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Subject: Extreme Priority – Hibernation Objet: Priorité Extrême – la hibernation URL: https://www.angelfire.com/gundam/denofvice/ https://www.angelfire.com/gundam/denofvice/hier-yesterday.htm https://www.angelfire.com/gundam/denofvice/images.zip (ENCODED - different) ****THEY TRY TO PROVOKE ME WITH EXISTENCE OF THE POLICE NEARBY, SO IF I MAY HAVE TO FIGHT, TELL THE AUTHORITIES TO COLLECT ALL THAT THEY HAVE IN THEIR HANDS AND WITHDRAW THE POLICE, BECAUSE TODAY THEY MAY BE WILLING TO FIGHT AGAINST ME WITH THEIR MAIN OBJECTIVE TO BREAK MY CAMERA AND MY MEANS OF STORAGE. I GROW IN A STATE OF MIND DIPPED INTO GRIEF AND DILUTED INTO A STICKY SENSE OF UNREST WITHOUT THE STABILITY AND BALANCE ONE COULD BADLY NEED IN HIS LIFE. I GET THE FEELING OF POSING FOR A PICTURE TO BE SHOT WITH A FOOTNOTE REFERRING TO ME AS SOMEBODY WHOSE END OR DESTINY IS UNKNOWN AND AS SOMEBODY THAT WILL NEVER BE NEWS RECEIVED ABOUT. BEFORE ARGUING IN PUBLIC WHETHER THEY ARE RIGHT IN MAKING ME SUFFER THIS WAY, I WANT TO TALK ABOUT THE ISSUE OF AGE AND THE TIMES I HAVE BEEN THROUGH, THE DECADES, THE THOUSANDS OF DAYS I LEFT BEHIND. I HAD LIVED A FAIR AMOUNT OF THINGS MOSTLY FOUL AND WHEN I LOOK BACK I DO NOT RECALL VERY GOOD THINGS AND SOMEBODY THAT WILL HAVE AN OCCASION TO CATCH UP WITH ME BENEFITING FROM MY YEARS OF SOLITUDE NOT JUST IN A SENSE OF FORMING A COUPLE BUT IN SENSE OF HAVING A FAMILY, REACHING CLOSE TO MY KINDRED AND FINDING A LIFE AFTER MANY YEARS LIVED BEFORE THIS LIFE TO BE THE PEDESTAL OF THIS LIFE TO BEGIN, NOT JUST LIKE A GAME PARLOR WHERE YOU’D INSERT COINS OR TOKENS AND PLAY A GAME WITH LIMITED LIVES AND HAVE TO START ALL OVER AGAIN, I HAVE A LOT OF THINGS TO OBJECT BEING FORCED TO BE ON HOLD FOR SOMEBODY WHO YESTERDAY WAS A CHILD (SHALLOWLY SPEAKING BASED SOLELY ON THIS LIFE) WHILE I WAS SOMEBODY FILLED WITH MY PEERS AROUND, PEOPLE THAT SHARED A CONTEXT AND A VISION WITH ME AND SIMILAR OBJECTIVES ALL WANTING TO GO COLLEGE, SWEATING FOR IT TOGETHER, TAKING THE SAME SCHOOLS OR PATHS OF CAREER TOGETHER, I DO NOT THINK EVEN IF THERE SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN OTHER FACTORS THAT HAUNT A RELATIONSHIP AND I DO NOT WANT TO END UP AS SOMEBODY THAT PLAYED THE SON OF THE NEIGHBORHOOD THAT RAN AFTER THE GIRLS AND ENDING UP WITH THEIR LITTLE SISTERS (I AM NOT GENERALLY SPEAKING, JUST SPEAKING IN TERMS OF THIS SMALL SURROUNDING CONDITIONS HERE, NOT SOMETHING TO THE GOSSIP COLUMNS FOR SPECULATION – AS THE MORE BRACKETS THERE ARE IN THESE TEXTS, THE MORE IT SHOULD HAVE REFLECTED BY NOW HOW I CAME TO DISTRUST PEOPLE THAT ALWAYS HAD CHEATED ON ME AND HOW THEY FOOLED ME AND HOW FRAGILE MY LOOK TOWARD THEM HAS TURNED OUT TO BE) AND THIS IS NOT SOMETHING THAT SOMETHING RARELY FOUND OR ALMOST UNIQUE IS SUPPOSED TO BE WASTED AND I GROW MORE AND MORE DISTRESSED FOR HAVING RIGHTEOUSLY DEMANDED MY RIGHTS AND EACH TIME BEING FORCED TO WITHDRAW WITH ALL THE POLICE, ALL THE UNDERCOVER SERVICES AND SUCH REPRESS MOUNTED ON ME ON WHAT I SHOULD DO AND WHERE I SHOULD BE; I CAN’T SWALLOW THIS AND I DO NOT SEE ANY MERITS WHY AT AN AGE LIKE MINE WHY GIRLS ARE EXPECTED TO HAVE BEEN MARRIED AND SHOULD HAVE DELIVERED AT LEAST TWO CHILDREN AND WHY I AM FAR AWAY FROM COMING TOGETHER WITH ONES TO HELP ME DEVELOP A BREED FROM THE