Baby, Take Care
About four years
ago, when life wasn't so hard, and friends and good times were all that really
mattered... a young girl about 14 years of age lived her life of simplicity.
Her name was Leana. She was currently with someone totally different from her, and not to mention, a pure heart breaker and loser. But hey, life was good, she was young, and basically that didn't really matter. All that mattered was that she knew what it was like to feel for a guy at that time, and to live her life of endless happiness with her friends and family.
afternoon, she stood on the grassy hill after school, embracing her so called
boyfriend Jerry. And at that moment, about 10 feet away, at the flag pole, stood
a boy about two years older than Leana by the name of James. He watched her
gently hug her boyfriend, and then slowly walk away, until he could no longer
see her image. He never knew what it was like to feel for anybody, however, a
strange feeling inside took over him. Something extremely unexplainable, and so
And he thought to himself, "One day, I just gotta meet her."
James!" a boy called out. "Why do you look all dazed off ‘en
"Ah nothin' Jay, lets jes go home now" James replied.
When James had arrived to Jay's house, they sat down for some soda, and James had totally gotten his mind off of that strange feeling. "Damn, I forgot to go call my home girl man, can you hand me the phone James?"
Jay asked as he took a sip of his soda. "Hello may I please speak to Leana? This is Jay,” he asked. Jay and Leana began to conversate, until he remembered to do some chores… so he handed the phone to James.
"Here man, can you go talk to her for awhile, I gotta do some stuff for my dad real quick?"
"Aight cool" said James.
"Hello! Yeah hi this is James! Who's this?"
"Oh this is Leana" she replied.
After that one conversation, Leana and James began to keep in touch with phone calls everyday. Neither one of them knew what they looked like, or so they thought. For James was totally clueless that that one girl he watched from the flagpole the other day, was the very girl he was laughing and talking with everyday.
had been weeks, and then months, and Leana and James grew close, and told one
another everything imaginable. And with this bond, they became the best of
friends. Still not knowing what they looked like in person, James decided to
visit Jay again after school, which of course so happened to be the same school
James knew for a fact that Leana went to that school, but still didn't know what she looked like. Until this one day after school…
"Ey Leana, wassup!" a girl called out, walking towards the girl James was admiring. "Wassup" she said with a grin on her face.
‘Oh my gosh!’ James said to himself. ‘Could that be Leana? The girl I've been talking to on the phone with?’ He was so surprised.
He walked up from behind Leana, and tapped her on her shoulder and quickly turned around, pretending he didn't do anything.
Disturbed as Leana could be said "How rude!" and all James could do was laugh.
He couldn't believe that that girl he was so eager to meet, was the very girl he had been talking to for quite a while now…Leana.
He called her that day, and told her that he saw her. Leana was so surprised.
"Oh that was you huh, that one guy who tapped me on the shoulder huh?" she laughed. Inside, Leana and James felt something so weird, every time they talked and every time they were apart. They felt something inside when they thought of one another. But the feelings they felt, they let it pass, and denied it to themselves, as if it were simply nothing. They wondered about these feelings time to time, but never really tried to figure out what it meant, or what it was.
Leana and James told one another about their lives, their fears, problems, and little infatuations over people every now and then, but never the kept feeling inside for one another.
Summer came and James and Leana spent more time with one another, and finally got to see each other in person. They met each other at Jays' house one day, and Leana's heart dropped when she saw James for the first time. She watched him play on the computer, just as he watched her that one day after school. When it was time to go home, James gave Leana his school ID and she said her goodbye with a warm embrace to James. They both blushed, and that same unexplainable feeling took over the both of them. Leana knew then what that long time feeling she had been feeling all those times. She was no longer in denial...she liked him. The first person she told was her best friend Lae, who too knew James. She was shocked!
later, James was talking to Jay, as he said, "Hey Jay, I think I like Leana."
"Really!!! Wow, that's cool." From that day on forward, only five
people knew, Jay, Lae, Leana, James, and god himself. And it was up to fate to
lead the both of them to their destiny. It had been a whole year, and Leana and
James still didn't want to admit their feelings to one another. They knew what
was up, but never took the risk to admit. Until Leana hinted him out what she
"I'm suppose to tell you everything right James?" she asked him.
"Duh! Why? You like someone huh?" he replied.
"Uh yeah, sorta" she said.
"Who?" He asked.
"Well, he has the same background as you, about your height, your age, and you know him very well. You see him everyday." She hinted out.
James knew then what that meant. He felt the same, but was so afraid to show it, because he never had a girlfriend in his whole entire life. He knew it was him, and Leana was so relieved telling him day by day they flirted every now and then and admitted their feelings in ways only they could understand.
He was tall, handsome, great sense of humor, caring, loving, just everything close to being perfect in Leana's eyes. And his eyes, his eyes were so warm, so sexy, so… WOW! And she was everything she thought of him to James. Everyone said that they were the most cutest, and perfect couple. And they were both so happy with one another. Everyone even thought they'd get married someday. He did everything for, to, and because of her, and she surely did the same for him. Their forgiveness, love, passion, and care were endless for one another. These two were inseparable, and in love.
He always told her "You're such a big baby… you and those big brown eyes of yours, and those cute chubby cheeks …God I love you" and kissed her lovingly on her lips.
"I love you too Baby," she'd always reply.
He took her hand one day, as she cried cold painful tears, and looked her in her eyes and said, "No matter what, through it all, this is it…there's no one else but you. I will always love you, and I will always end up with you… I promise," and wiped her tears away as he kissed her forehead gently.
