The leaves must turn the wind must blow.

The heart must learn when it's time for the heart to let go.

But when I think of you my heart grows wide.

I don't know how to say goodbye.

The world moves on with no regret.

And though your gone their are feelings I'll never forget.

So I'll rememebr you and though I've tried. I don't know how to say goodbye.

The house we used to share still looks as if your there.

And that won't change a single thing not even the wedding ring I wear.

The evenings fall, much harder now.

The stars grow small and the moon seems so different somehow.

But everytime I think of you, no your the only reason why I don't know how to say goodbye.

Making his way though the bus Justin smiled as he stared at Lance's empty bunk. It was the same as he had left it. His forgotten Gameboy hidden under his pillow, his bed still covered in Beanie Babies. Taking one from the bed Justin held it to his face. He could still feel him, still smell him as if... God how he wanted him to walk through that door, how he wanted to see the beautiful face he fell in love with. It seemed like only yesterday when he had looked at his friend and realized he was in love. "I can still feel him" said Justin.

"When's the last time you ate, the last time you slept" said Joey as his friend looked out the window of the bus with a blank stare, the same blank stare he had for months. "Justin?"

"I don't know" replied Justin.

"Justin you can't do this. Stopping your life won't bring him back" said Joey.

"What is it someone once said. Our greatest lessons in life are learned by loosing someone we love. Tell me Joey, what am I supposed to learn from this" said Justin.

"I don't know, but their is a reason things happen the way they do" replied Joey.

He was only -- years old. He had his whole life ahead of him. If I could just go back, if I could just hold him in my arms again" said Justin as a tear rolled down his cheek.

"He's pale. Why won't he sleep, why won't he eat" said Lance concerned.

"Because the boy has lost the will to live. You were his world and now that world is gone" said Henry.

"But he has Aaron" said Lance.

"All Aaron does is remind him of you" said Henry.

"Hey, how is my number one friend" said Chris sitting down beside him.

"I suppose your all here to gang up on me" said Justin frowning.

"Justin, you can't waste your life away" said Chris.

"It's my life, if I want to waste it that's my business" said Justin angrily.

"Maybe so, but theirs a little boy who needs you" said Chris. He's better off without me" said Justin.

"We're just concerned for you" said JC.

"Just leave me alone, ok" said Justin.

"It's ok, I'm here. I'm right in front of you" said Lance smiling.

"Did I ever tell you about that day. The day he told me he loved me" said Justin.

"You said you were at the beach" said JC.

"I never expected it, never planned it, but there it was, the four letter word that would change our lives forever. "Why dosen't he see me" said Lance.

"Because your dead" replied Henry.

"But I'm an angel, I can appear right?"

"Hello, this is not TV. You can't just appear. At least not yet" said Henry.

"Not yet?"

"All in good time. Now you want to stop interrupting the boys thoughts" said Henry.

"We had gone to the beach. Lance wanted to surf but I had been more content on working on my tan lines. Or at least I had tried working on my tan lines but all I had been able to concentrate on was Lance. Watching as he stood on the beach. His blue shorts soaked they clung to his lean muscular body. He looked an angel" said Justin.

"Blue, they were black" said Lance.

"You just, do not shut up do you" said Henry.

"The shorts were black not blue" said Lance. "So?"

"So, he never could tell a story right" said Lance.

"I'm surprised he was able to tell one at all with your motor mouth around" said Henry.

"Motor mouth. I do not have...You know you are not very nice" said Lance.

"That's what they all say. Come on, we've got to go."

"Go, I can't leave him" said Lance.

"He'll be ok. Look their not going to let anything happen to him. Now would you come on so we can get some sleep" said Henry. "I don't want to sleep, I..." "Hey, your dead, you don't make the rules anymore" said Henry.

"Guy's I know you mean well but I just really want to be alone right now. Can you take Aaron to my mom's" said Justin.

"Sure. Your going to stay here?" asked Joey.

"Yeah, I just, I need too..."

"It's ok. You know your not alone. It's been hard on all of us" said Joey.