MONOPOLY OF SOMEBODY THAT HASN’T CARED ENOUGH FOR THEM, MAKING MY WAITING PERIOD MAKING LESS SENSE AND LESS WORTHWHILE TO BE WAITING FOR. FOR EXAMPLE, YOU CAN’T GO AND EAT APPLES BEFORE THEY ARE RIPE OR YOU CAN’T SHAKE A TREE OF MULBERRIES BEFORE THEY GROW, SO SINCE THESE FRUITS ARE SWEET AND DESIRED TO BE EDIBLE AS FAVORITES, IT’S WORTH WAITING FOR, BUT WHEN I WILL COME FACE TO FACE WITH HER, ESPECIALLY AFTER ALL THOSE THAT I HAD TO LIVE AND UNDERGO, I DO NOT THINK IT’S WORTH THE WAIT BECAUSE THE LAST TIME I RECALL TAKING THE BITE WAS NOT A FINE ONE AND MADE MY STOMACH UPSET AS TIME WENT BY. I DO NOT WISH TO PLAY THE SO-CALLED GAME OF LOVERS EXCEEDING CENTURIES BECAUSE MY BREED FOR SURE HASN’T AND THAT MAKES A RELATION ESPECIALLY FOCUSING ON A MARRIAGE HENCE VERY IRRELEVANT AND VERY DULL. ESPECIALLY HER EMERGENCE AFTER THE ABUSE OF OTHERS WITHIN SO MANY LONG YEARS I DO NOT WISH TO DEPEND ON HER GIVING HER A ROLE SIMILAR TO OTHER PREDATORS COMING TO GET THE LEFTOVER CARCASS AFTER THE DEVOUR OF A LION OR A TIGER. THIS IS WHY I AM NOT CARING MYSELF AS I OUGHT TO AND DO OTHER DISGUSTING THINGS SHE COULD SEE AND GROW FAR AWAY FROM ME, SOMETHING NORMAL FOR TEENAGERS OR CHILDREN BUT VERY RUDE FOR ADULTS, BECAUSE I WILL NOT CARE MYSELF AT ALL AS LONG AS SHE IS NEARBY AS I DO NOT WANT TO SEEM ATTRACTIVE TO HER AT ALL. WITH SO MANY YEARS LIVED AND SO MANY BITTER MEMORIES RUNNING LIKE DEEP STONE CARVINGS OVER ONE ANOTHER DURING THIS LONG PEROID OF PENDING AND SINCE I HADN’T SPENT ALL THOSE DAYS IN HIBERNATION LIKE A BEAR, I RECALL MANY THINGS, FAR TOO EXCESSIVE FOR SONEBODY TO ACT NORMALLY AFTER ALL THOSE THINGS TO THE REASON OF THOSE AS I AM IN FAVOR OF REGARDING HER ALWAYS AS SOME REASON THOSE ABUSING MY LIFE WANTED TO SET TRAPS AGAINST ME, THE LATEST EXAMPLE OF WHICH I HAD SHOWN YESTERDAY AND WILL REVEAL ONCE MORE IN TODAY’S ATTACHMENTS WITHOUT ENCODING. I AM AT AN AGE IN THE HEIGHT OF POWERS OF A YOUNG MAN AND I SHOULD HAVE HAD AT LEAST 40 OR 50 DATES, A DOZEN OF MORE SERIOUS AND MUCH LONGER RELATIONSHIPS AND SHOULD HAVE CAUGHT LOTS OF OCCASIONS FOR BRIGHT MINDS OF MY BREED TO FLOURISH BUT THE BABY KILLER THIS TIME DIDN’T LET THEM FLOURISH AND GET THEM A CHANCE SO AS A PARALLEL TO THE LATEST DISGRACE ATTEMPT FOR ME TO STAND ON TRIAL AGAIN THAT IS ACTUALLY TO PUNISH MY REVOLT WITH THE COUNTRY THAT I LIVE IN ACTING AS THE ANTAGONIST WITH THE DEADLY WEAPONS, COMING CLOSER THAN THE OTHERS, THEN IT’S MY RIGHT TO MAKE WHO THE PEOPLE OF HERE CALL AS THE BABY KILLER TOO, THEIR BABY KILLER THAT IS TO STAND ON TRIAL EVEN THOUGH I MAY NOT STAND ON TRIAL BUT MAY NEED TO GET THERE OR WITH INDICTMENTS WITHDRAWN ALONG WITH THE OBLIGATION OF MILITARY DRAFT AND BEING FORCED TO BE ISOLATED HERE AS THERE ARE MORE BEAUTIFUL PLACES TO ISOLATE ONESELF AND I DO NOT WANT TO BE ELITIST IN TERMS OF AN ARISTOCRATIC TIDE BUT WISH TO BE WITH WHOEVER I WISH TO, WITH ONLY THOSE THAT HAVE PROVIDED ME WITH THEIR CHASTITY TO BE THOSE MAINLY BENEFITING FROM ME BECAUSE THOSE THAT COULD HAVE CHANGED SO MANY LOVERS MAY CHANGE SO MANY STEP-FATHERS FOR MY CHILDREN TOO AND I DISLIKE THAT OPTION SO WHAT IS FAVORED IN THE END IS TO SEE THOSE THAT CAN ACTUALLY STAND TO AGE WITH ME, SHARING THE SAME ZEITGEIST AND HOW THE TIMES ARE GONE. EACH DECADE IS A GENERATION ITSELF NEARLY; FOR EXAMPLE A DECADE AGO INTERNET