Love and Silence

By Angel Love

Rating warning: NC-17

Author’s notes: This song just begged for me to write a lemon. So I gave the lyrics to my friend Tanya and told her that she could pick any couple and choose a type of plot and I would do the rest. So here are the results of that.

Dedication: Tanya, you are the sweetest person and the greatest muse a person could ever have.

Standard disclaimers apply. I don’t own Gundam Wing or ‘To Be With you’ by Jamie O’Neal. The song can be found on her ‘Shiver’ Album.

Relena sat in the white dinning chair looking out around her. She had finally achieved her goal in obtaining Heero’s love. The problem was now that she had him, she realized that he was more of a friend to her than a boyfriend. He was her protector, not her lover. But they continually denied it, since they fought so long and hard to be together.

At the moment they were on a date at an outside patio dinner across the street from her apartment. Heero was his usual quiet self, which left her plenty of time to observe her surroundings.

Suddenly her eyes met the emerald green eyes of Trowa Barton. Color shot up in her cheeks and she forced herself to look away.

~ To be with you

I would risk a thousand lifetimes

To be with you

There's no mountain that I wouldn't climb ~

She mentally scolded herself for her reaction to the stoic pilot. She had developed strong feelings for him almost immediately after she and Heero had gotten together. For she had become good friends with the other gundam pilots. But she felt as if some part of her as if she was betraying Heero with her wayward thoughts for Trowa.

~ If you're the sky

Let me be the cloud that runs right through you now

You don't know just how I need to

Be with you ~

Trowa was enjoying a quiet meal when he looked up and saw Relena. Almost immediately her eyes turned to met his for a brief moment he stared into them before she broke contact and turned away. An ache filled him as he gazed at her features.

He had fallen for the former princess when he first laid eyes on her. But it was obvious to him that her heart belonged to another. But part of him needed her so.

~ There can be no substitute

To be with you

I try to hide my passion but it's

Just no use ~

He tried hard to fight the feelings that arose within him, but he acknowledged himself to the fact that he had lost the battle a long time ago. He even tried to date other people, but they couldn’t compare to the burning passion that he felt for the dove of peace.

~ Piece by piece I lose it when you

Walk in the room

How can I get through

If I can't be with you ~

Relena fought hard to regain her composer. She didn’t want Heero to see just where her thoughts were heading, but she made the mistake of looking back over at Trowa and felt her heart skip a beat.

‘Get it together, Relena,’ she thought to herself, but she could already feel herself slipping into her fantasies.

~ Every time I close my eyes I see your face

I taste you on my lips ~

Relena’s eyes closed as her world closed in on itself and she lost herself in her fantasy...

**Fantasy**

Trowa stood up quickly and walked towards her like a panther. Stopping just behind her, he turned her chair to face her, and dropping down to his knees in front of her.

Relena’s blue eyes were cloudy with passion when she looked into his intense emerald ones. His face inched closer to hers before claiming her lips in a deep kiss, setting her soul on fire.

~ Every night I fantasize

That I can feel you on my fingertips ~

Trowa took in Relena’s closed eyes and slightly flushed face and he felt his world tilt slightly as he let his fantasies run wild...

**Fantasy (takes up right where Relena’s does)**

He pulled her up into a standing position. Glancing at her briefly, he cleared the table by pushing all of the dishes onto the floor.

Then he captured her lips again, pushing her back gently on the table. His hands moved up her dress, not stopping until they found her most hidden treasure, sliding his fingers into her slick folds. He smirked at the sound of pure pleasure coming from her lips.

~ Oohh ~

“Trowa...” Relena whispered, her voice thick with desire.

Heero looked over startled by the sound of Relena’s voice. He took in her flushed face and his heart ached a little. He knew that she loved another, but he selfishly held onto her because he was afraid of a life without her.

His eyes traveled over to where he had seen Relena look moments ago and found Trowa, looking lost in thought. His heart ached again. His selfishness was causing his friend pain as well.

He sighed, bringing Relena’s thoughts to come to an abrupt halt. She looked over at him, her cheeks flaming. “Heero?”

“I think that it is time to go,” he said quietly, not looking her in the eye.

