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The Blame Game

Monday, yes Monday. Monday I'm going to change

Yes, this time, this Monday, Monday will be the day

This time I swear to God, this time I'm going to do it

This time I won't let them get to me, this time I mean it

Really, this time for sure, this one is for real, really real

I hate myself for being who I am, but I hate them more

God how I hate them, they think their so damn smart

So righteous and always have all the answers for me

I'll show them, I'll show them, I'll make them eat their words

When I get straight, I'll show them all this time, Monday for sure

All those years, all those years they put me down, I'll get even

I'll make them eat all those words, they'll all be sorry

They will all be so very, very stinking sorry they did this to me

But I'll show them, I'll get even, I'll get even with all of them

They will all come crawling, begging, yes, starting this Monday

They have always blamed me,

its always been my fault, they said

If they only knew it wasn't my fault,

it was their fault, not mine, theirs

It was their fault I turned out the way I turned out,

their fault, all their fault

Completely their fault,

if they would have listened to me, respected me

Treated me different, loved me in the first place,

it all would be

different

But they just never listened,

never listened to me, never, never

But I'll show them,

then they will all feel the guilt and shame

They will feel the pain

they have caused me all these years

This time I'll show them, this time for sure,

starting Monday

But first one last drunk, yes,

just one last drunk, just one more

Then I'll show them, this time

I'll really show all those arrogant people

Monday....

Small variations of this are heard around the world.

The Blame Game is a Game of learned behaviors

Add Drugs and Alcohol plus a large dose of ISM

And you can easily see the Past and the Future

In AA we get 'another' opportunity to change the Game

We also get free, the Gift of Choice, real choice in life

Maybe its time to Blame the Game, its a sick Game

Maybe its time to get out of the Game.... Maybe ?

With love in AA from Indonesia....

David for Lamps

World Leadership

Tomorrow I will bow to

the clenched inner sanctum

of repression

To follow

to live

my dreams planned,

hardly....

I must shorten my step

traced to pace their

majesty of folly !

David for Leaders

didn't do nothen....

my first meeting was in an eight p.m. church meeting

there were seven mosaics of jesus starren down the walls

there were twelve people sitting around six small tables

they held five meetings a week at that old shabby church

I had two sponsors over the years from that church place

and that meeting became my home group for four years

three of us went to coffee regularly after that meeting

I usually got home in those old days about ten or eleven

step nine was the first step I worked, I wanted forgiveness

but that's all I did those first years, didn't do much

at least I didn't think so, maybe I did more than I thought ?

The 12 Step Dance....

I did the Dance of one and two, and one and two

cause that old god was looking for me I thought

and if that old god found me I'd be dust for sure

I did the Dance of one two three and one two three

cause the last thing I wanted to do was four and five

how could I ever tell anyone those dark things I did

I did the Dance of one and twelve and one and twelve

I'd been around for a long now and I spoke just fine

they laughed and cried and I wowed the newcomers

I did the Dance of one and thirteen and one and thirteen

and I loved this Dance and I Danced this Dance often

Then I only Danced thirteen and I Danced myself stoned

One day I woke up and I Danced step one and I liked it

so I Danced step two through all the way to step eleven

figured I Danced so much I'd try that Step Twelve again

now I can Dance each one of those 12 Steps one by one

I could side step some again if I wished, I know how

but when I Dance with you I want to Dance my best....

My Name is

HIV/AIDS

I will take the lives of you children

your boys and girls

I will take the lives of your adults

your men and women

I will even take the lives of your elders

all are fair game to ME

I have no conscience as to who I infect

I am HIV/AIDS....

I have no pride or emotions

I only know I exist

Take this warning, indeed my friends

please do not sleep in my path

Be awake and please be aware

I am harm in harms way

Learn quickly about ME

teach your children

teach all your folks about ME

and please stay away from me....

If you get ME, I will take years to

kill you

years, hard horrible years

for you, your family and friends

All those around you, all will live in

fear frustration and hostility

I never asked to be born

yet born I am

Know ME

Understand ME and

please my friend

Kill ME

Before I kill you !

My name is

I am coming

I have come to live in

I am here seeking residents,

I have no memory of when I was born

a long very long time ago

Yet the memory of my birth

or why I was born

Is faded, even to myself....

Like yesterdays storm of rain

My given name

adopted by those in charge

Is HIV/AIDS....

To many I am only a name

To many a name like

Polio, Flu, TB, Dengue Fever

or dog or cat.... !

For many, they may hear of ME

maybe even see ME,

but....

Those many certainly don't

see ME

My given name is HIV/AIDS

but....

My true real name is

death

My profession is based on

confusion

and fear

and destruction

and despair

and finally,

death

I am shared and passed along

By oceans of blood

Rivers of sex

The rock and roll of the Ages

live free and freely

I live in total freedom

In each of the 4 Directions

North, East, West, South

That is the spreading

NEWS

I live everywhere, in every country

Town and city, in every

alley and ghetto

suburb and highrise

I live here in

Oh yes be well aware

I live taken residence in Indonesia

You do not know me well.... yet

And.... with My solemn promise

I, HIV/AIDS Promise you....

You will come to know ME well

Very well in the near future !

I wish this were not so

I wish this were not true

I wish I was never born

Yet the fact remains

I am born

I am alive

I am strong

I travel a crooked path

I move swiftly

I give no warning

I am invisible to the naked eye

I am a raw feverish killer

And I have come to visit Indonesia

Maybe even visit you.... !

Over the Ashes

Steadfast

Seed in the Ether

Battles

 And You are Visitor Number

Y E S !

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