my spirit has now borken. I have nothing to give anymore, no feelings for anyone. I'm not dead inside I feel other feeings still but no love, no like. I have seen released from my life long lie. but i feel dead. one made the plan, one layed down the work and the other did the deed, nothiing more, but will I tell him? the latter? never. He along with the others dont need to know. I dont celebrate my freedom but mounr my lost. nothinng can be done, nothing will fix this now. its too late. Closure.