When they argued, he'd yell at her, hang the phone up on her, and leave her with so much pain and nothing to do but cry. It was soon passed half a year, and things gotten worse. When she tried telling him how she felt, he just let it pass. He started lying about many things, and became so unfaithful to her.
He began to drink, which he promised he wouldn't, and hung out with his friends from morning, to night, and never had time for her. James did things that his old sweet self would never do before. He left her many times at home just crying, and didn't even bother to see if she was okay.
Basically, Leana was in love with someone who seemed to not love her back anymore. They were together all right, but didn't seem like it to Leana. It hurt too much inside, but because Leana loved him so much, she never did let him go. She took the pain, and cried endless tears, and still loved him through it all, while he was out breaking promises, and being someone he knew he never was before. There never passed a day when Leana didn't think about him, worry about the relationship, wonder why he was the way he was, or cried about the hurt. The pain he caused her scarred her heart deeper and deeper everyday. Her family was affected, her friends, and even school.
Everybody was worried about her. No one ever saw her smile anymore, and if she did, it was only for a while. She hardly slept, and just everything in her life fell apart. All because that one most perfect human being who walked into her life, and who she loved so much, hurt her in ways that could never be fixed.
James basically left her out of his time, out of his reach, out of his life. He acted as if she wasn't even his girlfriend. She did as much as she could for him, though he didn't see it, and sacrificed her whole life for him. She did anything to make things work, but he didn't do much at all. She tried so hard to figure out what the problem was, & why he hurt her so much.
‘How can God give you the most perfect gift of your whole life to love, and take it away as if it wasn't yours to keep?’ she asked everyday.
James became meaner and meaner, and it hurt her more and more.
afternoon, James picked her up from school again. They were both walking until
Leana began to cry like usual. "Why are you crying again? Damn!" James
yelled. "Nothing…" she struggled to say.
"You know what I hate about seeing you all the time, is that you always end up crying on me for no fuckin reason! What the hell am I doing wrong now shit!" he yelled again.
She tried to hug him tight, yet he resisted. "I love you James, I'm sorry," she cried. "Yeah whatever," he coldly said. James was so frustrated, didn't know what he was thinking, didn't know what he was doing. A confusion of being with her or leaving her just rushed through his head, as they walked towards the car.
Suddenly, in the midst of it all, a loud bang alerted them both. James didn't know what it was. He turned around to see if Leana heard it, "Ey did you… NOOOOOO!" he cried. Leana had shot herself on her right side, as she laid bleeding, and gasping for breath on the street by James' car. He ran over to her as everyone crowded around.
"Fuckin' call 911" he screamed, as tears began to roll down his eyes.
"Baby are you okay?" he asked, holding her in his arms.
Leana slowly reached to touch his right cheek, as she looked him in his eyes, and lightly smile.
"Baby, I'm so sorry if I did anything wrong to make us the way we are now." She struggled to say.
"Leana don't even say that, you're going to be okay… God someone help!!!" he cried. "You hurt me a lot James, but I still continued to love you. Because no matter what, through it all, that's it, there's no one else… no one else but you." she smiled, and coughed as she gasped for air.
She began to cry, and still the pain she felt within her heart still struck her like always. Flashbacks of their times together rushed through her mind, and she could hardly keep her eyes open, as her helpless body lay strongly against James' chest. James crying harder than ever looked down into her eyes, hoping she wouldn't die.
"Baby I'm so sorry for everything, God I love you! You cant leave, we're suppose to get married remember? Remember Baby, I promised, this is it, it's you that I'm suppose to end up with. Baby remember?" he cried.
"I know I know," she nodded her head slightly up and down, as her tears began to mix with the bright red blood upon her body.
James held her tighter and closer to his body. "God please no, don't take her away from me…" he whispered.
Leana's hand began to slowly drift away from his cheek, as she struggled to keep her eyes open.
"I love you so much James, and I wish I could've made everything all better. But Baby... everything I did, and every tear I cried… I did it all for you… everything…I love you Baby." She said, "I don't wanna go, but I have to, and God knows I love you. We'll be together again Baby…remember, because you said, we will always be together…we will." She said slowly as one last tear rolled upon her cheek, and dropped slowly on James hand.
Her eyes closed, "I love you," she whispered, and Leana had passed away. "Noooooooo!!!" James cried.
"You can’t go…" he rocked her back and forth, and tried to wake her up. "Baby? Baby? Wake up… c'mon Leana. Please please…we can work things out I promise,"
"c'mon Baby, we're suppose to get married Baby, wake up. Baby? Please…" he begged. He closed his eyes and rested his head upon hers as endless tears continued to fall.
"God I’m so sorry I didn't take care of you Baby, I'm so sorry," he cried as he kissed her forehead.
All James could do was cry, and hold her until the ambulance came. As they put her on a stretch, and placed a white blanket over her head, it began to rain. James on his knees looked up into the sky and cried his heart our. "I love you Leanaaaaaaa!!!!!!!" he screamed.
"I love you." He whispered one last time.
From that day on, James knew there was nothing else he could fix. His life, his love, was no longer there. And all he could think about was her smile, and that one day she lay in his arms dying. He will always remember her, and will always love her…because this is it, it was her, that he chose to love for life.
see, life is never forever, and things come only once. You don't know how long
you'll get to keep things, and you'll never know how long you'll get to live.
But as long as you know you've got something in your life you love, and cherish
so much… make the best of it.
Because one day, when you least expect it, you could lose the most important thing in your life you set your whole future for. Take care of things while their still small, and most of all take much care of the people you love. Because one day, it just might be too late to take care of anything, or even see them smile again.
Trust me I know… some day we will be.... because we promised we would.
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