IWF Chapter 4| A Waste of Life...
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Ever meet someone that before you even talk to them.. You know you are going to hate them? I am sure you have, we all have.. It’s a fact out in the world there are people that no matter how hard you try you could never get along with. And rather than striving to become civil with them, I simply blow them off. Its too much work to try and establish some sort of civil state with someone that you simply despise. After being around for the time I have... I can almost tell at first site if I am going to get along with someone or not, appearance can truly be everything. You can look at someone and almost tell what they are all about, you can tell their life story just from what they look like. Whether they have been through struggle, or whether they have had life handed to them. I can tell a genuine person from a fake any day.... Aaron Andrews is fake. And so is everyone like him. And I believe there is a term that suits him very well... WIGGER, quite possibly the biggest disgrace to the human race . Because they are false, they are fake, and they are worthless. If you were intended to be black, then your skin would be 5 shades darker and you would work your ass off for nothing. Why anyone would want to be black is beyond me. But I guess society has changed over the course of the last few decades, it used to be white people could not even stand to be around blacks. Now we got little white boys like A2 running around trying to be just like them. The irony of this just baffles me. How the fuck am I suppose to believe anything you say Andrews?.. Its like you are acting 24 hours a day, and the role you were cast for sucks. I don’t know.. Perhaps I am the only one who finds his little charade amusing.. But it just doesnt seem natural for a white kid to say “ merc dat nigga “ ... who the fuck says that. Blacks don’t even say that. Andrews you have taken your desire to be what you are not to the highest level. You are phony.. You talk about gimmicks, damn man your whole life is a gimmick, you are living a gimmick every single day. Every hour you are alive you are doing nothing but putting on a show. And it is a show that I turn off at first site. So I think you have guessed what type of person fits my mold as a complete loser. Its Aaron Andrews and every other suburban white kid who tries to “flow”.. And who uses “hood slang”.. They level of stupidity that, that type of behavior brings is so high I can not even imagine how anyone could ever take them seriously. When I see a white kid trying to act like a thug, I laugh, because it’s a joke.. It’s the most unnatural thing I could ever imagine. It would be like me trying to be a choir boy.. It just would not work, and people would see it as a joke. In short, I can sum up Andrews and his kind in one simple phrase. A waste of life. A complete and total waste of it. When I see you, I wish you would instantly stop breathing, all of humanity should be ridden of such ridiculous phonies. Perhaps an execution.. A mass execution even should be in store. Send the motherfuckers to the gas chamber. Put them in, turn on the gas, and lock the fucking door. Because all I could do is laugh as their thug image would fade and they would be made into the bitches that they truly are. I can honestly say if I saw a wigger walking down the street and he was suddenly shot in the head, I would point and laugh, hell I would probably kick the worthless bastard in the face and chuckle as the last bits of his worthless existence came to an end. Acting is for movies Andrews... drop the games... Step to me like a man... Or don’t step at all. But you wont, because people love to see a white kid act like he is black, so the act will go on, and a new wave of pussy white kids trying to be thugs will continue to be spawned until society realizes what I have known from day one. That anyone who puts on an act to please someone else. Is a waste of life.
For some reason today, more than most days, anything that anyone says to me seems to be an annoyance. I am having a hard time holding a conversation with anyone, simply because it seems like they have nothing important to say. Its all just babble that I don’t need to listen to. I was at home for a while today... Simply because I didn’t feel like going out, but after a while I was driven out, why you ask? I know usually I am one who likes to confined in the solitude of my home, but today I was nearly driven out of there. And it was because of two people.. The two people I care for most in this world, drove me to the brink of insanity, and I shit you not I wanted to beat the living piss out of Nicolae... not sure what I mean?... Take a look at this.
” Hey whats up Si “ As soon as he entered the room I could feel myself being annoyed, his voice was like nails on a chalkboard. All I wanted him to do was leave.
” For the love of god... go away. “ His face turned from glee to a expression of surprise. Rightfully so..he had done nothing at all really, I was just incredibly annoyed. Like I said.. Just one of those days.
