Mood: hug me
Maybe I've been self-centered lately. To anyone ard me. Seemed I'm giving up in pleasing others. I failed to please myself. I am happy with what I have but I am not yet happy with what I am. Not in any means of the Diploma exam I am seating for or the clothes I have in the wardrobe. It is actually my attitude wise. Still imperfect to be someone perfect.
I think I failed to be the good girlfriend to the other half. A friend said maybe I lived too independently on myself that I want him to behave that way. Not to stick with me all the time. Not becos of I do not love him. Becos I have many things to achieve in a short period of time. Sometimes, I can't entertain his calls when I am too busy with work. I shld not say that I am a workaholic. I am just that kinda person who always make sure that I get my work done by dateline. I hardly meet the girlfriends. I somehow felt that I am drifting away from them. Honestly, I am by myself now. The problems shared have been between me and the Almighty. Cos no one ever understand my feelings except for Him. He feel my pain.
I realised I need time for myself. I want that ALL ABOUT ME time. Without informing anyone what I am to do and about to do. Don't tell me.. I know I am being self-centered.