~ To be with you, there's nothing that I wouldn't do

I'm powerless swept under by your sweet caress ~

Trowa looked up when he heard movement. He saw Heero place his hand on the small of Relena’s back; a surge of jealousy soared through the usually calm pilot. He fought the urge to beat the other man.

He was slightly surprised when Heero looked right at him when they passed by him. His eyes spoke of regret and sorrow.

Heero mouthed for him to wait for him to return. Curious as to what Heero wanted, Trowa complied.

~ I'm fadin' fast

One look at you and I forget just who I am

I come unglued if I can't be with you ~

Relena passed by Trowa, trying her best not to look at him. She crossed the street staring at her heels, letting her companion led the way.

But just as Relena and Heero were about to enter her apartment building, she couldn’t resist looking back over her shoulder at Trowa. Their eyes met again, and she felt as if a bolt of electricity shot through her.

~ Every time I close my eyes I see your face

I taste you on my lips ~

Trowa and Relena felt their worlds slip into fantasy again...

**Fantasy**

Relena broke away from Heero and ran across the street. Trowa stood up and caught her in his arms, but lost his balance and fell to the floor with her. But it didn’t stop their lips from meeting in a frenzied kiss.

~ Every night I fantasize

That I can feel you on my fingertips ~

Relena’s hands slid under Trowa’s shirt feeling his hard muscles. While his own hands cupped her breasts, gently caressing them through the satin fabric of her soft blue dress.

A groan of frustration came from her lips; she ripped the dress from her top, exposing her bare breast to him and his roaming hands.

~ Yeah baby ~

“Would you like anything else, sir?”

The question was like a bucket full of cold water over Trowa.

He turned to glare at the waitress. “Can I get a scotch whiskey?” His voice was hard with frustration. He was in desperate need of a drink.

The waitress visibly shrunk under his glare. “Y... yes sir.” And scampered off to get what he requested.

~ Oooohhh ~

“Relena?”

Guilt shot through Relena as Heero’s voice pulled her from her fantasy.

She turned sad eyes towards him, giving him a small smile. Then let him lead her into the building, this time she succeeded in her battle not to look back.

~ Every time I close my eyes I see your face

I taste you on my lips ~

Heero’s heart clenched when he looked upon Relena’s guilt-ridden face when they walked in her apartment.

“Relena...” he paused making sure he had her attention. “I know that you don’t love me.” When Relena opened her mouth to protest. “I know you care for me, but not like you are in love with Trowa.”

Relena’s face flooded with color as she looked down at the floor. “I’m sorry,” she whispered.

Heero crossed the room quickly and lifted her chin, forcing her to look in his eyes. “Don’t be. You weren’t meant to be with me. What we had was good.” His voice went soft. “But I am not want you need.”

“Heero?”

“I will always be your friend Relena,” Heero said, kissing her forehead, then quickly walked out her apartment door, grabbing her keys at the same time.

~ Every night I fantasize

That I can feel you on my fingertips ~

“Trowa.”

He was just about to down his drink when Trowa heard Heero’s voice. Again, he was surprised by Heero’s forlorn expression. He gestured to the seat across from him, placing the drink on the table untouched.

Heero sat down, his fingers playing with the keys he swiped from Relena’s place. “I know.”

Dread filled Trowa’s soul. “You know?” his voice was barely above a whisper.

Heero looked up meeting the other’s eyes. His eyes were hard as steel. “Take care of her, or I will kill you.”

Trowa’s mouth dropped open as Heero stood up and placed the keys on the table. “These are Relena’s. Take them back for me.”

Then he walked away, disappearing into the shadows, leaving Trowa to stare after him.

~ Oohh

(To be with you) ~

Relena stared at the door for several moments, her mind trying to process what had just happened. A small sense of loss filled her. But she knew that Heero had made the right choice. She couldn’t go on with Heero and having wild fantasies about Trowa. She hated lying to Heero, no matter how much she wanted to love him, she just couldn’t.

She shook her head and walked into her bathroom, thinking about taking a nice long shower. She had to relax in order for her to decide what to do next.

As soon as she was sure of the temperature she wanted, she walked over to her bedroom and pulled out a silk nightgown to wear when she got out of the shower and laid it out on her dresser.