” You ok? “
” No I’m not.. Please just leave. “
” The hell is your problem man?.. I didn’t even do anything. “
” Your presence alone is enough to irritate me. Can you not see I am trying to read.? “ and I was.. I just wanted to be left alone to read my newest book.. History of the Occult. But I suppose that was too much to ask.
” So what are you reading? “
” if I wanted you to know.. Don’t you think I would have told you? “
” Damn.. Just trying to have a conversation” Yes I was aware
” I realize this.. But the thing is.. I don’t want to talk, see, or hear you.. Please remove yourself. “ I was hoping he would get the hint.. Wishful thinking I suppose.
” want to go do something.. I’m kinda bored “
” No.. And I don’t care. “
” why cant you just be happy. “
” why cant you remove yourself from the room? “
” Bah.. You are in a miserable mood today” Isnt that the truth
” Then why try and make conversation when it is obvious I want to do nothing of the sort. Go talk with Nitara... or go play in the traffic, I really don’t care. “
” fine.. Enjoy being alone. “
” I will thank you.” Thank god he is leaving.. But that was not the end of it.
he went into Nitara and I’s room, to try and pry conversation out of her.
” Hey, what’s the deal with Si? “
” Hm?”
” I don’t know what the deal is, just seems really edgy lately.”
” Ah.. Well you know him, when he gets nervous that’s how he shows it. “
” Think he is nervous?... About what?”
” Just things in general.. I don’t know I am sure it will pass.”
I walked into the room... and just to let them know that I am going to leave. Why.. I don’t know.
” I’m going out... “
” Oh? Where to...”
” Not sure... “
” when you coming back....”
” Today...”
” Um..ok? “
” Later....”
So I went out, in search of something that could relieve the stress I have been under, eh., fuck that.. .I wanted to get plastered, so I went to my favorite bar in LA.. When I got there, it was the usual scene, a smoke filled haze hung over the room, and it reeked of beer.. Sounds perfect right?...So I walk in.. And the bartender asks what I will have to drink.
” Got any Jack? “
It’s a bar, of course they do.. He brings me a shot over, and I down it as soon as he hands it to me, slam it down and ask for another. That little exchange happens a couple more times, and then into the bar walks a young kid, dawning a Chargers jersey worn backwards, he has a do-rag and excessive chains around his neck. Oh.. And he is white. He walks up to me of all people and slaps me on the shoulder.. And begins to ramble off some incredible nonsense.
“ Yo Yo YO mang, sup homie? “
” beg Pardon? “
” Unless you would like to remove a 6 inch switch blade from your forehead I would suggest you go away “ What the hell does he want, jesus, the hell do people think I am, why would he think I would ever want to talk to him
“ Homes I saw yo ass on the TV last week yo.. Whiipin’ dat ass like wo”
” Are you aware you are wearing sunglasses indoors. ?”
“So... its fly man. “
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” No.. Its pathetic, and you are pathetic, and you don’t deserve to be alive. If you want to be black so bad, stay here for a sec and I will beat you with a nightstick. Fucking loser “
“ Whats wit all the hard feelings yo?...”
” You are a disgrace... please kill yourself. I’ll pay for the gun, “
“ Man thats whack.”
” .... I am going to leave.. “
“ Cool shit man.. I’m coming wit chu “
” No.. You are not, unless you want to end up in a casket “
I stand up and walk away.. Realizing that no matter how much I am annoyed at my home, there are always far worse people to come encounter with, as I walked away I see the wigger starting conversation with the bartender, I still don’t understand what would ever make him think I would want to hold a conversation with him, I would rather see him drop dead.. Hell I would rather drop dead...
So I went back home...
and Nicolae is still looking for something to do, and because fo my little run-in, I am nicer to him this time.
