the door is always open and the light is always on. A warmth I can take comfort in and find peace in as well.
For soo many things I have said and done...so much hurt I have caused you mom I apologize. Some things can't ever be taken back but maybe they can be pushed back behind the good things...tucked away out of site...And new things can be built around them. I want to thank you...for being not only the "mother" by defination...but for being a mother at heart. For all the love and heart you have put into me..For the life you lived for me. I love you!!