~ I would risk a thousand lifetimes

There's no mountain that I wouldn't climb ~

Trowa stared at the keys on the table. He wasn’t sure if he should take them to Relena, he was sure that she loved Heero. But his heart argued with him that Heero had left her and practically ordered him to go to her, more accurately threatened him with death if he didn’t.

For once Trowa was unsure of himself. He looked up towards Relena’s apartment and made up his mind. He grabbed the keys and dropped money on the table and left the patio area, quickly making his way across the street. He was going to talk to Relena and sort out all of his feelings for the golden-haired beauty.

~ (To be with you)

(To be with you)

Yeah ~

Trowa stood in front of her door for a moment, trying to get up the courage to knock. He had never had this much trouble facing his fears before. Then again, he had never dealt with this kind of situation. It was so much different than being a emotionless soldier. He leaned against the door and it opened under his pressure.

He quickly entered and closed the door behind him. He turned around to call out Relena’s name but what he saw made his mouth drop open, his voice catching in his throat.

~ (To be with you)

Every time I close my eyes ~

Relena was moving from her bedroom, taking her clothes off as she went. The steam of her shower serving as a background. Slowly the dress fell down her body, landing in a heap of blue silk on the floor. They were quickly followed by her heels and pantyhose.

Trowa’s eyes feasted on her long shapely legs and her smooth stomach. She was still clad in her bra and underwear, which where pale blue satin, covered by black lace. The underwear had thin straps around her hips, and the demi cups pushed her breasts up just ever so slightly. Her golden hair cascaded around her, making her look like a goddess.

~ (To be with you)

Every night I fantasize ~

The keys slipped from his fingers, causing them to fall to the floor.

Relena looked up at the noise, going completely still as her eyes took in the shocked features of Trowa. As many times as she imagined him, she never imagined him showing up at her apartment like this.

“Trowa,” she whispered his name as if it were a prayer.

~ About you baby ~

Trowa felt himself moving, it was almost as if a force was pulling him to Relena. He stopped just inches in front of her. His fingers found their way to cup her cheek.

Relena sighed and leaned into his caress. “Is this real?”

Trowa sighed in response and pulled her close to him, capturing her lips with his. Heat seared through him, his head spun slightly, and he lowered them to the ground, somehow removing his clothes in the process, leaving him clad only in silk boxers.

~ (To be with you)

And your right here with me ~

Trowa rained kisses down Relena’s body, scorching her skin where his lips met. He stopped at the tip of her bra, running his tongue over the tops of her breasts, enjoying the hissing sound emanating from her lips.

Relena tangled her fingers in his hair, begging him to touch her breasts. Her face was flaming at the heat she could feel emanating from Trowa’s tongue. She could feel dampness between her legs and she parted them slightly, gasping when Trowa slid his own leg between hers.

Trowa stroked her breasts, causing the nipples to pucker through the material as he slid his leg up and down against her most sensitive spot. He watched through his hair as Relena moaned a writhed beneath him for a few moments before he stopped his ministrations.

“Trowa?” Relena croaked out, sliding her hands over his bare chest, causing him the shudder with excitement.

“Shh,” he whispered. “Turn over.”

Relena gave him a quizzical look but did as he requested.

Trowa moved her hair from her back savoring its silky feel for brief moment. Then he began to kiss his way from her neck down to the small of her back, lingering to give several hot, wet kisses on her lower back, before moving back up her back again, this time stopping at her bra. With quick and sure movements, he unclasped the bra and motioned for the gasping Relena to stand up.

Relena did so, turning hesitantly to face Trowa, nervous as to what his reaction was going to be.

Trowa’s mouth went dry at the sight of her, then quickly moved to slowly sensually pull her underwear down her legs, leaving Relena naked. His jaw dropped at the sight of her in all of her glory. “You are gorgeous,” his whisper was husky.

Relena smiled at him, her face full of passion and a hint of mischief. Trowa quirked an eyebrow at her as she dropped to her knees and quickly shed him of his boxers. She kissed her way up his legs, stomach, chest, pausing to swirl her tongue around his nipples, up over his neck and jaw, and finally finding her way to his lips.

