I saw it coming, one.. Because Aaron Andrews is winding down to the end of his career, it is nearly over and he is trying to go out with as much of a bang as he can muster while facing Kevin Jones. And two.. Because my effort was not all there.. In fact it could have been seen is right down lackluster.

But its alright, I have moved on, I have lost before and I will lose again.. The key is not to dwell on it, and believe me I have been there.. Where every loss affects me, where after I lost I would go into a state of depression, and would not come out of it, therefor my career was hurled into a downward spiral.

But this time I am just going to roll with the punches sort to speak.

I wont hide behind a wall of excuses, or try and say I got screwed, or jobbed, so on and so forth because that would be a lie. I would only appear foolish and ignorant.

A2, you and I may never be friends, hell we can barley be civil, but I now have a new found respect for you. I talked my game, and you came at me like a man, and beat me straight up. No bullshit, no help, you beat me and I can respect that.

But don’t mistake me being ok with this as a sign of contentment, I am not happy with my current state in IWF, and I have no one to blame for it but myself. If I want to move up.. I have to do it, and thats what I have to learn before I will beat someone like A2... and I am not saying I cannot beat him, because I have beat him.. And I am sure I could again. But... last week I didn’t prove it.

But that is in the past, to me that loss has to become a memory, I have to push it out of my mind and look forward for what lies ahead of me. And that is a HUGE week. In fact it may be one of the bigger weeks of my entire career. With the massive IWF pay per view, that in itself would be enough to put this week on the map, but on top of that, there is the

Reign of Power Finals. And I’ll be god damned, I am in it. Who would have guessed huh? None of you would have, and you know why?.. Because I saw you all, picking everyone but me to make it this far. And that is fine, because it makes this all that much better. Because then I can laugh at the people who have doubted me and are not here to back their shit up.. *cough* Andrew Hurley *cough*...

But getting here was not the hard part, its getting past it. Hell I am one if not the biggest underdog to make it this far, there are more people on the Anti-Silencer bandwagon than any where else... so imagine if I come out of the battle royal and into the Reign of Power Finals.. The shock on some peoples face would be priceless, you would not even need a picture because their jaw would drop for good.

But for now... I am going to relish in the moment, just making it to the finals is more than any of you expected it. And why is that?... Because your ignorance never let you give me a chance. But now you have no choice but to except the fact that there is a REAL Chance that I could win Reign of Power...

How big... who knows but....

What if.

But before I can get to that... I must sort out the things that are real. Life come before business, and life is calling.

I can see the Rays of Gold... yet right behind it is a wall of Shadows..

It’s the story of my life... with great opportunity comes something trying to attract my focus..

Only time will tell if I can succeed.. Or if I will fail.

Because fact is.. It is much easier to give into failure, then to push for success.

..My struggle, begins now...

During a week like this I should be focused, excited and happy, but rather I am somber.. Not because of a loss... that has nothing to do with it whatsoever but once again, people from my past have began to surface... but this time the shock was so unexpected that I am not sure if I am going to be able to focus on anything but it for some time to come... in fact when I realized what was going on, I was so shocked... stunned actually that I have been unable to focus on anything since then. Not sure if any of you have ever went through something like that, so shocking that it consumes ever bit of your daily actions, controls your thoughts and movements. If not.. I envy you, because it is a hindrance. I am not even able to do my daily routine because of this. Not sure what I am talking about?.. Yeah I didn’t expect you to.. But stay tuned and you will see what I mean.

It was about noon on Monday, and I was out with Nitara, and we were at our favorite restaurant.. Nothing really out of the normal there. We sat down and this ridiculous looking waiting asked what we would have.. And naturally we told him.. And after he left, we talked for a bit... this was before it happened

” Damn.. I am exhausted “ And that was the damn truth, I could have slept for a week, and that is a lot coming from me.

” Well go figure... you have slept a total of 3 hours in the last 2 days, and had a wrestling match, I would say that is just cause to be tired. “

” I suppose, but I have been through more with less sleep, but for some reason I just feel drained. “

” we all get like that hon, don’t worry about it. “ Always the optimist

” Jesus I am hungry... I wish they would hurry the hell up. “

Just as I said that a man in a suit came over to me, asking if I would go and sign the sheet of names of people that had eaten there that day Naturally I did not want to do it.

” You want me to do what?...”

“ Sign our guest list sir... it will only take a moment “

Since our food was not here yet, I decided to go ahead with it, I walked to the front desk and picked up the list, and then it hit me... like a load of bricks, crashing right into my soul.. Because the name that was last on the list.. Read.

Bryan Simon

” Dad?...”

No way, it had to be another person with the same name. In a frenzy I walked over to the man who made me sign it.. Trying to get out the words to ask him a question.. Still barley able to speak

” Did... did you see this man come in? “

“ Certainly sir... why do you ask? “

” Could you describe him to me.. ? “

And I sat there, as this man described my father to me, in nearly perfect detail.. I could not have done it better myself. I felt dizzy, sick, and weak all at once, and I nearly fell to the ground. The man caught me and asked if I was ok, but I was unable to speak... and just walked over to Nitara,... sat it my seat, and was unable to say a word to her.

