‹ About Me ›

Hmmm..let's see here...

First & foremost..i have joined bolt to express myself and be the way i want to be. If you have a problem with what i do and say then don't read what i post but it's my own opinions so don't send me notes critizing me. So now that you know i suggest you note sending me notes like that unless you have something interesting to say. If i keep getting notes from people that want to critize then i will feel the need to use this trusty little block button bolt has made so handy for me to use. it's as easy as pie.

So, let's continue...

Anyways...i screwed up on the age on my profile, i'm really 17..not 16. I'm from Missouri, a truly boring state but i've learned to deal with it. But i'm looking forward to moving in 6 months to Colorado. I'm homeschooled and looking forward to graduating a year early. What else can i tell you...

Oh yes, my personality is quite odd at times. I can be slappy happy one minute and depressed the next. damn mood swings. But i try to keep positive most of the time and not let things get to me as much anymore. I have no desire what-so-ever to be popular..i am content with being by myself, i enjoy life better that way..not having to put up with people's bullshit. My relationship status is...single, not that i like it that way but it seems like guys like to fuck me over, so i have alot of hurt from my past relationships. I have also have had a bad childhood and has continued into my teen years, making me the person i am today. all i have to say is don't try to change me or help me...you wont succeed.


‹ Songs i -Adore- at the Moment. ›

‹ Bands i -Admire- ›

.....Soundgarden-Incubus-Radiohead-Sublime-Janis Joplin-Alice In Chains-Pearl Jam-Silverchair-TOOL-Nine Inch Nails-A Perfect Circle-Staind-Chevelle-Fuel-Oleander-Bush [older stuff]-Ozzy Osbourne-Drowning Pool-Stone Temple Pilots-Smashing Pumpkins-Green Day-Fiona Apple-Alanis Morrisette-Collective Soul-Disturbed-The Doors-Rolling Stones-Rob Zombie-Fuel-Eagles-Nirvana-Foo Fighters-Hole-Pantera-ill Nino-Cold-The Used-Sugarcult-Soil-Finger Eleven-Bad Religion-Aerosmith-Garbage-Jimmy Eat World-Red Hot Chilli Peppers-Dashboard Confessional-Unwritten Law-Course of Nature-Flaw-Kittie-Deftones-Weezer-ACDC-Jerry Cantrell-Godsmack-Megadeath-Slayer-Sevendust...

there's more..i just don't feel like typing that much...


‹ Movies i Enjoy Watching. ›

[Empire Records.][The Breakfast Club.][Billy Madison.][Dumb & Dumber.][Se7en.][American History X.][Fear.][The Perfect Murder.][Fight Club.][Edward Scissorhands.][Riding In Cars with Boys.][Lord of the Rings.][Mount of Monte Crisco.][O.][Pretty Pink.][Sixteen Candles.][Newsies.][Office Space.]


‹ Things i Believe in. ›

Being true to yourself. Why be anything else when you have your own individuality...why destroy that by tying to be someone else? I think if people try to so hard being someone their not that when they grow up, they will have many regrets. Don't try to follow someone just because you don't like yourself..it's just a stage, it's part of growing up..but that doesn't mean you have to be someone who your not. and don't believe in something you don't think is right. basically you're letting everyone else make your decisions then making them yourself. and what's the purpose of that..when you have your own thinking abilities.

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Hitting-spanking a child for no reason. i understand kids deserves some punishment and maybe a spanking when they do something seriously wrong but to hit a kid for your own twisted pleasure, then you really are fucked up. i was hit alot as a kid and i don't believe it's right unless it's completely necessary.


‹ Experiences i Won't Forget. ›

When i was 7..my dad walking out on us and leaving us with nothing. The night he left is still very vivid in my mind. He came to the house with his new wife to get his stuff and tried hitting my mom right in front of me. He never even said good-bye to me, i just sat at the window and cried and watched him leave. I hate him for what he's done and i can't forgive him for that. i haven't seen him in 5 years. i hear he's currently living in a garage being a drunk..and planning on moving up in the world by adding on to his garage. i hate him.

Falling in love for the first time...

Losing my sister....[long story]

Basically my whole life since i was 7 until now..it's been nothing but chaos..i have so many stories i could tell you people, it's tiring.


‹ Easiest Way to Get on My Nerves. ›

People that label one another. I'm tired of that shit. who the fuck cares if your gotic/punk/popular...will it really matter after you get out of highschool and 30 years from now? It really won't, no one will care. it's pathetic on how hard people try to be something when there's no use in it.

People who have to degrade another person just so they can get a good laugh. It's horrible how some people try people for no reason-it disgusts me and for that reason i think they should get a good lesson taught to them that they will never forget.

Telling yourself that your not predjudice. EVERYONE is. And you can argue with me all you want but don't sit there and tell me, that you have not hated someone for no reason at all. I'm sure you have, everyone has. So don't give me that bullshit because i will prove you wrong.

Sluts. I dis-like girls that can basically get any guy they want and take advantage of that. I'm sure it's nice to be liked but don't make yourself look like a cheap whore. It bothers me that girls like that just throw guys away because they have a long line of them standing by for her, where girls like me can't even get a guy to notice her and when i do..it's very rare. a girl like me that would treat any guy decent and respect them and not treat them like yesterday's trash. but i can't only complain about those types of girls, the guys are just as much at fault for letting theirselves get used.


‹ Quotes. ›

"One more medicated, peaceful moment."-A Perfect Circle

venomous voice, tempts me, drains me, bleeds me, leaves me cracked and empty. drags me down like some sweet gravity. the snake behind me hisses what my damage could have been. my blood before me begs me open up my heart again. and i feel this coming over like a storm again. i am too connected to you to slip away, to fade away. days away i still feel you touching me, changing me, and considerately killing me. -H. (TOOL)

"After a while you can't ignore the fact that people keep saying 'You're so dark.' You might think, God, I think I'm a decent person, I think I laugh a lot, but somehow, I've offended people"

"I imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hates so stubbornly is because they sense, once the hate is gone, they will be forced to deal with pain."

"I used to think it was awful that life was so unfair. Then I thought, wouldn't it be much worse if life were fair and all the terrible things that happen to us come because we actually deserve them? So, now I take great comfort in the general hostility and unfairness of the universe."

"Look at people; recognize them, accept them as they are without wanting to change them."

"Some people see my scars and ask how I could do that to myself. I’m sure everyone thinks that I’m stupid – and I’m sure everyone thought that after I got out of high school, if I made it alive, I’d be the crazy women you’d see walking around town you tell your kids about. But when I look at my arm, I see everything I never want to be again. I remember the frightening stories behind each mark on my arm. Even though it’s something I don’t like to remember, in a way, I’m glad I have these battle scars. It’s like a physical lesson that I’m never going to let myself get that depressed again. The pictures’ are still vivid in my mind; the lattice work of thin red lines on my wrist, breaking down in the middle of class, the way people I didn’t know looked at me like they where scared of me, how scared my friends really where and how stupid I was for getting mad at them for caring."

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