lost
Mood:  hug me
so what do you do when you think that everything in your life is falling apart..and i mean that everything..i just got my grade back from english and it said not passing i have no clue as to how..but yeah..and i don't know i am soo lost and this is the 2 time that i have taken this class i can not do it again..i don't know i am soo lost right now and i don't know how i am going to find my way and i just don't know what to do anymore or even why i should try..i am lost and i just don't know anymore..

tought
Mood:  not sure
so what do you do when you think of somthing and you knew that it would always happen and you had that person in your mind that you wanted it to happen with but what if all at once things changed and the person that you thought that it would happen with changes and now there is a new person and you can not see it happening with this new person. i mean it like it was always there and you knew that somthing would happen..but than you also want it to happen and the one person keeps saying that it all up to you and that you should pick but you get the kick that they want it just as bad as you do..soo tell me is this right because i think that it is i just have to wonder what someone else will think lol

it a pople

ummmmmmmmmm
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: brooks & dunn ain't nothing about you...
i only have to wonder what people out there relly think i mean..you an here one thing and the next you are out in the blue..it vary odd but i guess tha life and i just don't get it anymore..i mean you listen and you here one thing and than the next thing you know it not what you thought just what you wanted to think..it all come down to what peopel really mean and really say..i mean like right now i know one friend of mine says one thing but yet i can soo tell that they mean a nother..and i don't know what to do about it..it all a mess right now that one thing i do knwow it all a big fucking messs...but i don't care because at one point i was happy and i mean that really happy and i have not had that in some time and with brake comming up and all the family crap that i will have to put up with don't know how long it will happen again..lol.. dear god i have to know what has my life become now..and yea that was a qustin..and i guess in some time i would like an answer when ever you get the time.. but really i mean..it always seem tha once i get happy about something or i start to get something to go my way everything seems to go to shit..i guess that just my life but i can say that so far thing have not gone wrong and i am hoping that they do not..but you never know the only thing that i really can do it really hope and let me tell you i am really hoping this time lol..and anyone who get bored and does read this give a little hope too would you lol i could always use it..but i will fill you in more once i find out what going on lol..it my life soo i should be the first one to figer it out or at lest i hope i should be.....but out and loveya alll *kiss* lacey

thought
Mood:  down
so what do you do when you get your hopes up about something that you did know that was nothing going to happen in the first place..i don't know why i thought that it would but it did not..i knida knew that it would not because i don't know it was just one of those things that i kinda new. it not a big deal but a little bit of me was kinda hoping that it would

thought
Mood:  down
so what do you do when you get your hopes up about something that you did know that was nothing going to happen in the first place..i don't know why i thought that it would but it did not..i knida knew that it would not because i don't know it was just one of those things that i kinda new. it not a big deal but a little bit of me was kinda hoping that it would

thought
Mood:  down
so what do you do when you get your hopes up about something that you did know that was nothing going to happen in the first place..i don't know why i thought that it would but it did not..i knida knew that it would not because i don't know it was just one of those things that i kinda new. it not a big deal but a little bit of me was kinda hoping that it would

goodbye
well that is it i am done with you and you know who you are..i mean how dear you get mad at me because i have a life out side of you and you are still traped in that hell hole with the best..but i am done i mean that this time to..i know that lor would roll her eyes at it but it true it over and that it..and you know i am happy saying soo and i am happy and i smile about it..i know that i am wroth soo much better than you and than that..i should not be 2best i should be first and that what i am going to be. i don't know to who but to someone out there and i know that they will take me for me and all the bad..for all the good..to my smart ass remarks to my shy smile and my blushes that you did not want to see..but you know that does not bother me anymore because i know that that is just nother part of me and that makes me happy. i mean i am happy. i mean i talk to some guys now and i giggle i giggle. i mean i am not lacey the goth but me..the me that for right now i just want to be..i am me and i see now that you did like some parts of me but i think that for others you just could not handle them because of how i acted..but that ok now i understand it just because you are weeker than me but hay we all can not be like me and i am strong i know that now.

the one
Mood:  down
you tell me that i am the one, that now one else will do. you kiss me and hold me tight telling me that you miss me. you look at me with blue eyes and that smile and i fall. than you leave me on the ground to find my own way back to the world because you no longer need me you have the one you want. the one that says she need you, and here i am all alone agian to pick my self back up but no more. i am done you made this miss not me, you thougt you could have it both the beautie and the best. well the beautie say no more she is done. keep your best because the fun is done, never agian will i fall to pick my self up after you are gone.

play..IE guys suck
Mood:  down
love to use me and than throwm me away..
you love the play time but at the end of the day are broded and back in the dark i go. you tell me that you are there and that you will always need me but as soon as phone rings you put me down. you love to tickle and kiss but it never right, i am never right. i am not the one you want the one you keep i am just your play thing to pass the time. when the fighting starts and the pain begian instead of sticking it out you run to me. hoping to take me back to have your fun, but in the end i am the one left crying on the floor.