” Damn man, I never should have went out.. “
” Why?... what happened? “
” Nothing really, people just annoy me, I thought you get annoying but I would rather hang out with you when you are drunk off your ass, then run into another wigger. “
” A What? “
” You know, a white kid trying to be black. Like Aaron Awesome. “
” Ahh, fucking faggots “
” Tell me about it.. Only thing worse than a black guy, is a white kid trying be just like him “
” Can you say that? “
” Say what? “
” what you just said “
” I believe I just did”
” Isnt that a racial comment.? “ Um.. Of course it is, he is such a moron but I know what he is getting at.
Yes Nic, it was.. “
” fuck if I know.. Who reads rules anyway? “
” True”
” If they get to offended they can censor it.. But I have heard worse, so don’t worry about it. “
” A2 did another promo... “
” Thats nice... worth watching?”
” Not hardly... pretty pointless.. “
” Fuck that. I’ll watch it later.. Want a beer?.. “
” Make it a bottle of jack and Im good. “ I need something that will end this day quickly.. So that sounds like a good idea.. After all, what else am I going to do.. Bore myself with a A2 promo? Fuck that shit.
” jack it is “
After a few moments I grabbed the glasses, and me and Nic each pour a shot. And then Nitara walks in
” This looks friendly.. “
” Care for a shot sweetheart? .... “
” What the hell.. Sure... “
” Good”
” What the occasion? ...”
” Putting an end to a very shitty day”
” Sounds perfect.. “
” Drink to that... !”
” Ha.. Yes.. Let’s “
and then we toast and the end of this terrible day is finally upon me.. Thank fucking god.
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Seem my reign of power opponent is still silent, cant say that I care.. If he doesnt want to say anything I suppose that is fine, after all who am I to complain about a free win, if I make it into the 3rd round I could give two fucks how it happens, because I am sure that going that far would be far past anyone’s expectations.. Eh, I cannot even begin to waste anymore time on this shit..
I’d say it’s a safe bet that you will all be seeing me.. In round three.
Now..
Turning my attention back to the IWF, Andrews. . I see you decided to open up and speak, cant say I didn’t want you to, but after watching it, you might as well not have said anything at all, because as I watched it.. I searched for a point.. A reason that you kept talking. You were not accomplishing anything at all, because you have not said anything that has not been said 100 times before.. Yeah Aaron, I am aware that my respect level around here could be higher, thanks for pointing out the fucking obvious.. You have had all this time and that was the best you could hit me with.. Pathetic. How many times do I have to say, I don’t care what people think!
Searching for attention?
Hardly..
You’re right you don’t know me very well, and that is obvious because why would I want attention, I am not going to search for it, I will create it, and bring the attention to myself, this is not some plea for attention Andrews.. It’s a quest to better myself.
You say perfection is unobtainable.. Perhaps. But why does that prevent me from reaching for it?.. you may be happy with your couple World Titles and having a few people your name.. But I am not.
And where was the verbal raping Aaron? You said you were going to tear me apart, you didn’t even say shit, you just talked in circles about pointless bullshit, I know I don’t “rape” people.. But then again, I never claimed to be able to.. You spent all the time “saying” you were going to verbally assault me.. But where was it?.. Was it so bad that I just missed it?.. fuck man, if you are going to build your shit up, at least be able to back it up..
And A2, I was thinking.. This is your last two weeks of your career, and look how you are spending them.. Facing me? A man you don’t even think belongs... and then Kevin Jones?.. The Fuck kind of way to end your career is that.? You’re not going out on top..
you are going out in the mid card pal.
What a way to end your career, fighting Kevin Jones in a mid level match, what has Kevin Jones done? Obviously your legacy wont be as great as you want it to be
But keep thinking that you are going out on top A2.. Because fact is, when you look at your career against some of the greats, you have not done shit.. Have I? No.. But I am just getting started man, you are done.. And you still have not done anything except make promises of the things you were GOING TO DO..
You are pathetic..
You are a waste of life and a waste of my time..
2 weeks will come and go.. And you know what Aaron, no one is even going to notice you are gone.
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