IWF Chapter 9 | Rays of Gold - IV
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I lost?... Hell no I didn’t lose, because for me to lose that would mean that a match took place, and that is certainly not what happened. What did happen, is Darvin wanted to play childish games, and seeing as there was no other way I was forced to oblige.. And then he rolls me up and is credited with a win?... What the fuck?.. Doesn’t matter though, because once the games were put aside I proved what I have said all along, that I am superior to you Chris, so scream victory all you want, but in the end that “match” and I use that term very, very loosely.. But what did you prove from it in the end?.. That you can Pin me when we were not even in a match, and then proceed to get the holy hell beat out of you?.. Because that is all that happened, see normally after a loss, I am upset, but like I said, I didn’t lose, that was nothing more than a joke, which seems to be what a great deal of IWF is about.. A bunch of people trying to be cute and funny. But no one seems to actually want to put up a REAL fight and wrestle. Chris Darvin is suppose to be making his way through the ranks of IWF.. So what that tells me is that people are rewarded for being ignorant fools. But don’t expect me to resort to that, I’ll take a “loss” over losing my dignity any day of the week. Darvin, you may have won the “fight:”... but the real war begins tomorrow. Because that is what this was all about. It was never about Chris Darvin and Silencer. It was about the IWF Tag Team Titles. At least for me it has been, with you I am not sure, you were searching for a way to get out of your slump. Perhaps you were more focused on out match then I was.. Because quite frankly I saw it as a complete waste of time.. Which it was. So maybe it was my fault that I got your little joke played on me.. Hell when you handed me a controller I should have hit you in the face, but I played along, and in the end I suppose you “outsmarted” me.. How much clever planning went into that I will never know, but judging but the idiocy of it.. It could not have been that much. Come to think.. I actually came out victorious. Because I was not the one laying defeated at the end of the night. I was not on my back looking up through a maze of broken splinters. That was you, lying on your back after I planted your ass through the table. So have your laugh.. Haha everyone has a good time and can enjoy your joke. But there is no question, that after tomorrow night, the joke will be on you. And right now I am more confident then ever. You.. One half of the tag team Champions, didn’t even have the courage to fight me like a man. And when it came to the physical aspect of last night you got decimated. When this shit started, the field was wide open.. Every team had a real legit chance to win the straps. Now there is no question.. Hell there is not even a concern. I can see the shining gold already. The Rays will be beaming down on us in no time at all...
What time is it?.. 3 30 AM.. And I am just getting on the road back to my hotel after the pre show, a two hour drive still lies ahead of me because lord knows Nicolae is not going to drive and Nitara is asleep in the back. But I almost enjoy it, pump some music and just zone off, enjoy the darkness of the night, and the emptiness of the road. I cannot help but think about how things can change within in the course of a week, go from completely normal to haywire, and then back to as close to normal as you can possibly get all things considering, eh.. It seems so hard for me to be able to keep focus on things, or simply enjoy them, the simple pleasures I used to enjoy in life are now cluttered with thoughts of my problems, usually I drive at this hour would be relaxing, comfort, a safe haven for my mind to rest and relax, now it is only a festering pool for all of my problems to rest upon my mind. The music I would normally get into is almost like it is on mute.. Conversation is no excitant.. I am just starting to calm my nerves a little, when Nic turns off the music and says.
” Man, you should have let me play for you” I barley heard what he said, and it is without a doubt going to be pointless but, I ask anyway.
“ Beg Pardon? “
” You know.. At the pre show, when you and Darvin played the IWF PS2 game.. You should have let me play for you, I am the master of PS2. “
” You are a moron. “
” You’re just pissed because he was kicking your ass. “
” We didn’t even play the game. Before we even started it he got his “victory” over me.. Remember? “
” Still.. If you actually got to the game, you should have let me play, I would have showed him whats up . “
” Never say that again “
” Say Wha... “ cutting him off..
” Stop.. Just don’t say anything, you are an idiot.”
” So how much longer do we have til we get to our hotel. I am tired as fuck “
” I don’t care.. We will be there eventually, and its only 4.. Why are you tired. Pussy. “
” Unlike some people I actually do shit during the day”
” What exactly do you do?.. You don’t even have a job. All you do is follow me around. “
” .....”
” Exactly.. You don’t do shit. Now shut up, I am trying to enjoy the ride. “
Moments go by and we sit in silence, and then out of no where I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket, I flip it open and it reads unknown caller. So I don’t answer it, it stops ringing and I put it back in my pocket, only for it to vibrate again seconds later, once again.. I look at it, and once again it is an unknown caller, not wanting to be annoyed any further .. I decide to pick it up.
” What? “
“ Tyler? “
I voice of a man is on the other end of the line, it sounds scared, and weak, yet familiar, but obviously he is unsure if it is even me.. Meaning I don’t know him
” You called me.. You must know who I am. “
“ Its me... “
” Its you?.. Well mind telling me who you are. “
I can hear the phone being shifted around, almost like someone else took the phone from him, and began to talk, then a voice comes on the line that I understand.
“ Its him Si.. He wanted to talk to you before anything went down. “
And then it hit me.. But I had already told myself I would not be shocked by anything, so this is just another step towards proving that, even though my mind was racing.. I still managed to say ok to Punisher and then he got back on the line, a man I had not heard from in 20 years, is now on the other end of the line. And even though I want to talk to him like a normal son, he doesn’t deserve it.
” Well you have my attention what do you want. “
“ Don’t do this.. Call it off, we could start over, please give me a chance. “ He is a weak man, I can hear his voice cracking, he sounds on the verge of tears.
” Start over?.. How do we start something over that was never there? You never gave me a chance, why should I spare your pathetic life? Give me one fucking reason. “
“ Because I am your father. “ What a joke.