Trowa quickly picked her up, never breaking off the kiss, and moved towards the bathroom.

~ (To be with you)

I would risk a thousand lifetimes

To be with you ~

Relena giggled as Trowa set her down in front of her shower. It was a large glass stand-up shower. She opened the door, checking the water to make sure that it was still hot before she stepped in and pulled him after.

Trowa spotted her lotus hanging from the facet and he reached over and grabbed it, putting her body wash on it. He slowly washed her body, taking special care to linger at all of the right places.

Relena was leaning against the wall, mindless, only feeling the sensations that Trowa was creating all over her body. She could barely stand when he finally when he had dropped the sponge, her body felt as it were boneless.

Trowa smirked; he clearly enjoyed the wanton expression on his love’s face. He slid his body against hers, moving his hands slowly and surely over her body, slowly finding their way into her heated cavity.

She sucked in a breath as she felt his fingers enter her. She moaned out his name as they picked up a rhythm, and leaned heavily against him. She could feel her world spiraling out of control and it was like fireworks went off in her body as she reached her orgasm. “Troooowwwaaa!”

Trowa held her to him, letting her catch her breath before claiming her lips in a soft tender kiss.

When the kiss ended, her eyes met his. “Make love to me.”

He searched her face looking for any sign that she wasn’t sure, finding none, he nodded his head. “Not here, your first time isn’t going to be in a shower.”

Quickly turning off the shower, he stepped out, picking her up in the process. He laid her wet naked body in the middle of her white satin sheets, and crawled up next to her.

He looked deep in her eyes, again searching for any signs that she wasn’t sure. “Relena, you don’t have to do this. I am more than willing to wait for you.”

She shook her head. “No, I need you now, Trowa. I love you.”

Trowa’s heart felt as if it were about to burst. “I love you too.”

~ Ooh

To be with you ~

He claimed her lips, moving his body between her legs. He slipped his tongue in her mouth in an effort to distract her as he slipped into her hot folds, breaking her virginal barrier.

Relena gasped as the pain consumed her body, but could feel it slowly start to turn into pleasure as Trowa took up a rhythm. She found herself matching him stroke for stroke. “Trowa...” she moaned.

“Relena...” he answered back.

“Faster... Trowa… faster,” she panted out.

Trowa complied, increasing his strokes. The sounds of their moans and cries filled the silence as they urged each other on.

As Trowa felt himself near the edge, Relena went stiff under him, her orgasm pulling him into his own. Both cried out the other’s name as they fell over the edge, clinging to each other.

Trowa collapsed onto Relena, while she wrapped her arms around him. Both were breathing heavily, sweat beaded to their bodies.

“I’ve dreamed about this for so long,” she whispered when she gained back her breath.

“Now you don’t have to dream any longer, I can make it a reality,” he whispered back.

Relena smiled into his shoulder. “Reality is so much better that fantasy.”

He pulled himself up to look into her eyes. “You don’t regret not waiting, do you?”

“No, the only thing I regret is waiting so long for us to be together.” She slid her fingers into his damp hair, then down over his back.

Trowa moaned, a shiver running down his spine. “If you don’t stop, we aren’t going to get out of this bed for awhile.”

Relena gasped as she felt his member harden within her. She wrapped her legs around him, pulling him down into a heated kiss. “I don’t mind.”

Trowa’s only response was a growl.

~ Baby there's nothing I wouldn't do ~

*Angel walks on with Heero*

Angel: Well, another little ficcy done.

Heero: *crosses arms over chest* I lost Relena again to Trowa...

Angel: But you know Heero you always have me...besides I wanted a lemony fic

*Duo runs on screen whispers something to Heero and then runs off*

*Heero gets and evil grin*

Angel: Um...Heero *gets nervous*

Heero: Angel wants a lemony fic, Heero wants the girl *holds up a lemon and a smirk crosses over his face*

Angel: *sputters* no Heero...Angel doesn't take part in lemons

*Heero chases Angel off screen and Trowa and Relena walk on*

Relena: think she can out run him?

Trowa: nope...but if you review she might be happier when he catches her

*Authoress screaming help in the background...both Relena and Trowa chuckle as the disappear of screen*