THE LESSON I HAVE LEARNED...

It's 1:49 AM on October 21st, 1999 when I type this on what is page seven on my website. As many of you have come to realize the subject of this website is my love for acting. I recently landed several roles in Shakespeare's Hamlet which is to be performed in New York City. With the help of a very close friend of mine, I worked on a peice from Richard III, and used it for my audition. I had no idea I would actually land any roles regarding Shakespeare. And when I originally tried for a slot in this audition the director had no room. Somehow, by some miracle I managed to talk him into getting me a slot earlier during the audition time. My good friend had also planned to audition for this production, but it turned out he never got a slot. This happens to many talented actors who deserve the roles they work for in this guild. To make things worse, I have decided to quit these roles in Hamlet because when I thought I could take these roles, I didn't realize how severe my financial debt had become. Even though it is a week into rehearsals, I have only wasted the directors time. I have wasted the time of the actors in the play. But most of all, I have taken the slots from many actors who deserved it more then I ever did. This is the most unforgiving sin I have commited in the acting guild. Many actors would agree. And I won't forgive myself. At least not for a very long time. It is true, I have plenty to think about. I want to deditcate this page to all the actors and actresses out there who have worked, bled, cried, sweated, and damn well nearly died for this guild. I want those who have waited tables and lived by the seat of their pants to know that even though I have commited this great sin, you have my utmost respect and admiration. For if it weren't for all of you, this world wouldn't have anything to look forward to. You have bled deeply for this guild. I just ask you all to teach me your love for the guild. I have love for this guild, but obviously, my love could never compare to yours... To all of you...