hmmmm
Mood:  down
I hate birthdays, so i have had my usuall, no aknowledgment yucky boring birthday, altho it wasnt as bad as i anticipated in some small ways.

no one at all (except kathe) even called from colorado, not any friends, not my sister not my mom no one. hell not even a fricking email. but there ya go, i guess thats typical, last year i got a 5 day driving trip from hell to my new home ironically also in hell for my birthday. so i suppose i should be happy at least i am not driving through kansas thid year. i did get a compliment and 10 bucks from my husband, he says i dont look a day over 25. what a doll he can be. i am just irritated with my life and the whole birthday thing drives it home to me that i havent accomplished much with my life so far, and that i am getting to the age where my co workers look at me and assume that this is gonna be my career, and the end of my expectations is being a damn cashier. i must must get my ass in school this fall, i dont care if we all eat ramen for the next couple years, cause cashiering is not the end of my road. i am thinking i am done with the med field too tho, nursing is a good paying, and very acceptable carreer choice for a girl my age and all but i think i am just done. i am really leaning towards business management, and accounting. it mau not pay quite as well but i think it would make me happier. besides a bitch like me just belongs in management, hell i irritate everyone anyways i may as well get paid to do so. besides, i am very inovative, and can actually lead in the right situation very effectively. so thats my depressing birthday blog, i know what a bummer, right? but such is life, and on a side note my birthday always sucks, so this dosent set a precedent, i have had worse. i am very jazzed about going home next week tho, and plan to get tons of pics, if i get hold of a scanner i will post some too.

happy birthday to me!
Mood:  irritated
So tomorrow is my birthday, yippee do. I have to work, and the head bitch in charge caught on to the fact I still was wearing my comfy shoes, so I get to do tomorrow in I kid you not... a pair of hiking boots, yep thats right hiking boots. The witch insisted I wear different shoes tomorrow, and it was all I could come up with in black. Also they have determined that we are no longer getting a clothing allowance to buy our shirts but need to furnish our own. This shit job is rapidly becoming more irritation than it is worth.Aside from that I intend to go to work tomorrow, not see my husband, come home dead on my sore hot feet and scrape up something to cook (day before payday of course) and that is my lovely plan for my birthday, it is almost as depressing as it is irritating. No one even mailed me a card, buncha slackers, I mean my friends I understand not doing anything, cause I am usually unable to do much for them, but you'd think my mom would at least mail me a birthday card. What a rip off! Anyway I am not going to let it irritate me, I will just pretend it is not tomorrow, and take my self out Friday night I guess.
Anyway, at least school is out, Zane got to go swimming today, and I am hoping he will sleep good tonite. Oh and i am proud of myself, I clogged the kitchen sink last night, and I managed to fix it myself today, took off the elbow and drained it, and put the plunger over one hole and flipped the switch for the disposal and there it went, the dumb man couldn't even get it to work, and was suggesting leaving it till Friday and getting Drano then, (yeah right just leave some stagnant water in my sink for 2 days I am thinking not gonna happen) anyway thats me. hope you all are well!

Mood:  spacey
So we went to see starwars...twice this weekend, i am about starwarsed out at this point, kind of over drama'd but not too bad i thought, and it ties up all the questions pretty well.
Anyway i am down to 8 days till i leave, i am getting pretty psyched, i looked at the weather in denver the night i get there and it is supposed to be a heavenly 67 degrees. it is much much hotter than hell here now, talk about sweating to the oldies. i insisted on a fan at work today on the threat i very well might pass out if i didnt get one, and the stupid girl who replaced my old boss is already irking me, for one thing i have requested the time of next week litterally 4 times, and been approved each of them, but does she know that apparantly not, the dumbass. anyway she is ok assessed of the fact in writing (again), so i better be ok now.
So here's a funny story for you all, i get a note from zanes school, full of dire threats, ie no report card sent, no field trips, not release of records pending payment, several spots are open to check mark what the fee is for ie books, supplies etc, and in the bottom is a space marked other, in this space is written "past due lunch money, balance due .10. yep thats right friends and neighbors, i am gonna get fined fee'd strung up and shot, cause of a damn dime. so i enclosed tomorrows lunch money with a long note and of course the dime and a phone number so they can contact me in the event the world might end over said dime. what a crock! its ok tho tomorrow is zane's last day of school, i know i for one am pleased it is over, and imagine he seconds that. anyway the hubby is here and i gotta crash...so nite all.

