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- by Lumus
He spoke, and the
stain-glass image of his lips was shattered:
"Why are you alone?"
The words nearly did not register with me, so taken was I by his
appearance. Neatly-combed dark hair, brought back and held by an unseen
force, brought his face to bear. Eyes darker than his hair pierced mine,
and though the words
he spoke were not reflected within, they felt...deeper, somehow. His
was a question that came from behind the mirrors of his soul, and found
their way into mine.
I did not answer, at first. I could not. His image burned me and
affixed me.
I could not look away, and my thoughts were numb to all but the thirst
that the sight of him parched. I wanted to hear more, and my own voice
was inadequate to address him.
He seemed to move, then. A flicker in his eyes washed a calmness over
me, and his next words were gentler:
"You chose this."
He was right, of course. In all the traffic of my life, this time was a
break from the maddening pulse of my existence. I was out, alone, and
seeking, though what, in fact, I sought eluded me. I was a statue, an
icon that I held apart
from my own reality; and so it was that I was here, a blind woman
chasing a handful of ash across the desert, though I pressed that truth
away and embraced
what small pleasures I could on these travels.
He did not speak again. Seven words fell from him, and I could not
breathe. His hand found mine. We sat, then, and gazed at one another
for a pool of time deeper than I could reckon. His hand met mine, and
it held me as surely as though it were the iron links of a cruel chain.
I did not resist. Know
this:
I could not.
When he rose, he still clasped my hand; I was compelled to follow. A
blur of lights, voices and sound battered my senses, but they took in
little more than the whisper of an acknowledgement. Wending through
flesh on parade, false smiles, and glasses of golden death disguised as
joy, we found our way outside. He guided me. I followed. When the
journey ended, we were in the
dark shadows of a building, and my back was pressed to the cold brick.
A wind caught our jackets, but I only knew it was there, nothing more.
I was numb in body, as well as mind, and no small part of that came from
the fact that
his eyes bore into mine like pleasant nails.
The eyes crept closer, and the broken image of stained glass pressed
against my lips. I tasted my own blood, and still I could not move. A
moan escaped me, then - or so it seemed. My flesh was crackling, sturdy
tatters that broke under his caress, lightning spiking from one limb to
another as he consumed my mouth.
He wanted more. I did not try to resist, though if I had tried, my body
would have surely defied me. His mouth crept down, leaving my own lips
a torn, blooded mess; it spilled down the path that his contact made.
It pooled at my chin, and
was spent, unnoticed, a rain of crimson tears.
He moved further down, and my head found enough strength to turn, if
only to expose myself more to him. Fire coursed down my neck, then,
settling to a spot below the lobe of my ear. His mouth broke a final
time...
My skin ripped like paper beneath the pressure of his teeth. I was
undone, and uncaring of the fact. He suckled, and even as I felt a cold
creep into me I also felt strangely alive. He was giving me sight into
the world beyond the one so desperately rejected when prowling; he
was leeching my habits from me, not my blood. My familiar pattern was
gone, forever, and I know that I did
moan then for certain. So gentle, so thorough he was that not one tear
spilled from my eyes; only my life washed away, my responsibilities and
my struggles obliterated by his intimate act.
I remember that he guided me down to the concrete. I saw his eyes one
last time - large, illuminated by some unknown source - and then I slept.
I dreamed of the things he had taken, and of the things yet to come.
When I awoke, I was alone; he left me as he found me. I felt no wind,
though I heard it. I felt no hunger, just an ache to see him a final
time. I felt the presence of the memories of my former bearing, but
those memories would not stay. They slipped from my mind, quicksilver
through clenched claws. What was had been lost. What I had
become now lay before me.
I occasionally step from the shadow, into old, decaying places where the
pliant gather. I find a suitable meal, and I gaze into desperate eyes,
and whisper...
"Why are you alone?"
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