” Are you ok? “

I could not even respond to her, she grabbed my shoulder and shook me a little. And I still could not manage to speak to her, she then knelt in front of me. And looked into my eyes. And asked me.

” Tyler.. Is something wrong? “

” he is alive.... “

Finally able to speak that is what came out. Obviously confused Nitara looked at me still trying to pry it out of me.. And as much as I wanted to spill my heart to her, I could not do it here... I could not do it now. But she needed to know something.

” My dad.... is alive. “

And then her face turned into the shocked expression I have been feeling. She leaned back and put a warm hand on my knee in an attempt to provide comfort. But nothing could take my mind from what I had just learned. Nothing could sway me from what I was just told.

I have a father...

And he is alive.

....damn.

Well now.. Looks like I have a lot on my plate this week eh?.. Not only do I have the tremendous match up with the Reign of Power finals. But two matches for Abhorrence.. Well one for the show and one for the pre show. Regardless a big weekend none the less.

She lets not waste time.... first things first Chris Darvin. I man who I know very little about. But obviously you have impressed someone in the IWF front office. Moving right on up in the ranks of IWF. Chris, I just watched your first promo, and It was well within my intentions to come on and bash you, but you have given me respect, you have shown me that you can see when someone has dedication and talent, so I will give you the same respect.

But don’t mistake that for weakness, because when the time comes, you are an opposition, and that means I will have to take you out. But that doesnt mean we have to belittle it with petty insults and pointless arguing.. I have always believed you win with yours actions, anyone can talk a big game and rant and rave about how they are going to tear someone apart.. You can verbally rape someone until you are blue in the face, but what does it accomplish, has anyone ever talked their way to a victory?... No, so Darvin, I can appreciate the way you are going about things..

If it comes to a battle of words.. Then I will cross that bridge then

Because right now.. My real focus is on the Tag team title match.

Damn, quite the competition.

It seems like everyone is liking to focus on The Un404ables. And sadly I have to go with the current trend. Seeing as they are the only team I have any history with. And I am sure neither one of them can forget what we have been through, especially after what Pun and I did to them this past Sunday. Complete decimation.. Was it an attempt for them both to take notice of us? Yes... was it to get the point across that we are indeed a real threat for the tag titles? Yes again. And was it to let them we have not forgotten about the past? You bet your ass.

First of all Avirez, I know he cannot forget our history.. Simply because I hold a 2-0 record against him. And I will not allow him to forget it. Even though Avi has been getting all the attention, all the fame. He is in the spotlight all the time.. He can never claim that he has a defeat over me.

And that kills you doesnt it Avi.. Knowing that you have been unable to defeat me.

But to be honest, that was a long time ago. He and I are both completely different people. We have both evolved... and changed. Things will be different this time around I am sure. After all this time we actually have a prize to go for.

But he is not the member of the team I want to focus on.. That would be Jackrabbit. Long time no see eh JR? Just think.. 6 months ago.. Before you lost your touch and faked your death, you and I were leading EW.. Hell we were the only thing that people remember about that dreadful company. Because if there was one shining star in the black hole that was EW.. It was us. Our battle, our hatred... our feud.

And I remember it like it was yesterday. The match we had for the EW Title. And you Jackrabbit were the one person who sent my career into a downfall. You took my pride, you took my title, you took my spotlight. And ever since then I have been unable to recapture the glory I once had. And in my eyes I wont be able to get back to that level. Until I knock you off. Until I prove how far I have come..

Because whether or not you are willing to admit it, I have the ability to get under your skin like no one else. Who else has been able to force so much aggression out of you. You know good and well that not since then have you had so much fuel.. I had to talking for so long... because I lit something inside you. I got you stirred up.

And my goal is to recapture that... if nothing else I want to tie you in knots, get you all worked up. To try and recapture the magic we once created. People say what they want about me JR.. But you, you don’t talk much shit about me.. And I think I know why that is... because you have been through the trenches with me, you and I have battled with each other in a way that not many people have

But I will let you make the first move.

And when you do, I will be right there to retaliate.

And I must agree with Darvin, Matches with this many opponents can be annoying, after all who wants to spend that much time on talking about every single person involved with the match. My focus will be on the Tag Champs themselves and like I said The Un404ables... the rest of the field is just there to ad substance to the match, in fact I don’t see any of them as a threat. Inkarnate and Starr?.. Please, only thing worse than that team is the Super Kress Bro’s.. which to even call them a Tag team is simply a joke. Pun and I have been here what a week and a half and have already surpassed them in the rankings.

That is actually all I have to say about the rest of the pack, because to ramble through each and every person involved would be a waste of time.

oh and Gary Mac. Its Sinistars you fuck...

Get it right. Because that will be the name written across your Tag Titles after Sunday