june the month of birthays
Mood:  lazy
Lazy is a great description of how i am tonite. The extra hour i am working each day is making all the difference. I had an interview thingy tonite, but couldnt find it (anyone whos been to Charlotte can simpathize i am sure) its ok tho, cause i have no idea what it was for as the woman came up to me at the store and asked if i was interested in making extra money, but gave me no details, so who knows what it was. i also was dead tired when i got back after circling the block for an hour looking for the stucco office with teal trim, so i fell on the couch and died till 10 pm.
it is my daughters birthday today, she is turning 12 years old. what an age not a kid not a teen just a pain in the butt bith for her and me i am sure! but i sent her a birth day card online, and have a cool b-day gift to give her when i get there on the 15th. i think she will be pleased. funny, she is a blonde blue eyed beautiful thing, and born on the same day as marilyn monrow. ah well, johnny dep is on mine, so i have a topic should i ever trap him in my bedroom! anyway you all have a great night, i am gonna be up late i imagine, but its ok, cause i might see the elusive hubby tonight if i play my cards right. got a couple wierd sci-fi ish pics tonight for you all. enjoy!

just a quickie!
Mood:  crushed out
Topic: Dead tired
Hey all. just a quickie tonight....too tired to keep my eyes open. Had a nice Weekend, cooked out at the mother in laws altho they were gone, the rest of us hung out at their place anyway. Those crazies went to Washington DC on a Harley for Rolling thunder, something relating to the vets and motorcycles, i guess. Apparently they had fun, and Les got some closure about his brother who died recently of war related chemicals.
Anyway today was Zane's birthday, and altho Kris had to work, I took my monkey-head out to dinner at wolf mans pizza, and hooked him up one of those tiny cakes (abt 4 inches across) which we put candles in and had ben and jerrys cherry garcia ice cream to celebrate. i got him a game boy at a pawn shop and it came with headphones and a game (grand theft auto probably a bit mature but i also got him a taz game) he seemed to have a good day, and is very excited to visit colo in a couple weeks. thats mutual, i am very happy to go but wish my mom was less of a pain in the butt, always saying i should stay and all that. it seems like altho a flake she would credit me for being a bit more responsible than to just catch a flight and not come back, leaving my hubby, my dog, and not to mention all my stuff behind to be jobless and live with her. yeah right!
Granted i do plan to move west after i get some kind of education out here while it is cheaper, but i am not even committing to colo for sure, maybe Montana or Nevada or somewhere else, it all depends on what is best for myself and for my family. Ah well such is the life of a mom i guess, it is like being assimilated into the Borg for those of you who are trek fans, you become one of the whole. anyway thats it for now, and those of you i haven't hear from lately give me a shout and let me know you are alive sometimes, i worry about ya!
anyway hi ho hi ho its off to bed i go! nite all.PS tonites pic affected me in a startling way it rose all the hair on my neck and brought tears to my eyes, i have no idea why, i mean it is powerful and all but maybe just for me comments are welcome on this one!

BORED!
Mood:  accident prone
Ugh, i hate being bored, I have no patience as it is, and no one is around tonight. I hoped to talk to Anna tonight, but she is asleep or busy, which is way understandable, but i am sooo tired, i am not sure i can stay up much longer. i went 20 miles each way to a training course for work, which was silly, it was an hour of learning all about product protection plans (fascinating stuff NOT!) but on a good note the boss gave me cash up front for my miles, so i can not only smoke tomorrow but can buy a cuppa coffe and a hershey bar on the way to work. I am still irritated with them tho, i got the next schedule, and next week, after i switch to crappy shoes again per the boss' request i an scheduled 10-3p each day meaning+ 1 hour each day then to add insult to injury they have me scheduled the week before my vacation 10-4pm each day, so for those of you seeing me in the first few days i am there, thats why i will be limping.

