"I found I could extinguish all human hope from my heart"
"Happiness was my fatality, my remorse, my worm: my life would always be too vast to be devoted to strength and to beauty"
"Once I remember well, my life was a feast where all hearts opened and all wines flowed. Alas, the gospel has gone by; suppose damnation were eternal! Then a man who would mutilate himself is well damned, isn't he?"
"It is not rebellion itself which is noble, but the demands it makes upon us"
"Freedom is nothing else but a chance to be better, whereas enslavement is a certainty of the worse"
"Then came man. He wanted to cling, but there was nothing to cling to"
"Blood of the world, time staunchless flows; the wound is mortal and is mine."
"The thought of suicide is a great consolation, by means of it one gets through many a long night"
"One should die proudly when it is no longer possible to live proudly"
"There's an awful lot of white, British kids who have never really gone hungry, always had a roof to live under, but at the same time are desperately unhappy. It's not total poverty, just a poverty of ideas"
"At the age of ten or twelve everybody is full of some kind of optimism, yet by the time they leave school they've given up on everything. In that five or 6 years your life has been dramatically changed and pretty much destroyed"
"The eye is the only perfect circle on the human body. When a baby is born it is perfect but as soon as it opens its eyes it is corrupted and everything else is just a downward spiral"
"Man can will nothing unless he has first understood that he must count on no-one but himself; that he is alone, abandoned on earth in the midst of his infinite responsibilities, without help, with no other aim than the one he sets himself, with no other destiny than the one he forges for himself on this earth"
"Every existent is born without reason, prolongs itself out of weakness and dies by chance"
"I alone knew the truth about life, knew that it was all a miserable downward spiral that you could either admit to or ignore, but sooner or later we were all going to die"
"I consider my death as a supreme protest against a world of blood and tears"
"I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving, hysterical, naked, dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry fix. Angelheaded hipsters burning for the ancient heavenly connection to the starry dynamo in the machinery of the night"
"We wandered around, carrying our bundles of rags in the narrow romantic streets. Everybody looked like a broken-down movie extra, a withered starlet; disenchanted stunt-men, midget auto-racers, poignant California characters with their end-of-the-continent sadness, handsome, decadent, Casanova-ish men, puffy-eyed motel blondes, hustlers, pimps, whores, masseurs, bellhops- a lemon lot. And how's a man going to make a living with a gang like that?"
"Normal is the good smile in a child's eye; it is also the dead stare in a million adults, both sustains and kills- like a god. It is the ordinary made beautiful, it is also the average made lethal. Normal is the indespensible murderous god of health"
"unbeingdead isn't beingalive"
"to be
nobody-but-myself in a world
which is doing its best, night and
day, to make me everybody else
means to fight the hardest battle
which any human being can
fight, and never stop fighting"
"The tragedy of it is that nobody sees the look of desperation on my face. Thousand and thousands of us, and we're passing each other without a look of recognition"
"With me, the present is forever, and forever is always shifting, flowing, melting. This second is life. And when it is gone it is dead. But you can't start over with every new second. You have to judge by what is dead. It's like quicksand... hopeless from the start. A story, a picture,can renew sensation a little, but not enough, not enough. Nothing is real except the present, and already, I feel the weight of centuries smothering me. Some girl a hundred years ago once lived as I do. And she is dead. I am the present, but I know I too will pass. The high moment, the burning flash, come and gone, continuous quicksand. And I don't want to die"
"Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards."
"Loneliness is the central and inevitable fact of human existence ."
u/k(sartre?)
"I am not even alive enough to know how to kill myself."
"There is only one good, knowledge, and one evil, ignorance."
"I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance"
"Even when someone battles hard, there is an equal portion for one who lingers behind, and in the same honour are held both the coward and the brave man; the idle man and he who has done much meet death alike"
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