I know what your thinking. How could I marry Leigh and at the same time long for a man? Long for Howie. I used to ask myself the same thing. I always thought men we're attracted to women and women attracted to men. I never understand the whole gay lifestyle. I can remember one day in middle school reading a book on James Dean. They said just before his death he was dating some woman named Pier something. They also said he picked up men in gay bars for what he claimed was free food. Their was an interview with someone who had known him. He said was all bull shit. That James had been Bisexual his whole life. Bisexual. How could be bisexual. How could someone be gay? It didn't make sense to me at the time. Now at XX, I understand perfectly.

I remember my first bi experience. It was in high school. Yes, I actually did attend one year of high school before Kevin plucked me away. Anyway, we were in gym class together. After track the guys would all shower before heading home. I was never one of those guys. I was 16 and 5"7 and well I wasn't all that big at the time. If you know what I mean. So yeah, I was rather embarrassed about being naked in a room full of guys. Well, one day the coach pretty much forced everyone to shower before leaving. I stayed on the field until the last possible second. Hoping by then most of the team would have gone home. Thinking I had it made when I found the stalls empty. I showered and stepped out in search of my clothes. Only to be met by the star of our track team. There I was totally naked suddenly staring at one of the most beautiful cocks I had ever seen. I'm sure you can imagine the ten shades of red I turned. Needless to say I ended up giving and receiving my first blow job that day. It seems like a lifetime ago. A lifetime since joining the group. Since meeting Leighanne. Now, he was happily married. Or at least everyone thought he was. He had worked hard to keep up this happy facade. Tried to convince himself that he loved her. She was kind, caring and beautiful beyond words. Everything a man should long for. But when he looked at her all he longed for was Howie.

He couldn't put a finger on exactly when he had fallen in love with Howie. Perhaps it was during his six week trip to Brazil. It had been the worst six weeks of his life. All he wanted was to see Howie's smiling face. But Howie was a continent away. All he had was Leigh. I guess if you ask Leigh she would say it was the best six weeks of our marriage. Every night for those six weeks they had made love. He couldn't see Howie's smiling face but he could make love to Leigh and if he closed his eyes and thought of Howie he could try and believe it was Howie. Their lips pressed together. His fingers trailing down Howie's body. God, he could almost feel Howie's long hands as they stroked his cock.

"Hey, there you are" said Howie smiling.

"Howie" said Brian jumping to his feet as the bowl of popcorn fell from his lap.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. Here, let me help you" said Howie as Brian.

"That's OK, I can get it" said Brian.

"Let me help will you" said Howie.

"Watching as Howie leaned over Brian nervously scooped the popcorn into the bowl as the whiff of Howie's cologne penetrated the air.

"So what were you thinking about" said Howie.

"Thinking about."

"When I came in you were pretty lost in thought.

"Oh, it was nothing" said Brian getting to his feet.

"Let me guess, it was about Leighanne" said Howie.

"Yeah, Leighanne."

"That's what I figured" said Howie smiling as he stared at the bulge in Brian's pants. "You know you might want to take care of that before you go out."

"Take care of it. Why couldn't Howie take care of it. Why couldn't he feel Howie's arms around him? Why couldn't? Dammit he couldn't be thinking this way, it was wrong."

"I think I'll see if I can find Nick" said Howie.

"Don't go."

"You, my friend need to be alone. I think Nick and I are going to have dinner on the deck. You want to join us" said Howie.

"I'll just eat in my room" said Brian.

"You know if you miss her you should call her" said Howie.

"Yeah, I'll do that" said Brian.