thats ok tho, cause thats 10 hours extra on my check for when i get back to here, which will be cool, cause i garauntee i will be broke coming back.
anyway i found some super cool pics tonite. check these out!

what a crappy day this has been!
Mood:  irritated
i am really starting to despise my job sometimes. i get there today and there is a huge cart of ink blocking the hallway, with full boxes lying all over the place, so i ask my manager what he would like done, and he says it just came in last night, (lie it came in friday night) put it all away. so i start that, but am on my own today, and it is busy and it only gets partially put up, so the other manager chewes me out at day end, because i put everything on the cart and pushed it out of the hallway into lockup so i could finish tomorrow. what ever dude! also the head manager ( yep clasic case of tons of chiefs and no braves there were 4 crew and 4 managers today) comes up behind me and tells me to get new shoes, not very nice cause i bought special nursing shoes for this job, at 50$ and approved them through her before i was hired, now i am gonna end up in payless kickers with sore feet every day, what a pain in the ass. i am starting to doubt i will last the summer at this job, and my call the other job that offered me a job when i get back from my vacation.
It didnt help any that i got up late and had an argument with my sons teacher first thing this morning in front of the whole class. altho i won so that was nice. this woman catches me as i bring my boy to class and says he hasnt brought his backpack for the last 3 days, so i tell her well i sent it every morning, but it didn't come home friday, then she starts shaking her head, and says no, no you did not, he didnt bring it, so i say well i sent it and he cam home friday with papers in his hands and said he left it here at school. then she says she didnt see it all last week and she sent papers home in his hands cause he had no backpack, so i call zane over and ask him zane where is you backpack? he goes to his cubby and pulls it out. so i tell her i guess it was here after all girly, next time check the cubby first, and left ( an obvious devious plan on zanes part, putting it where it goes and all)what a class "A" bitch, thank god it is almost over for the year.
so here i am mad as hell and pondering the if's have a better day all i am out. todays pic is my rendition of zanes teacher...how she really looks before the makeup.

weekend is over
Mood:  lazy
what a bummer. angelfire has had my site down for 3 days what a pain in the ass that is.
i am still up and shouldn't be but decided to cat nap today and ended up sleeping for four hours. so hence here i am. anyway i am updating my photo album, so check it out and enjoy.
also i am happy to announce i am down to 23 days left till my trip.yay!
my dog is down with kennel cough, he is high on cough meds tonight, so thats kind of funny, the poor baby, i was terribly worried abt him and hope the antibiotics work, then i can move on to getting him the rest or the way caught up on his shots and getting him neutered (poor baby).
the vet recommended waiting till he is off meds till i do anything with him, and also advised me to put him in a halter rather than his choke to walk him till his throat heals. She weighed him today and he weighs 77# which is a big boy, but less than i was guessing, of course i am the big fat girl he drags around like a rag doll during our walks too! only 1 pic for tonight but i really dug it. enjoy!

I found my demon girls
my husband gave me the artist name...i am so pleased,i looked for days with no luck. sorry guys yeppers thats right more naked women, but hey at least they are empowered types. besdies a few are specifically for thos who think if you are overweight you are instantly ugly. anyway here ya go enjoy.
Aside from that i am happy it is a friday that means 2 days off and some (rare) time with the hubby. Also i dyed my hair so wish me luck it looked awful orangy coming out of the bottle...but if its not horrible i will post something after it drys.also i got a few bettie page prints and will put a couple of those too...this one is for anna.

some guys, too bad men arent as pretty
as i told anna i am too chicken to go cruising the gay sites for pretty men so heres what i go this entrys theme is guys i'd do if i was animated...

anyway its work time again, but tgif, and as a bonus it is always payday on friday now, piddling checks but it helps alot i was horrified to discover kris dosent get paid for almost 2 weeks, so hence we will ve living on my 125$ a week till then, its ok tho, at least we have that to fall back on. got my calendar stared on msn last night, lots of b-days coming up. luckily i already got my daughters present. just have to work on the monkey heads now! have a good day all more later maybe oh oops i forgot one...