” No you sorry bastard, you are not my father, I don’t even know you, you are merely another stranger to me.. A face without a name, I wouldnt know you from the homeless bum on the street, you don’t deserve to live.. Hell you don’t deserve to die, all you deserve is to live in the hell I have been in since the day you left me.. Did you give me a second chance? “
“ Well I....”
” No.. You never gave me a first chance, you ran away when I needed you the most, you drove mom to suicide and then couldn’t be man enough to live with it. So you disappeared, never offering to contact me. Give you a second chance?.. You have got to be kidding. “
“ I know what I did was wrong but you have to understand. “
” I have to understand?.. Why? What reason have you ever given me to give a FUCK what you want? Or what you feel? Your life is meaningless to me.. You are meaningless to me.
I must have gotten loud because Nitara sat up and Nicolae was leaning close trying to hear, I stop my Hummer, and get out now walking on the side of the road.
” Do you understand yet?.. I don’t know you, and we will keep it that way. You pleas for sympathy will go down in vain. Save your breathe and except the fate you have sealed for yourself. “
“ Don’t do this. PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU! “ This is sad, I grown man graveling for his very life, begging to someone that could not care any less, his pleas for his life should be hurled at someone who cares. I think he is now in tears, and that brings a smile ot my face.
” Stop fucking begging.. You have never faced anything like a man, at least try and save some dignity. And I didn’t do anything.. You did this to yourself. See you in hell you sorry son of a bitch. “
Pun comes back on the line.
“ You done? “
Funny question considering we have never began anything.. Someone I never knew is about to leave me, something that never even began is going to end, sooner or later everything does end. Is that not what they say?.. But you would think before it ends it would start. Irony..
” Yeah.. I am finished with him. “
“ Very well, The Punisher will make a call.. And this will be over. “
” it’s already over.... “
Click.
Truth sits upon the lips of dying men.
And so it is.. People will never tell you how they really feel until they know they wont have to be around to face the consequences of that truth, that case laid before us today has been no different, while he never spoke his truth, his voice, his emotions said it all.. While he wanted to started over.. He knew it was never possible, him being a coward ruined that. While all of the truth will never be known, enough of it has been exposed for my soul to rest, this was never about avenging my past, it was about putting it to rest, which is exactly what transpired. Now.. All of my past has been laid the rest.
Until more of it is exposed.
” Everything ok?.. “ ...no.
” Yeah... everything is splendid. “
” Is um.. Everything resolved? “ Clever choice of words there.. He everything resolved..ha nothing is resolved, there will never be resolve when it comes to this subject, but we have closure.
” Yeah, its all done. Time to move on.. And move forward. “
” Well are you going to stand out here in the dark, or get back in the car so we can get some rest tonight. “ And just like that.. Everything I have been faced with is over. With that statement my lovely wife just made, she has made it clear that she wont bring it up ever again.. This will soon be a memory of our past, a tale that will soon be forgotten and never be remembered when we look back on the vast scheme of our life. In fact every day that we face after this.. It will become less and less a part of us, and less and less a part of me. Its over. 2 words that say everything.
” Yeah, let’s go. “
And the shadows of my life part... and the Rays of Gold shine through.
Tomorrow.. Well actually Today, will be my first real test in IWF. Unlike the first tag match witch was a joke, the match with A2 that was all but predetermined for him.. And very much unlike that joke fest of a match with Chris Darvin, the Abhorrence Tag Team Title match will prove to be a true test.
Or will it?..
Sadly I am torn between the hype put behind this match.. And the sad realization that it is becoming a bitter disappointment.
Jason Starr cant decide whether or not he has respect for me or not. Why you feel the need to tell me I am the strong link in the Sinistars I am not sure, if you are just trying to take a shot at Punisher I am sure there are better ways to go about it. Because we have no weak link. Your judgement of him is only a sad a pathetic way to try and make an insult, if that is all the more creativity you have then you are not nearly as talented as you would like people to believe you are. And making fun of how he talks?.. Ironic coming from a man who talks to himself, a man who takes many different forms through out a promo, in some lame, overdone attempt at getting a laugh.
Do you actually listen to yourself? .. All that is, is the standard EGO TRIP that everyone has done. What else are you going to come at me with... “you have no chance.. We will win”.. Shit you probably have said that. As for giving me something to work with, yeah.. You made it clear as crystal that you are indeed a generic, boring... cliche’ loser. With an over used persona and a bad one at that. So here’s a hint.. First, figure out with Jason Star is talking to me.. Then, say something important. And Gary Mac. Holy fucking hell. Even though I didn’t manage to watch your entire promo, I am sure the bit I caught gives away the rest of the show. But I believe somewhere within the piles and piles of crap mac was spewing out, he mentioned me. Gary, I never claimed to be the most entertaining guy in the world, I have said it before that is not my role. But you.. Actually attempt to entertain, and fail MISERABLY.. Your endless babble carries on like a broken record, soon enough someone is going to switch the record to something better, something worth listening to. I never said us winning the titles was a lock. But I did say you not walking out with them is. Who else do we have.. Avirez?. No I said my piece on him, and that bitch still has not gotten the testicles to say anything back. That’s fine.. Because you are wasting your time. Jackrabbit fucked you over. Therefor giving you no chance what so ever at winning this shit. You may keep your singles title Avi.. But we are talking about the tag TEAM titles.. And I don’t see a team with you, I see a scared little black boy hiding behind a gigantic ego.. But your clever words wont team up with you for this match Avirez. You have no partner. You have no team. And you will have no titles. Everyone else is just a spectator, Jackrabbit, Inkarnate, what ever that other team calls themselves... Its over.. I am done. Words mean nothing at this point.. Time to use your fist boys. Let’s see if you all can pack a punch with your fist like you believe you can with your tongue. ...Cut it.
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