Jesse (4--05)

I didnt really care
if what we were doing was wrong
those nights we share
in your arms big and strong

It was not fair
that I couldnt be with you
possible pain i was aware
but with your kind eyes me you drew

i am always here
and I wanted you to come
waiting I shed a tear
I guess you just cant see

my heart was clear
but what the hell was i thinking?
alone with my fear
that you will allow me to keep sinking

I know i feel
because of that i paid the price
of what you conseal
if your cant find the words be concise

Whats the deal?
to the question i need an answer
just wanted to heal
my feelings seem to be a cancer.

I asked Jesse why he held me tight and I got dced 3 times by the phone. He told me but I missed it and he wasnt going to repeat it.

my heart is not my own
its been split up and taken
my wounds i have sown

but i am still shaken.

i wish for it back
but i fear that woulnd be
strength i do lack
pain they've caused they cant see.

seems the harder i try
the faster i do fall
i will drown as i cry
as long as I'm their thrall

note:unfinished??above

Suicide of love

why did yuou have to go?
why did you have to die?
why do I have to cry so?
why do i have to live a lie?

since your been gone its been hard
i'm still picking up the pieces
i'm cut more by each shard
my pain forever increases

note:unfinished (above)

Christian quick write

they are stupidly closed minded morosn who have nothing better to do with their sorry ass little lives than to push their religions on others for thier own benefit.

Tattered is my mind
torn is my soul
scattered as unwind
worn as a whole

tired is my heart
tested is my being
fired I fall apart
stressed i try seeing

note:unfinished?>