WAS A GEEK THING BUT NOW EVERYBODY USES IT AS THE SIMPLEST EXAMPLE BASED ON THE CONTEXT OF HOW I COMMUNICATE WITH YOU (SPEAKING OF COMMUNICATION, I ALSO AM TAKING ADDRESSES OF THOSE THAT ARE MY FAVORITES TO PROVE THAT THEY ARE NOT JUST TO BE LOOKED AT AND GO TO BATHROOM AFTERWARDS; DIRECT ADDRESS IN A WAY I CAN REACH IS FAVORED PREFERABLY WITHOUT 3RD PERSONS – WHEN YOU GO TO A BATHROOM YOU DON’T NEED THE GIRL’S ADDRESS) AND THOSE LIVING THE SAME TIMES AGEING TOGETHER IS A PROCESS ONE CAN EASILY GET ACCUSTOMED TO LIVING ALL THOSE HARDSHIPS THAN WITH THOSE THAT ARE MISSING OR NOT OF THOSE GENERATIONS AND SOMEBODY THAT DISABLED MY GENERATIONS ARE ALSO MORE CRIPPLED IN THIS SENSE; THOSE CHILDREN SHOULD HAVE LIVED AND SHOULD HAVE HAD THEIR CHILDREN IN TIME SO THAT THESE CHILDREN COULD HAVE HAD THEIR BREEDS AND BE IN EFFECTIVE PLACES AND COULD HAVE AT LEAST CONTROLLED SOME KEY PROCESSES HAVING TO DO WITH HOW TO SHAPE MY LIFE, SO THIS MAKES THE GENERATION CONFLICT MORE UNBEARABLE, ESPECIALLY DURING THE WAITING PROCESS FOR TYING THE KNOT I SAW THE HANDCUFFS BOUND TO MY WRISTS. I AM A PERFECTLY BALANCED FIGURE NEITHER A SADIST NOR A MASOCHIST, AND PAIN DOESN’T GIVE PLEASURE AT ALL. ALSO MARRIAGE IS SOMETHING HAVING TO DO WITH REPETITION OF THE SAME EVENTS EVERYDAY THAT YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH, SUCH AS TAKING THE DOG OUT, HAVING BREAKFAST, DRIVING KIDS TO SCHOOL, HEADING TO WORK, COMING BACK HOME, SEEING THE SAME FACE YOU WAKE UP WITH, AND WHEN I WILL GET TO LOOK AT HOW I HAD TO SPENT MY DAYS HERE, THOUSANDS OF DAYS WASTED FOR ME TO BE JUST ME AND HOW I HAD TO TAKE RISKS TO BE IN TOUCH WITH THE REST OF THE WORLD, WAITING FOR HER AND MARRYING HER ARE THE LAST THINGS I THINK OF; THINGS COULD HAVE BEEN VERY DIFFERENT BUT THEY HAVEN’T. I TOO AM A HUMAN BEING AND EVEN THOUGH THERE MAY BE A LOT OF RIGHT PARTIES IN THIS GAME OF CONFLICTS, YOU HAVE TO PICK THE RIGHTEST ONE, THE ONE WHOSE DEMANDS SEEM MORE PERSUASIVE, THE ONE THAT SUFFERED SO MUCH AND THE ONE SICK OF LIVING THE SAME GAME WAKING UP EVERYDAY AND THINKING THAT HE LIVED THE SAME DAY BEFORE. YOU CAN’T LET THIS HAPPEN TO ME. **** Now, let’s find out what kind of a game they are after this time, which the pictures without the words could have been adequate but unfortunately the police chase me. The tape for today starts. Having been recorded roughly around evening hours yesterday by GMT, the duration is said to be five minutes utmost. One of the lines belongs to a booking and reservation firm and the other belongs to a movie theatre in former land: 1: We are being challenged in all limits and it will be a miracle if we won't tear down; it's as if we are dragged from both sides and we will snap. 2: It's been very bad the limitations are started to be felt, and there doesn't seem to be fresh payments for the final blow. We have to suspend the operation and let go of the bastard; but there ought to be means to annoy her and find a way for trouble taking place. 1: I see, well you don't need complicated plans then, you just have to act spontaneously and you can show what is up next right then. 2: Is that what you see? Alright, then we will do whatever necessary in this scheme. 1: I see, it won't be no major deal. Thank you for visiting my page at Angelfire. Please come back and visit again!
